Su Zhetuo's hand gently held her hand on her abdomen, and he seemed to feel the existence of this little life with her. This time, he really couldn't forgive himself. He almost made her lose her first life.
The two babies are not his.
"Lan, we had a baby before, right?" He sat on the edge of the bed, staring at her closed eyes, with deep sorrow in his voice. What else had he done wrong? What else had he made her lose?
What, lost his voice, lost Baoding, lost everything, what else had he done to her?
Xiang Qinglan's eyelashes flickered, she took out her hand, then turned her body sideways and gave him a back view. It seemed that he always liked to leave him with such a heartless back view in the past, but now, she
All was returned to him.
"Lan Lan, tell me, can you still forgive me? Is it still okay?" Su Zhetuo said in a deep voice, and the pain could be heard in his slightly hoarse voice, while Xiang Qinglan just closed his eyes and allowed himself to be input bit by bit.
veins, and her hands were ice cold.
What's the use of forgiveness? If you forgive him, can her first baby survive? If you forgive him, can her voice come back? If you forgive her, can her innocence come back?
It doesn't matter anymore, so it doesn't matter whether you forgive me or not.
As far as she is concerned, no matter what they are holding on to now, they cannot go back to the past. Because the past was really too painful.
A tear rolled down the corner of her eye, and she bit the back of her hand, carrying a man who was in the same pain. It was better not to know some things, but once she knew them, it would be endless pain.
Su Zhetuo stretched out his hands to cover his face. This upright man cried for the first time, for the sake of his unborn child, the child who passed away because of him. It was all his fault, everything.
He turned around and gently stroked Xiang Qinglan's extremely soft hair, "Lanlan, don't worry, I will take good care of you and the baby. Regardless of whether you need me or not, I will treat this baby as my own.
Already born. He is your child and also my child, and I..." As he said this, he closed his eyes in pain, and the constant trembling between his breaths showed that at this time, he really made a move to him.
Such a cruel decision.
"I will never force you again. I will always be by your side until the day you need me." After he finished speaking, he still didn't get any response from her, because she could hear it, but she couldn't.
Unable to respond to him, she is just a mute, just a mute.
She has no voice.
"I'm sorry, Lan Lan, it's my fault. I caused you to lose our baby." Su Zhetuo closed his eyes and said in pain.
And he noticed that Xiang Qinglan's body trembled.
"I'll go out for a while and come back later." His voice was hoarse as he hadn't rested for a long time. He seemed to be unable to bear too much grief.
After covering her with the quilt, he stood up, but his hand was blocked. He lowered his head and stared at Xiang Qinglan's face when he finally looked at her. Her face was still very poor, and her thin wrists seemed
It would break as soon as he broke it. It only lasted half a year, but it had already caused her to endure too much suffering.
And all of this was caused by him.
"Lan Lan, what do you want?" She forced a smile. In fact, his body was already shaking with excitement. This was the first time she took the initiative to pull him.
Xiang Qinglan pulled his hand away. The man's broad hands had brought him too much happiness, and at the same time they had pushed her into the deepest hell. Now, because of his own hands, he
Perhaps, she will go into the hell he once created for her.
No need, really no need.
"That Baoding was not your fault. I was also at fault. If I had paid more attention at that time, maybe it was my fault that he was still here. It was not a small fault of mine." She wrote in his hand,
And he spread his hands flat, his fingertips trembling slightly.
Su Zhetuo clenched her fingers, which were cold and seemed to be unable to warm them up. How come he never realized that she could be such a stupid woman? He was the one who hurt her the most.
Ah, he had done too many wrong things to her, even killing their child, but at this time, in order to prevent him from blaming himself, she put everything on herself. Why, when he
He didn't see her properly, why didn't he cherish her properly? When he pushed her away with his own hands, he knew what kind of mistake he had made.
"Go to sleep well, I'll go out for a while," Su Zhetuo nodded to her, carefully put her hand in the quilt, turned around and walked out, while Xiang Qinglan stared at him as if
For a moment, he had a cold look on his back, and there was an indescribable sourness in his heart.
After closing the door of the ward, Su Zhetuo leaned against the cold wall. Through his clothes, the coldness on the wall penetrated his whole body. Suddenly, he felt that his winter seemed to be impossible to pass.
He clenched his fingers, and there was warmth belonging to her in his palm. The person he wanted to protect, his world, the only light that would appear now, no matter who the child was, he would love it well.
He. He has already lost one and doesn't want to lose another one, even if it's not his.
Everything is his fault, so he needs to bear it and bear it himself.
No man can tolerate the woman he loves having someone else's child, but he cannot choose. That child is his pain, but the child he lost is Xiang Qinglan's pain. Her pain is his.
The pain is worth it.
I don’t know when, but pieces of white snow fell in the sky, crystal white and clean. This is the first snow this winter, and it seems to have fallen extremely early. And today’s winter is also extremely cold.
A private plane took off. There were only a few people on it. Except for a few flight attendants, all the seats on the empty plane were not occupied. There was only a young man sitting in the middle, and the man's legs were lying on his back.
a woman.
He gently wrapped his fingers around the woman's hair, lowered his head, and saw a pair of green eyes that were particularly cold. He took off his suit and carefully covered the woman, but his eyes penetrated the woman's body and looked at the other person.