Chapter 63 Turn around and maybe never see you again
My name is Sang Ran. I come from Mo Town, Linzhi City, Plateau Province. I was born here and have never left here for more than ten years now.
My father passed away when I was very young, and my mother, my sister Sonya, and I were left to live together until that day when I met Brother Ye.
No matter how ignorant I am, I always know that it was Brother Ye who saved our family. If it hadn’t been for him, I’m afraid the three of us wouldn’t know where we are or whether we would be alive today. At that time, Brother Ye, who was about the same age as me, left.
into our lives.
Growing up, it was me and my sister, plus Brother Ye, and occasionally Xiaohu would come over. It felt like time hadn’t passed much yet, and we just laughed and grew up.
My sister likes Brother Ye, I have always known this.
When I was just sensible, I remember one day after school, I noticed that my sister had been watching the direction Brother Ye was leaving. At night, I asked her, sister, do you like Brother Ye?
However, what do you think is the best way to like someone?
Of course, I just want to be with him every day.
So, then, maybe, it should be.
Later, I realized that my sister didn’t really want to get any answers from me. She just wanted to find someone to express her feelings to someone, and at the same time to make herself stronger. She liked Brother Ye’s personality.
fact.
In fact, I also want to be with Brother Ye every day, just like when I was a child.
Brother Ye likes his sister.
I didn't know this until my sister died. He cried for a long time in front of her grave. I had never seen him like that before. His whole person had no energy at all. He was completely different from the one before. That is, he had never seen him like that before.
After that day, he rarely came to my house and rarely played with me.
Brother Ye is getting farther and farther away from me.
Then he went to Jiangzhou, saying that he was going to study, and that the Living Buddha asked him to do something. Watching him leave, for the first time, I felt that maybe Brother Ye would leave my world.
Brother Ye has always been a very calm person. Except for the death of his sister, I have never seen anything other than a smile on his face, as if he would be happy no matter what he did. He once touched my head and said to me
However, he smiles because he wants to make the people around him smile, and he doesn't want others to be sad because of him.
I didn’t understand, so I asked my sister.
My sister just smiled and said, Brother Ye, you are very Buddhist, otherwise you would not be accepted by the Living Buddha.
This smile feels the same as Brother Ye's and makes me feel very comfortable.
Then I couldn't see him for a long time. It had never been that long before. Even after my sister died, he rarely came over. He would still send something every month to see how my grandma and I were doing.
Okay, let's see if there's anything he can do to help. I don't know if it's because of my sister or himself, but sometimes at night I think, it would be great if he was good to us not just because of his sister.
Could it be because of anything else?
It would be nice to be able to do it because of me.
Sometimes I feel happy when I think of this, but at the same time I remind myself that it is impossible. Brother Ye has never been mine alone, and he will never leave his sister in his heart.
Half a year later, Brother Ye became famous. Newspapers in Plateau Province reported some of his things in Jiangzhou. My mom and the others all laughed and said that Brother Ye was successful and that he had grown up slowly and was no longer the same as before.
It's the same, but I never thought so in my heart.
This is not the life he wants. He must be very unhappy and helpless like this. When I think of this, my heart aches and tightens, and I think about how to persuade him if I am by Brother Ye's side.
How can I help him solve his problems?
I have thought about everything, but just can't do it.
No matter what, I can't leave Plateau Province, at least I can't leave my grandmother. My grandmother has lived here for so many years. I don't want to cut off this relationship. Besides, my father and sister are still buried here. Only here can I smell it.
Their scent is very strong.
It wasn't until the Chinese New Year that Brother Ye came back.
After not seeing him for a long time, I was embarrassed again. I actually kissed him in front of outsiders. This was an action I had always fantasized about, but I never thought it would be such an occasion and such a time. Brother Ye saw
The expression on my face is a bit weird. I think he is thinking of his sister again. Looking at me who looks very similar to her, she will keep appearing in his mind.
This time when he came back, I felt very busy. He was running around every day. I didn’t know what he was doing. He didn’t tell me. I went to him several times but couldn’t find his person. It was Brother Ye.
My mistress is very kind to me and she always asks me a lot of questions. The most difficult thing for me to answer is when will I become her disciple-in-law.
Only at this time will I timidly say to myself, I will do it, I will definitely do it.
This day was very sudden. For most people, nothing happened, but for Brother Ye, it was a bolt from the blue. His master was gone, and he was also the living Buddha we most admired. We all fell into a situation that others could not.
In the pain of understanding, I know that all our pains are not as good as Brother Ye. Living Buddha means his life to him. Without Living Buddha, there is no him.
From that day on, I often went to see him. Every time, he would sit on the mountainside and look into the distance, paying no attention to anyone. I also sat there and watched for a while, but I always felt that Brother Ye was getting more and more difficult to understand.
He used to always smile, and that smile made me feel at ease. Now, although he still does that when he sees me, it's just that his smile has changed, and I always feel that something is different.
By the way, to use one word, it is profound.
Then Brother Ye became even busier.
He was so busy that when he saw him again, there was news that his mistress had also gone.
I have always regarded Kang Zhuo as my master's wife, and she has always been secretly supporting me and telling me not to give up. Otherwise, I might have left early because I felt that I was not worthy of Brother Ye.
How incredible it is that such a kind man should die.
Moreover, the Master's Wife may have an even more extraordinary meaning to Brother Ye. She is even more important than the Living Buddha. Her son has traveled thousands of miles, and the mother is worried. Although Brother Ye is not their biological son, we all know that he is comparable to their biological son.
Return the kiss.
But these are not enough. I know that Brother Ye has always treated me as his sister. Especially after my sister's death, he has always regarded himself as his brother-in-law, doing things that his sister liked to do before.
When I met Brother Ye, he had just come out of the hospital. It was said that he was chased by the people who assassinated the master's wife. This also proved the view spread in Plateau Province during this period. After the death of the living Buddha, his wife was killed.
It also aroused the sensitive nerves of many local masters. No matter how much they want to be the living Buddha, they still respect Zhe Yang, but I know that they are also afraid that they will end up like that one day. This
There's nothing they can accept.
I was very happy to see Brother Ye healed from his injury, but I was stunned as soon as he opened his mouth.
Sister Sang Ran, I am leaving Plateau Province. The masters and ladies here are no longer here. I no longer have a home, and there is no reason to stay. Maybe I will not come back in the future if there is no reason.
What about me? What should I do?
I blurted it out.
You are still young, Brother Ye said in a heavy tone. I must have stirred up some memories in him. He said after a while, maybe you are willing or have the courage to leave me.
Here?
How could this be possible? Leaving Plateau Province was too impossible for me, so I hesitated.
Just seeing this hesitation, Brother Ye smiled and said, you see? You can't do those things for me, and if you really like someone, it doesn't matter what he does.
I just have the kind of feelings a sister has for her brother.
Stay, take good care of grandma, and then find a good family to marry.
Is it really just like this? At that moment, my mind was confused. I didn’t know if it was really what Brother Ye said. I was just because he saved me, or because I had been playing until I grew up, and the familiar things could no longer be used.
You only have this feeling of liking when you are familiar with it. Because I have never tried this kind of relationship, so I was still a little shaken at this time.
Brother Ye's eyes were always thinking.
I know that if I turn around this time, I may never see you again.
I have been thinking that I am in a mess, so messed up that I don’t know how to do it well.
In the end, Brother Ye spoke. He said no more. I have to leave now, otherwise it will be too late. If you really want to find me, wait two or three years before going to Jiangzhou to find me. In these two or three years, I estimate that
No one should know my whereabouts.
Listening to the decisive attitude in the words that I didn't understand, my heart still trembled, and then I watched Brother Ye leave.
After all, I still don't have the courage. The last step may be to say goodbye to Brother Ye.
You know, the happiest time for me is when I am your bride, Brother Ye, but I can't leave here, let alone cause trouble for you. If I am by your side, you will be in a lot of trouble. This
I can feel it a little bit.
Brother Ye, please remember to relax your brows and don't keep frowning. I have never seen the old Brother Ye when I came back this time. He has a lot of thoughts. This is not good.
Take care.
Missing the people of Plateau Province.
I remember missing my master and my wife, my sister, every plant and tree here, and every bit of my life.
The most important thing is, remember to think of me.