"You hate me so much, don't you want to see me?" He held her wrist tightly. He didn't know why he wanted to hold her, but subconsciously he felt that he couldn't let her go...
Teng Jinsi knew that she was wrong, but she didn't even give her a chance to compensate?
Hearing this, Mu Yuzhen looked at his eyes as deep as the night sky, and wanted to say more heartless words, but the words rolled to the tip of her tongue, but she choked in her heart, "I..."
She paused for a long time, avoiding his eyes and not making any answer. In response to her silence, Teng Jinsi got his own answer, raised the corners of his mouth sadly, and said with too much apology in his voice, "I never knew
I hurt you so deeply that you wish you could never see me again."
"If there is no Niuniu, do you not plan to come back? Do you not plan to see me again?"
Mu Yuzhen looked at him, her dark eyes filled with complicated emotions. She couldn't understand it and didn't want to guess. She could only look away and responded decisively, "Yes."
If there really was no Niu Niu, the relationship between them would have ended long ago.
The child is the only link between them, a thread that will never be broken that still connects them.
Because she is the child's mother and he is the child's father. This blood relationship will never change.
Only then did Teng Jinsi let go, because he felt that he was not qualified to hold her, and had no more suitable reason to keep her, and he didn't know what to say as he held her tight.
He could only let her go and watch her go upstairs and disappear around the corner. He suddenly felt empty in his heart. This feeling was very strange...
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Mu Yuzhen returned to Niu Niu's room and had no sleep all night.
Thinking of every word he said, thinking of him admitting that his brother's matter was related to him, her heart ached in pain, and two clear tears slipped silently from the corners of her eyes, staining the hair on her temples.
.
She looked at the sleeping Niu Niu beside her, turned sideways, and couldn't help but caress her daughter's face.
She looked at Niuniu's exquisite facial features and cute sleeping face with lust. She didn't know how long she looked at it before she fell into sleep, but she didn't expect that closing her eyes would no longer be cut off from the light.
Sometimes, life will play tricks on you, making you unable to bear it or accept it. At that moment, it feels like a stone weighing heavily hit you. It is too heavy and you are confused. You deceive yourself into thinking it is a dream, etc.
When I woke up from the dream, I found out tragically: This is a fact, a cruel fact that I will eventually face.
When Niu Niu clamored for her to wake up, she opened her eyes in confusion, looked around, hugged her daughter and said, "It's still dark, baby, sleep well."
"Mommy, it's daybreak, okay? The sun has come out."
Niu Niu's strange voice was like a bomb that suddenly landed in Mu Yuzhen's world.
Her heart suddenly sank, she frowned slightly, and asked in disbelief, "You... said it was dawn?"
"Yes, it's already dawn, and the sun is very bright today."
"Mommy, get up quickly. I want to go to the toilet. I'm in a hurry."
"Mommy?"
"Mommy, what's wrong with you? Why are you shaking?"
"Mommy, I need to pee."
Niuniu's legs were not straight, so she had to be helped to take her to the bathroom, but she lay there as stiffly as if she had turned to stone.
Boundless fear arose in her heart, a feeling that was enough to swallow everything, making her feel flustered, uneasy, and terrified as to not knowing what would happen...
Such a sense of panic was spreading to every corner of her body. She couldn't help but clenched her hands, her body was trembling slightly, and she was shaking uncontrollably.
Under Niuniu's repeated calls, she plucked up the courage, hoping that it was just a temporary hallucination caused by her dizziness.
But……
When she opened her eyes, her heart sank to the bottom again.
Still black.
It was dark all around, and she couldn't feel or see anything.
God, why are you playing such a big joke on her?
Niuniu's voice finally attracted Teng Jinsi, who asked someone to take Niuniu to the bathroom. He turned around and looked at the lost puppet-like woman. She was sitting there, as if she had been hit hard.
Just as he was about to speak, he saw her stand up and walk straight towards a wall as if she couldn't see her.
"careful!!"
He strode forward and grabbed her wrist, but she threw his hand away excitedly and shouted, "Let me go! Go away!!"
She doesn't want anyone to help her, she's not blind, no!
Mu Yuzhen was so excited that she struggled on the edge of collapse and endured it.
She walked in the other direction, but she didn't know that after taking a few steps, she bumped into the edge of the table. There was steaming porridge on the table, and she stretched out her hand as if she couldn't see it.
"careful!"
"ah……"
She screamed, and her hand turned red from the heat. Before he could stop him, he quickly stepped forward and grabbed her hand, anxiously asking, "How is it? Does it hurt?"
"Why are you so careless?"
"Let me go!!"
Mu Yuzhen struggled uncontrollably, pushed him away, and took a step back, "Don't come here, stay away, don't come close to me!"
She didn't want to be supported, and she didn't want to admit that she couldn't see. She was deceiving herself that this was just a nightmare, that everything would be fine, that she would be able to see when she woke up from the dream, but his existence destroyed her little bit of pity.
of self-deception.
Tears fell from her eyes. She didn't give up and didn't believe that she would never be able to see again. She wanted to go somewhere else, but she didn't know that there was something blocking her feet. She fell to the ground with a bang. She was so embarrassed that her whole body was covered with tears.
pain.
Seeing her like this, Teng Jinsi understood everything.
The doctor said that this situation occurs because the tumor in the brain compresses the optic nerve. In severe cases, it may lead to permanent blindness.
Thinking of this consequence, his heart ached. He walked forward and squatted in front of her. He watched her sitting there crying silently. His heart twisted into a ball. He held her hand and looked at the red and swollen area.
She said softly, "Get up and let me help you apply medicine. Your hand is swollen."
She wanted to withdraw her hand, but he pulled her into his arms and held her tightly.
"It's okay, it will be okay, don't think too much, okay?"
He whispered, wanting to comfort her, but after saying such words, his heart felt like needles pricking him.
Listening to his soft comfort, the panic in her heart suddenly broke out, and her emotions completely collapsed. She buried herself in his arms and cried, "Don't go blind, tell me this is not true, this is
A dream, why did I become like this? Is it because I am too tired? "
Her panic pulled at his heart, and he felt waves of pain.
He held her face with his hands and whispered to stop her random thoughts and panic, "Don't think too much. Let me help you give you medicine first, and then take you to the hospital for a check-up, okay? Maybe..."
He choked, looking at the light of expectation flashing across her face, and couldn't bear to irritate her, so he had to say against his will, "Maybe it will be fine soon, don't worry so much."
"Trust me, it'll be fine, huh?"
She lowered her head feebly and could only believe his nod. At this moment, she seemed to have fallen into a bottomless pit, darkness swallowed her up, and despair struck. She felt insecure and could not find anyone she could trust. At this moment,
, he was by his side, telling her to trust him.
She had no choice but to hold on to him tightly and believe in him.
She let him pull her up and sat on the sofa waiting for him to get the medicine. His big hand held her hand and he helped her apply the ointment very gently.
Perhaps because of being invisible, her senses became particularly strong. She could feel the tenderness even if he touched her slightly...
After treating the wound, he took her to the hospital. Every step she took, she had to be held by him and held tightly.
If he let go of her hand, panic would break out in his heart.
After arriving at the hospital, the doctor's words after the examination made Mu Yuzhen feel a little better, "You are too tired. Take a good rest during these days and your eyes will recover."
"Blindness is only temporary."
"Really?" A little smile finally appeared on her face.
The doctor looked seriously at Teng Jinsi who was standing next to her, frowned and shook his head, but he could only say, "It's true. Don't think too much. Keep a good mood. A bad mood will also affect the recovery of the eyes."
After the doctor left, Teng Jinsi looked at the smile on her face, with the corners of her lips slightly raised, but felt miserable in her heart.
The doctor told him something completely different: her condition was serious and she might never be seen again.
Thinking of this, he frowned and fell into deep thought.
It was he who asked the doctor not to tell the truth because he was afraid that she wouldn't be able to accept it and that she would collapse...
When she came out of the hospital, she broke away from his hand and said, "I...it's time for me to go back."
Hearing this, his face became solemn, "Who will take care of you when you go back?"
"I'll invite someone."
"Where are you going to look for it now? How will you go back? How will you live after you go back?"
He ruthlessly stated the very real problem, how could she find her like this?
She was silent, hearing his sigh, and then he said, "Let's go, stay at my place, there will be someone to take care of you, and I won't stop you if you leave when your eyes are healed."
"If you really don't want to see me, I don't have to come back."
He thought her scruple was that she didn't want to see him, so he said so, sighed, and then said, "Let's go."
A hand went around her shoulder, as if holding her, and led her forward.
ps: I lost the manuscript I was anxious to update last night, so I had to painfully rewrite it. There are still updates today, so I recommend reading it at 8pm.