After knocking for a long time, Xia Lan didn't open the door. This made Shui Xi's worried heart jump out of his throat, because he was afraid that Xia Lan would do something stupid because he couldn't think of anything.
"Xia Lan, Xia Lan, open the door, open the door~~" I knocked hard several times, but the door still didn't come.
She slumped down in frustration and hesitated to find a locksmith to pry the door open. At this moment, the door opened in front of her.
She opened her eyes wide in surprise, and saw the man standing opposite him with red and swollen eyes, wearing pajamas, obviously much thinner, and with a dejected face. Shui Xi's face immediately darkened, and his expression was full of worry.
"Xia Lan..." Are you okay? Are you okay? How are you? Obviously there is no need to ask these words. She felt guilty and called Xia Lan's name in a low voice, but it was
I can't say a word of greeting.
Xia Lan smiled weakly, and that smile was more heartbreaking than crying.
She asked: "Shui Xi, why are you here?"
"You haven't come to work these days. I'm worried about you, so I just wanted to come and see you. I've been knocking on the door for so long, why didn't you open it until now? I'm worried to death..." She shook hands
Xia Lan's hands were shaking constantly, and she was terrified. If anything happened to Xia Lan, she would be blamed for the rest of her life.
Xia Lan chuckled: "Do you think I will commit suicide?"
"I..." She indeed thought so.
"Don't worry, I won't commit suicide for someone who abused me and hurt me so cruelly. Otherwise, it would be so unworthy."
Xia Lan could say this, and Shui Xi's worried heart relaxed a little: "I knew you were very strong."
"No, I'm not strong at all." She denied: "He is not worthy of my sadness. I am sad and even hurt myself. However, I love him deeply. I know clearly that he is not worthy of me being so devastated, but I still can't help but go."
I can’t help feeling sad about him.”
Before I finished speaking, there were already a thousand lines of tears.
Looking at Xia Lan, who suddenly shed more and more tears, Shui Xi felt as sad as a big stone weighing on her heart, so depressed that she almost couldn't breathe.
"Shui Xi, do you know? My heart hurts so much. It's like an awl is stabbing my heart constantly. It's stabbing me all the time." She pressed one of Shui Xi's hands on hers.
On the chest.
Shui Xi felt guilty and wanted to take back her hand, but was held tightly by her, sobbing and complaining: "Every minute I live now is worse than death. It would be great if I could die. But, I just
It didn’t take long for you to open the gas bottle.”
"What? Coal, gas bottle?" Shui Xi opened her eyes to infinity, filled with fear. Only at this moment did she smell the smell of gas.
No wonder Xia Lan didn't come to open the door she'd been knocking on for so long. It turned out.
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"Xia Lan, you are crazy." Shui Xi grabbed her shoulders and shook her. When she heard that she was going to commit suicide, she was so guilty and sad that she almost died.
Oh my god, Xia Lan has no business after meeting, it’s all her fault, it’s all her fault.
"I'm not crazy, I'm just living in too much pain and I don't want to continue living."
"Xia Lan, how could you commit suicide? Have you ever thought about what impact it would have on him and your relatives and friends if something happened to you?"
Shui Xi shook her shoulders with great heartache and said: "If you die, I'm afraid he won't shed a tear for you and will still live his life freely, without leaving the slightest impression in his heart.
But it is the greatest sadness for your relatives and friends. Do you think it is necessary to commit suicide for a man who doesn’t love you, doesn’t cherish yourself, and deceives you?”
Xia Lan shook her head violently with tears streaming down her face: "I understand what you said, but I only know that it's painful for me to live. If I die, it will be over, and all pain will be gone. I can't bear it anymore, Shui Xi
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Xia Lan collapsed weakly on the ground and cried bitterly: "I love him so much. Just talking to him makes me excited for a long time, but I dare not expect to develop further with him. I never thought that I would meet him."
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"Originally, I only looked up to and worshiped him like the sun, moon and stars. However, one night, he smiled gently at me and said that he wanted to have a serious relationship with me. He also invited me to his house for dinner. You don't know that I
How happy I am, I feel like I own the world. ．
She took a deep breath before she could continue: "The result... When I woke up, everything changed drastically. There was no tenderness, no commitment, no care. All there was was bloody teasing. I
Knocked down from heaven to hell!"
She looked at Shui Xi with blurred eyes: "Shui Xi, if it were you, would you be as broken as me, as heartbroken and desperate?"
Shui Xi was speechless for a moment. Yes, if she was deceived and used by the man she loved, she would definitely be in pain and life would be worse than death.
Thinking that she was the one who made Xia Lan miserable, regret, guilt, sadness, and pain all rushed into her heart.
She grabbed Xia Lan's hand with trembling hands: "Xia Lan, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's all because of my instigation that you became like this. Just hit me or scold me!"
As she spoke, she grabbed Xia Lan's hand and stretched it straight into her face with tears streaming down her face, but Xia Lan stiffened her hand and refused to hit her.
"It's not your fault, you didn't expect the ending to be like this." Xia Lan said, shaking her head.
"No matter what my intentions are, it is indeed me who caused you to become like this. Xia Lan, I know you are kind, so I can't bear to hold me accountable and blame me. But if you don't hit me or scold me, I will
I feel even more guilty and uncomfortable!"
"I......"
"Xia Lan, just give me a good beating and scold me, otherwise I will be so sad that I die!" Shui Xi was so overwhelmed by guilt that she couldn't breathe. The more Xia Lan stopped blaming her, the more she
The more guilty I feel, the more uncomfortable I feel.
The atmosphere suddenly became quiet, and then loud slaps sounded one after another.
Shui Xi closed her eyes and let the slaps fall hard on her face, causing burning pain.
Because she had her eyes closed, she didn't see Xia Lan staring at her and wanting to peel her skin off.
The slaps stopped, and Xia Lan's sad voice sounded: "Shui Xi, if this can make you feel better, I am willing to do it. I don't want you to feel any guilt for me anymore!"
Shui Xi opened her eyes, her cheeks were burning like fire, and there was blood dripping from the corners of her lips, but she didn't wipe it away and smiled weakly at Xia Lan.
"Ah, Shui Xi, the corner of your lip is bleeding." Xia Lan exclaimed, raising her hand to wipe the blood from her mouth: "I'm sorry, I didn't do it carefully, it's already bleeding."
"I'm fine." Shui Xi pulled her hand down and shook his head.
The two looked at each other, and Xia Lan looked extremely sad and said: "Shui Xi, what should I do? I'm really sad and can't live anymore."
Shui Xi smiled encouragingly: "Everything will pass. You have to hold on strong. Feelings are like a hurdle. If you work hard to cross it, you can always get over it."
Xia Lan shook her head: "There are high and low barriers, and sometimes no matter how hard I try, I can't get over them. He has invaded my bone marrow and cannot be removed unless I die."
Shui Xi looked at her sadly: "But he doesn't love you..."
"But I love him..." Xia Lan smiled bitterly.
I understand that Xia Lan's love for Ling Yucheng is so deep that I can't get out of it, and I'm worried that she won't be able to let it go and may even commit suicide.
She thought about it carefully and decided to make a risky move.
"Xia Lan, do you mind if Ling Yucheng doesn't love you but will marry you?"
Xia Lan bit her lip, was silent for a moment and said: "As long as I can be with him, I will be satisfied. However, even if my request is so simple, it will not come true. Marry me? I would never dream of it.
Such a good thing."
"Don't worry, if he touches you, he must take responsibility for you."
"You are not him, you can't decide anything for him."
"I will find a way to make him agree to marry you, so Xia Lan, don't commit suicide again, okay? Even though he doesn't love you now, as long as he marries you, you have unlimited possibilities to make him fall in love with you." Shui Xi.
He straightened her messy hair and said.
"Really? Marry me? Is this possible?" She shed tears of joy.
"Of course, Xia Lan, just wait until you become Ling Yucheng's bride. Can you please promise me not to commit suicide again?" Shui Xi looked at her expectantly.
Xia Lan was silent for a moment, and finally smiled expectantly: "Yes."
After receiving Xia Lan's approval, Shui Xi made up her mind. As long as Xia Lan could be happy, she was willing to take that step.
Looking at her thin appearance, Shui Xi joked: "How much have you put yourself through for someone these past few days? When I first saw you just now, I thought I saw a ghost."
"Just make fun of me." Xia Lan was amused by her.
Shui Xi glanced at her and then said, "You must have not eaten all day today, right?"
Xia Lan nodded noncommittally.
"Is there any food at home? You look like you are in low spirits. I will cook a good meal for you and replenish your body. Only then can I make you as white and smooth as jade, so that I can make Ling Yucheng fall in love with you."
Mentioning Ling Yucheng, Xia Lan's pale face turned a little red: "The vegetables were all bought a few days ago, so they must be stale."
"You haven't eaten in the past few days?" Shui Xi asked.
Xia Lan nodded.
Shui Xi wailed and patted his head: "Love is really harmful to people."
Xia Lan remained silent.
"Let's go out to have a good meal. I want to see you eat three big bowls of rice with my own eyes. Otherwise, you will never even think about walking out of the restaurant."
"You think I'm a pig that can eat three big bowls of rice!" Xia Lan whined.
"Although I have made you not eat for the past few days, and I asked you to eat 4 bowls, 5 bowls is enough to forgive you. If you go on hunger strike again next time, the punishment will not be so easy."
"Shui Xi..." Xia Lan called out softly.
"What?"
"Your face is swollen like this, can you go out to eat?"