After entering the house and coaxing Niu Niu to sleep, Qiu Bailu was so tired that she almost lost strength. She spread herself shapelessly on the floor, not even wanting to move her little little finger. -》
Closing her eyes and covering her face with her hands, she slowly recalled the past events that flashed past her eyes like movie scenes in the darkness. She didn't dare to look closely, for fear that one more look would make her miserable.
Those sudden pictures showed piecemeal the embarrassment and embarrassment that she didn't want to be known about in her life. She still couldn't connect all these things together, but just the tip of the iceberg made her realize how unhappy she had been. good.
I don’t want to… don’t want to relive it again…
If possible, she would like to keep all these memories in her heart forever and never think of them again.[
Unknowingly, tears had soaked the palms of my hands, and tears burst out of my eyes without resistance, dripping from the gaps between my fingers, cold and cold.
Afraid of waking up Niuniu, Qiu Bailu could only sob. Wave after wave of intense sadness rose from the bottom of her heart, drowning her reason. She grabbed her collar with painful hands, like a fish thrown ashore. , even though he was breathing heavily, he could not escape the fate of suffocation.
Who will save her, who will help her bury all the past she doesn't want.
She has never been a strong person, but she became tougher because of her daughter. She is unwilling to admit defeat to reality, but reality presses her harder and harder.
Why is it so difficult, why do you always have to force her...
There was a soft knocking sound outside the door. Qiu Bailu covered her ears with her hands, trying to completely block the sound, but the person outside the door was extremely stubborn. The gentle knocking sounds were like knocking on her heart. .
"Get out! Don't harass me again! I don't want to see any of you, and I don't want anyone!!!" Unable to endure it, Qiu Bailu shouted in pain and anger.
The knocking on the door suddenly stopped.
It's deathly quiet.
After a while, "Xiaolu, I know you are angry, angry that we have done that to you. But you can't always escape. You have to face it sooner or later, whether it's me or him, because this is your life, and you can't escape." ."
"Do you still know that this is my life? When did you really treat me as a human being? First it was Huo Dongheng, and then you, you... you guys are worse than animals! You deceived me, played with me, and took away me. All the things you cherish and then destroy them for me to see! How can you still have the face to stand in front of me and talk to me about my life? All the beautiful things in my life have been ruined by you!! I still have some fucking shame. What kind of life! Don’t you think what you are saying now is too ridiculous, Mr. Luo!” Qiu Bailu couldn’t bear it anymore, she stood up, walked to the door panel and growled.
Her voice was not high, probably because she was afraid of disturbing Niu Niu. Even at this time, she still couldn't avoid thinking about others. She had always been like this, always putting herself second, and turning back for the sake of those who loved her. of dedication.
For those small friendships, she was as desperate as a moth to a flame. This was what Luo Yan hated most about her, but it had to be said that he was also attracted to her in this way.
He couldn't remember exactly why he fell in love with her. Maybe it was because of these small details that seemed very ordinary to outsiders, her smile, her kindness, everything about her strongly attracted his attention.
The battle with Thoros almost completely destroyed Luo Yan's body. He was hit in many places, suffered excessive blood loss, and was soaked in sea water. When others found him, he had stopped breathing for nearly a minute. Although he was rescued later , but the body is no longer healthy.
He died once, and it took him three or four years to slowly recover. Logically speaking, he should stay away from her, but he just couldn't stop himself from looking at her. Because of this, the old lady had to fight with her several times. He fell out and threatened to have Qiu Bailu killed to see what he could do...
Just for this sentence, he betrayed the Luo family.
He would give up anything for her.
Name, identity, all of these are not as important as her.[
Luo Yan never thought he could see Qiu Bailu alive. When the yacht he and Soros were riding exploded, he had only one thought. Those under him should work harder to find Qiu Bailu as soon as possible and rescue her. , let her live well and live in a world without him.
But God was really kind to him. Not only did he allow him to meet her again, but he also gave him a huge surprise.
their daughter.
No matter who it is, as long as they recognize Luo Yan, they will say that Luo Ye looks exactly like her father.
My daughter's facial features are actually more similar to those of Qiu Bailu, delicate and beautiful like a porcelain doll, but her expression is very much like Luo Yan. When she is quiet, she will give people an inexplicable sense of alienation.
Luo Yan's original plan was not to disturb Qiu Bailu anymore and just watch her from a distance, but it's different now... They have a child. This little elf is the continuation of their lives. Qiu Bailu has made him I can't let go, not to mention this girl who is so well-behaved that it makes people feel bad.
"Xiao Lu, I know I am qualified to comment on your life, but we have to move on, right? I don't expect you to forgive me, but I hope you can give me a chance to correct the mistakes I have made. No matter what you do in the future I will bless you no matter who you choose. All I want is these, is this not enough?"
"That sounds nice, but why don't I believe it?" Qiu Bailu replied coldly, "It's not that I'm cruel, but Mr. Luo, you are really untrustworthy! When we were on the boat, you told me to believe you." , but what did you do? You stabbed me and then threw me into the sea! How do you think I can let you get close again after what you did!"
"But I did that to save you!! Xiaolu! Otherwise, do you think that after you instigated the relationship between me and Soros under your careful planning, he can still let you live?!" Luo Yan's His voice rose a little, and it was annoying to talk about it. He had obviously planned it very carefully and didn't need to take these risks, but he thought that there was a traitor among his people, and he was the one who transported the arms. Soros knew about the matter in advance, so he was caught off guard, but even so, he still tried his best to protect her.
But his explanation made Qiu Bailu sound more like he was exonerating himself, "What do you mean, if you stab me, I should still be grateful to you?"
"I'm just explaining this to you, and I hope you can forgive me. I admit that what I did was indeed a bit reckless, but Xiaolu, think about it carefully, if I really wanted to kill you, how could you do it all And retreat? You said I used the knife on you, and I did, but what about your wound? "
Qiu Bailu was not stupid. Speaking of which, she suddenly realized that if Luo Yan really stabbed her, why was there a wound on her body?! She only remembered Luo Yan drawing the knife towards her, but now it looked like,
She seemed to have made a mistake.
No, what's wrong...
The injury on Luo Yan’s hand!
"You...your knife...actually pierced your palm, right? That's why I did it, but your hand..."
This man is really crazy. He would rather risk hurting himself than let her suffer the slightest injustice.
There was silence outside the door again. He could never tell these facts. If it wasn't for his arrogance, how could he have frightened her? From Niu Niu's mouth, he knew that she was often troubled by nightmares, and he was afraid of the source of this nightmare.
, it comes from him.
He was so eager to get close to her and spend time with her, but he had to control himself. He was afraid that if he got too close, she would remind her of everything.
Then……
There will be no more.
"Why do you want to save me? Why do you do these things... Do you know... I..."
I hated you so much at that time that I wanted to die with you and drag you to hell, even if it cost the life of the child in my belly.[
How could she be so crazy and evil?! She is so ugly that even she finds it outrageous.
Qiu Bailu's body went limp, and she slid down against the door panel. Her mind was in chaos, and she couldn't distinguish between right and wrong, black and white. Time is the best healing medicine. Her hatred for Luo Yan has already disappeared over the past five years.
Time has disappeared, not to mention that they have a child. With these memories of the past, she hates herself even more now.
"How could I not save you, Xiaolu? I love you so much, how could I let you die?"
Yes, he loved her so much that even when she entered the sea, he still did not forget to say to her, "Xiao Lu, no matter what happens, remember that I love you. No matter if you love me or not, I only want you."
Remember, I love you."
I love you, that's enough.
"Stop talking, please, please let me be quiet, please let me think carefully, my head is going to explode, please. Stop talking." Qiu Bailu begged in a low voice.
There was really no sound outside the door. Qiu Bailu didn't know if Luo Yan had left. She didn't know anything and didn't want to know anything.
When the alarm rang again in the morning, Qiu Bailu realized that she had fallen asleep leaning against the door panel. She rubbed her sore and swollen eyes and found Niu Niu sitting with her chin in her hands and looking at her.
"Mom, you have cried before, your eyes are as red as a rabbit." Niu Niu gently stroked Qiu Bailu's cheek with her small hand.
The wound in her heart was healed by her in that moment. Qiu Bailu grabbed her daughter's hand, put it to her lips and kissed her softly a few times, "It's mom's business. Today is the weekend. Where do you want to go? Is the zoo good?"
Niu Niu shook her head, "Mom, I'm not going anywhere. You can rest well at home. I just want to read the fairy tale book."
Her daughter was so considerate, which made Qiu Bailu even more ashamed. How could she be defeated by the past when she was not even as good as a child? No matter what happened in the past, it was already a thing of the past. She would continue to move forward and take Niuniu with her.
Life.
Seeing that Qiu Bailu was in a daze, Niu Niu threw herself on her and said softly, "Mom...are you angry with Uncle Luo? Don't hate him, okay? Uncle Luo is so pitiful, he is so old,
His hand is broken again, his health is not good, and his family ignores him. No matter how much you hate him, someone will play with him. Can you forgive him once? Just once? "
"Did he teach you these words?" Qiu Bailu almost laughed angrily at Niu Niu. The Luo Yan she knew had always been high-spirited, but when did he become the pitiful ghost in Niu Niu's mouth?
Niu Niu shook her head vigorously, "Of course not, I discovered it myself... Of course... Uncle Luo also said something..."
Seeing Niu Niu looking around, Qiu Bailu knew that Luo Yan must have said more than just one or two sentences.
"I understand, novelist, I'm not angry with him anymore. You go and wash up quickly. It's settled that we go out to play today."
When Niuniu saw her mother's promise, she immediately ran into the bathroom cheeringly. Qiu Bailu looked at her leaving figure and sighed helplessly.
The mother and daughter went out in the morning light. Under the shining of the setting sun, Qiu Bailu found Luo Yan standing at the entrance of the community. His hair was a little disheveled and there were several cigarette butts scattered around his feet. He looked into Qiu Bailu's eyes.
It was bloodshot, but his eyes were extremely persistent.
Qiu Bailu stopped and looked at him. She saw him put out the cigarette in his hand and walk towards her...