In the past, Tangtang would feel better if she was with her, but now, she always feels that life is boring and meaningless. Even Tangtang's furry body rubs against her and plays with her, but she doesn't bother to take care of it.
Tangtang is a very smart dog. When it senses that its owner is in a bad mood, it will stay by and sleep obediently.
Although she stayed at home, she still wore a high collar to cover up those scars, because when she saw these scars, she would become very emotional, and her whole body would feel as if she had been caught in the rain, trembling with cold.
Once the gloom lingers in the chest and remains stagnant, it will cause serious psychological distress to people, and even cause a fatal blow.
Even if she didn't think about that painful experience, it would always come to her mind from time to time. She was so miserable that she couldn't bear to live. In addition, life was full of pain without any happiness, so there was a thought that kept lingering in her mind.
Since living is so painful, why bother living so hard? Why not just die, then there will be no more nightmares, no entanglements, no worries.
Once this kind of despondent thought is formed, as one person endures all this alone, he will embark on an extreme path.
Standing on the balcony, leaning forward to look down, I felt dizzy and my soles of my feet became weak.
If you jump from such a high place, you will definitely die, right?
Living so hard every day, she really didn't know how to support herself.
Just jump like this, and all worries and pains will be gone. It will be over.
She closed her eyes and took a deep breath.
In this world, she has nothing and really has nothing to be attached to.
Push your hands up hard.
The figure of Ling Yucheng came to mind, the only person who really cared about her at the moment.
She wanted to hold on strong for him, but now, she was exhausted and really didn't know how to face the painful life.
The warm sunshine shone on her, as if reaching out to summon her devotion.
He pressed harder on the railing to support his whole body.
Slowly leaning forward, she felt the gentle and warm wind blowing across her face, which beautifully made her smile with relief.
Just drift away with the wind, follow the wind, and all pain will be over.
"Bai Shuixi, what are you doing?" Suddenly, a cold scolding sound came from behind.
She trembled in shock, her center of gravity became unstable, and she fell downstairs.
"Ah~" A pair of warm hands grabbed her wrist and stopped her from landing, and she yelled in panic.
The residents downstairs heard the screams and stuck their heads out to take a look.
Seeing someone about to jump off the building, everyone exclaimed: "Someone is about to commit suicide by jumping off the building, someone is about to commit suicide by jumping off the building..."
"Jumped to commit suicide? Who? Who? Report the information to the media quickly."
"If any of you report information to the media, you will be in trouble with me, Ling Muze." He grabbed Shui Xi's wrist and threatened fiercely.
When everyone heard that it was Ling Muze, no one dared to say anything and quickly turned back.
His wrist was pulled tightly by him, and the whole arm was in severe pain as if it was about to fall apart.
Drenched in cold sweat, she couldn't help but want to tell him to relax. When she saw those dark and cold eyes, her heart tightened and she couldn't say anything.
When he saw her about to jump down just now, he felt that his nervous heart was about to jump out of his throat, and he even forgot to breathe.
She actually wanted to die, huh! Before he was done using her, she couldn't even imagine passing away so easily.
"Damn woman, you want to die, don't you? You are really brave, but it is the most stupid thing to escape from my imprisonment in this way. You have to pay the price for your actions." He said harshly, holding on to his hand.
With all his strength, he dragged her up almost roughly.
As soon as her feet touched the ground, her whole body collapsed on the ground, gasping for air. Her wrists hurt as if they were broken. She frowned and rubbed the red wrists that had been pulled.
Just now, she was on the line between life and death, and her mind was completely blank. Now that she breathed air, she realized that she was still alive and not dead.
Yes, she is not dead, she is still alive, and she is living well.
When I woke up completely, everything that had just happened immediately came to my mind.
Ling Muze, it was Ling Muze who saved her.
She raised her eyes and was immediately startled by his expression, which was so gloomy and fierce that it almost killed her.
"Get up." Before she could recover from the shock, he grabbed her collar, dragged her up from the ground and pulled her towards the bedroom.
"Ling, Ling Muze, you, what do you want to do?" She was frightened by his sudden move and shouted in panic.
"You will know later that if you dare to escape my grasp in this way, you will pay a heavy price for your idiotic behavior."
He threw her into the room with all his strength. Her center of gravity was unsteady and she fell to the ground.
He ignored her, closed the balcony door, and drew the curtains. His expression was dark and cold, like a Shura from hell.
Tangtang kept shouting outside the balcony.
He kicked the balcony door angrily: "Scream again, and I'll cook you and feed you."
The barking stopped.
Although it was daytime, once the curtains were closed, the entire bedroom became dark, with only sporadic sunlight shining in through the gaps in the door lattice.
He exuded a satanic aura like Leng Za's, and she kept stepping back: "Ling, Ling Muze, you, what do you want to do?"
"What do I want to do?" He raised his perfectly lined lips and sneered: "You even have the courage to die, and you are still afraid of me?"
Don’t you know that you are more terrifying than the King of Hell? You can only think about this in your heart, but you never dare to say it out loud.
She forced her limp body to get up from the ground and smiled at him pretending to be innocent: "I didn't want to die. I was just lying on the railing of the balcony enjoying the scenery. Suddenly, a beautiful bird flew by in front of me. I was deeply moved.
I was attracted and wanted to take a closer look, so I leaned up. Unexpectedly, you came and yelled at me.
She was happy that she had an idea and came up with such a good reason. She must be calm. As long as her expression did not show the slightest panic, he would believe what she said and she would be able to escape the disaster.
"You mean I caused you to almost fall to death?" He approached her and stared into her eyes for a moment, his tone filled with creepy evil.
Naturally, she couldn't admit it, and she wanted to say it nicely: "No, no, you thought I was going to commit suicide, and you wanted to stop me in time. If you hadn't stopped me in time, I would have fallen to pieces.
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She saw Ling Muze trembling when she said the words "to pieces."
It suddenly dawned on him that he looked so bad because he was worried that he would die.
No matter what the reason was for him to care about her life or death, it was rare for him to care about her, and looking at his face, she could feel that he didn't care about her in an ordinary way.
A warm flow of emotion flowed in my heart, and there was an indescribable sweetness surrounding it. Involuntarily, a smile bloomed on the corners of my lips, and I walked closer to him, looking at him deeply, and my voice was so soft that even I was stunned.
Shocked: "Did you decide my life or death a long time ago?"
His expression became even darker, like a cloud before a rainstorm: "Bai Shuixi, stop being so sentimental. If you die, I won't have such a good bargaining chip to take revenge on Ling Yucheng."
Although he was said to be ruthless, Shui Xi was not a zombie without feelings. She deeply felt that he cared.
Moreover, Chen Tingyu's words while he was hospitalized made her understand that he was not a cold-blooded person. The longer they were in contact with him, the more she felt that he was a hard-spoken and soft-hearted person.
Thinking of this, she suddenly remembered that on the day she returned to the apartment after being discharged from the hospital, if he wanted to have plastic surgery, she thought he thought the scars were too ugly.
Now, thinking about it carefully, when she closed her eyes, his movements of caressing the scars were so gentle, with the slightest care. If he cared, how could he touch those scars.
Suddenly he realized that he didn't want her to see the scar and think of that terrible incident, he was doing it for her own good.
And what did she say at that time? She said that he cared not only about her scars, but also about booking a room with that perverted man. He also said that she would check into a room with another man because he did not satisfy her.
Thinking that he had taken care of all the funeral affairs for himself, so that he could be acquitted even if he killed someone. Even if it was self-defense, as long as there was no evidence, how could the police believe her one-sided story? It was obvious that he was involved.
And when she was sick and hospitalized, he asked his best assistant Chen Tingyu to take care of her and make her happy.
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Thinking of all these things, she felt more and more that Ling Muze was actually not a bad person, and she felt more and more that he was a hard-spoken and soft-hearted person.
But she didn't feel the slightest gratitude to him, and even used words to irritate him.
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The more I thought about it, the more regretful I became. I looked at him with my eyes wide open, and my eyes were filled with tears of regret, which could easily fall down with just a blink.
"Why are you looking at me like you're committing yourself to me? Do you know that you look ugly when you're crying?" He said with a cold frown.
It was another sarcastic remark, but it no longer stimulated her. Instead, it made her feel unspeakably warm.
All that was swirling around in her head was his good deeds. Her nose felt sour and her head felt hot. She threw herself into his arms and hugged his waist tightly: "Ling Muze, whether you are doing it for taking advantage of me or not,
No matter what else, I thank you for not abandoning me and saving me when I was in danger several times."
He was overwhelmed by her sudden enthusiasm, with a complicated look on his face. He had the urge to hug her, but then he remembered something and pushed her away.
"Since you are grateful to me, don't try to escape my control in any way." His tone was as cold as ever.
At this time, hearing his domineering words made me feel inexplicably happy.
No matter what his reasons were, it was a fact that he saved her, and it was a fact that he cared about her. If he didn't admit it, it would be fine if she knew, otherwise why would he care so much about whether she would run away from him.