Uneasy, uneasy, nervous, at a loss, afraid... all the emotions were ups and downs at the same time. With the dazzling red light flashing on the door of the emergency room, Xi Haitang's heart suddenly lost its normal beating rhythm. Beside her, Su Xin
There was also mist in his eyes.
Recalling those green years, recalling the old times they had walked together, recalling the bright era enveloped in infinite tenderness, they couldn't help but burst into tears. Those pictures were clearly visible, and the passing years seemed as if they were yesterday.
Sudden--
The red light on the door of the emergency room went out, and the doctor walked out with a heavy face and took off his white mask.
"I'm sorry...we have tried our best..."
Xi Haitang didn't move, and Su Xin didn't move either. One second, two seconds, three seconds... their expressions remained numb.
The doctor shook his head and said helplessly, "My condolences."
In an instant, the nerves were severed in the body, the heart throbbed violently, and the mind seemed to be suddenly emptied. Xi Haitang covered her mouth hard, but she cried uncontrollably.
Her hands were hanging on her tear-stained face, not knowing what to do. The warmth in her palms seemed to still remain when he took her hand and swore to protect her to the death when the car accident happened.
She didn't know how much time had passed, but when she found that her teeth had bitten the palm of her hand, she didn't feel any pain. Tears fell from her eyes, and the bitterness spread to her limbs.
At this moment, the world seemed to have turned dark.
Su Xin refused to face the reality. She turned her head slowly and said in a trembling voice, "Haitang... tell me, this is not true... it's not..."
"I don't think this is true either..."
It seemed as if something had clouded her nerves. She searched in the vast darkness, but could not find an exit where she could see the light. She breathed tightly, resisting this so-called reality.
Even though Xiao Mu is far from the person she belongs to in her life, he is still irreplaceable in the past thirteen years.
In those past days, he smiled faintly and held up a bright sky above her head. The years passed peacefully and they will never be forgotten in this life. His light and delicate eyebrows are firmly engraved in his life, and those memories that are like a continuous flood are in his mind.
It plays in a loop, frame by frame fixed into a solemn black and white silent film.
The unstoppable crying was heavy and lengthy, like a nightmare from which one could not wake up.
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Haitang and Su Xin went to the house where Xiao Muyuan lived to sort out his belongings. The bookcases were filled with his design works, and countless trophies and certificates were piled in boxes in the corner, low-key and unobtrusive.
There is a photo of him on the table. It was a photo of him and his mentors and friends in the design circle. It was taken while skiing in Switzerland. He smiled lightly, and the smile hung quietly at the corner of his mouth. It was very natural, and his delicate facial features were all gentle.
In the arc of the sky, fine snowflakes fell on his head one after another. The transparent light shone lightly, drawing slanting shadows on the ground. It was gentle, faint, and it seemed that you could feel it in the tranquility.
The smell of mint on his body overflowed in the air, and the whole world became clear and transparent because of him.
They suddenly felt a heavy burden of vicissitudes engulfing their hearts, and an indescribable sense of sadness swelled throughout their hearts. Countless tears were shed on the cold ground, and then seeped into the hard cracks, disappearing on the surface and disappearing in the entire world.
They found a book lying open beside his bed. There was a sentence circled in pencil——
Life is a drama. When asking about sorrow or happiness, you can only ask the heart.
Picking up the pencil he had used, the slight warmth of his skin still seemed to remain on it.
The passing years have left mottled shadows, and every growth ring has traces of him. The time and shadow, his eyes, his smile, his tenderness...
The perpetual calendar on the wall somehow malfunctioned, time stagnated, and memory was eternal...
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Five days later, it was supposed to be the day for Xi Haitang to take her two children to Denmark. The luggage was piled in the corner of the room, and the tickets were slightly covered with dust. The dust in the air filled the nose, making it sour and astringent.
The plane accelerated forward on the runway, and after a long taxiing period, it finally rose up and rushed into the high sky. A huge roar sounded in the air, which merged with the sound of the layers in her heart collapsing.
The huge plane gradually became smaller on the other side of the clouds, and finally turned into a faint dot. A white meandering ribbon on the horizon also gradually receded, and finally disappeared without a trace. The entire sky seemed to be dyed with the color of twilight.
Xi Haitang looked at the sky and lost consciousness. He was holding the phone in his hand, his eyes were sore and painful, and he couldn't say a word.
On the other end of the phone, Gu Xijue was also silent. He had been accompanying her silently. If he could, what he wanted to do most was to fly to her side immediately, stand behind her, and gently cover her eyes with his hands,
Wipe away her tears.
She was very tired and ashamed. Youyou said to him, "Today is the senior's funeral, so I refunded the ticket...I'm sorry..."
The hoarse voice came through the microphone, like a thorn piercing her heart bit by bit. He couldn't see her tears, but he felt the unstoppable pain deep in her heart.
"It's okay." Gu Xijue said lightly, turned around and looked at the bustling street. Couples passed by the clock tower, holding hands, their smiles filled with a halo of happiness, so envious.
I will continue to wait for you...
Before he could say this sentence, he suddenly felt darkness in front of his eyes, something seemed to be surging in his head, and it hurt like death...
Dr. Will said that perhaps because of his rash trip to Lapland last time, the blood clots in his head changed due to sudden changes in air pressure and temperature from the outside world...
Seven days ago, he took double the medicine, twice as much.
Three days ago, he tripled the dose.
This morning, he used it to the limit, five times.
He thought he could wait until she came...
He held down his head that was about to explode, and he could still vaguely see the incomplete world between his fingers, and her face flickered vaguely...