Gu Xiyan finally saw Shang Yiqi, who was still as handsome as ever, but he was lying quietly on a stretcher, sleeping peacefully, as if the whole world had nothing to do with him.
After lifting the white cloth on his body, Gu Xiyan's vision went dark in just a moment. She had to force herself to support herself. No, she didn't believe that this was her Qi, she didn't believe it!
"Qi, no, this must not be Qi. My Qi will not lie to me. This is not Qi... You lied to me, lied to me. Give me back my Qi. This person is not my Qi.
No..." When Gu Xiyan said this, her eyes turned red, and she didn't even dare to hold Shang Yiqi's hand.
No, how could this lifeless corpse be Qi? Her Qi was not like this. Qi would have smiled at him. This man didn't even smile. How could he be Qi? Gu Xiyan protected her with both hands.
He opened her ears, but saw her shaking her head desperately. A feeling of death began to overflow from her heart, and she felt that even taking one more breath was a luxury.
"Yanyan, calm down, be good, say goodbye to Shang Yiqi, and then go back and take a nap, okay? Yanyan, you are tired." Wei Zhe took two steps forward and took Gu Xiyan's hands.
Protecting her softly, Wei Zhe was afraid that Gu Xiyan would be stimulated at any time.
"No, I won't leave, I want to see Qi, I want to see him." Gu Xiyan's voice was hoarse from crying, but she still refused to admit that the cold corpse in front of her was the man she loved deeply. No, Qi can't
Will leave her, no, why do everyone lie to her? Obviously this person is not Qi at all, even if he looks the same as Qi, this person is not her Qi!
"That's enough, Xiyan, can you accept the reality? Even if the man lying on the ground is dead, at least he has sincerely loved and cared for you. Even if you can't accept his departure, what can you do?
Can you not admit that he is your husband? Xiyan, how miserable will you make your husband feel if you do this? Xiyan, come here." Jiang Hanxiao could no longer see Gu Xiyan torturing herself like this, so she grabbed Gu Xiyan and said,
She forcefully pulled Gu Xiyan in front of Shang Yiqi.
"No, I don't want to see..." Gu Xiyan cried, coughing a few times because she couldn't breathe for a while.
"Xiyan, you have to see it, and you have to see it clearly. Xiyan, you love this man, will you stop loving him just because he is dead? Xiyan, if you love him so much, then you can still be with him
Live with your memories in the years to come. Xiyan, look, if you don't look at it, I'm afraid you won't have a chance." Jiang said with a smile and wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes. Xiyan, how could I not know that you didn't want to
I admit Shang Yiqi's departure, but if you live in your own dream forever, then the people around you will be even more sad because of you. Xiyan, are you willing to see such a situation happen?
Gu Xiyan tentatively stretched out her hand at last, but her hand froze when it was about to touch Shang Yiqi's pale face. She closed her fingers together, but she did not have the courage to touch his cold body temperature.
Qi, is this your reply to me? You broke your promise, you are a liar, you obviously promised, you promised...
She stayed up all night, and when Gu Xiyan got up from bed the next day, her eyes were swollen like walnuts, and the whole pillow was wet from the tears she had shed all night.
Three days later, the funeral.
There are times of sincerity, times of pretense, times of politeness, and times of formality.
Gu Xiyan didn't know how many of those crying around her truly cared about Shang Yiqi and felt truly sorry for his death. It didn't matter, it didn't matter, as long as she still loved Qi!
For three consecutive nights, Gu Xiyan asked herself repeatedly while tossing and turning - why don't you die, why don't you stay with him? He is the man you love most, how can you bear to let him walk alone on the road to death?
?
The answer is already in my heart - bear it? No, how can she let him go alone? Just give her a few more days and wait for her a few more days. Qi, you must not blame me, I really can't do it without you.
Be strong. I know that I am useless, so I cannot continue to live in this world without you. Really, I cannot...
Before the cremation began, Ji Shufen couldn't help but rush forward and hugged Shang Yiqi's cardboard coffin, and then cried loudly. The person sleeping inside was her son. She was just such a son, starting from the moment he was born.
She worried about him, raised him, respected him and nurtured him, but he was good. How could he be so unfilial? How could he and Lao Shang, two white-haired people, send him as a gift to a black-haired person?
"Xiao Qi, how can you be so cruel? How can you..." Ji Shufen turned into an old man in just two or three days.
Until Shang Yarou pulled her in tears, Ji Shufen still held on to the coffin like crazy. Finally, she opened the coffin and took a look at the man inside. The last glimmer of hope in Ji Shufen's eyes was extinguished.
Isn't the person here his son? But she still wildly imagined that it would be another person lying here at this moment. Xiaoqi, her child, there is no way he will wake up again!
Not long after, Gu Xiyan stepped forward and held Ji Shufen's other arm. She didn't look at the man in the coffin anymore. No need, no need... Qi, I'll catch up with you soon, okay?
On this day, Gu Xiyan watched with her own eyes the body of the man she loved deeply being pushed into the combustion chamber. After that, she turned around and never looked back.
Qi, I just want to remember the warm smile on your lips. I just want to remember the best side of you. I know that you definitely don’t want me to see your embarrassment.
A strong sadness swayed in the air, and Gu Xiyan slowly walked out of the crematorium alone. The crying behind her got farther and farther away from her, but Gu Xiyan chuckled softly.
Her heartless smile, paired with her sad and lonely eyes, really made people unbearable to blame.
The moment she left the crematorium, Gu Xiyan raised her hand in front of her forehead. The faint throbbing pain in her head intensified, and along with it was the cleaner but hopeless smile on her lips.
Qi, it's so good, so good, it turns out that I really... loved you so much before! Now, I love you even more than before, I love you more, I only love you!
Three days later, the little girl walked up to Gu Xiyan with small steps. She grabbed the hem of Gu Xiyan's top and asked timidly: "Mommy, don't move back, okay? Mommy," Yan'er thought.
Want you to stay with me here?"
"Yan'er, Mommy is sorry for you." Gu Xiyan smiled gently at the little guy, then hugged the little girl tightly.
"Mommy, you have to promise Yan'er that you will never leave Yan'er... Mommy, wu wu... Yan'er no longer has a father, wu wu..." The little girl couldn't help but feel in Gu Xiyan's arms.
She burst into tears. Daddy, why did Daddy leave her and Mummy? Daddy didn’t know that he left Mummy and her grandparents and aunts so sad, and she was also so sad? Daddy, why did you leave?
?Daddy, you are bad...
"Yan'er, my Yan'er is the strongest child in the world. Be good, Yan'er, don't cry." Gu Xiyan pulled the little girl away, and then she carefully wiped the tears from the corners of the little guy's eyes.
"Uh-huh... Mommy, Yan'er is not that strong, so why don't you stay with Yan'er? Mommy, how about Yan'er and Mommy leave together?" The little guy refused to let Gu Xiyan go.
, Daddy left, and Mummy refused to accompany her. But didn’t Daddy and Mummy both like her very much? Why didn’t they take her with them?
"Yan'er, Mommy is sorry for you. Yan'er, it's Mommy's fault. Mommy promises you that we will meet again one day, okay?" Gu Xiyan comforted the little girl, "Yan'er, Mommy doesn't want to give up.
Your dad is living alone, so mommy has to move back, and mommy has to stay in the home where your dad lived!"
"Mommy, how about you take me back too? Yan'er also wants to live where daddy lived." The little girl tried to negotiate.
Gu Xiyan just smiled and wiped the tears from the corners of the little girl's eyes without saying a word.
After coaxing the little girl to sleep, Gu Xiyan glanced at the little guy one last time with nostalgia, and then she exited the room step by step.
Qi, I'm so bad. I can't be brave or strong, but I want our daughter to be strong. I'm so bad!
"Xiaoyan, do you really want to move back?" When Gu Xiyan left Shang's father and mother's home, Ji Shufen stopped her in a trembling voice.
"Yes, Mom, Mom, I'm sorry, Yan'er bothers you to take care of her more, I'm really unfilial." Gu Xiyan lowered her head as she spoke, her eyes were sour, but she didn't dare to let the tears fall.
"Xiaoyan, remember to come back often. Although they are not far away, if you and Yan'er are separated for too long, the little girl will feel uncomfortable, you know?" Ji Shufen took a few steps forward and pulled Gu Xi.
Yan's hand warned carefully.
"Mom, I know." When Gu Xiyan looked up and saw Ji Shufen's old and depressed look, she almost gave up on her obsession. Mom, Mom, she has endured the pain of losing her son, how can she still do it?
Can... add insult to injury? But, her Qi, the man she loves most...
Qi, you are so cruel, how could you leave me such a difficult multiple-choice question? I really... I chose everything wrong...
Ji Shufen nodded, tears rolling in her eyes, and finally she said in a hoarse voice: "Xiaoyan, you and Xiaoqi haven't gotten back together yet, you are still... free. From now on, no matter what you choose,
No matter where you go, mom... won't stop you..."
After Ji Shufen finished speaking, she turned around and wiped her tears. Her son was already gone, so she shouldn't hold Xiaoyan captive. Xiaoqi, if your mother said this, would you agree?
"Mom, I only have one husband, and it can only be that one, and it can't be anyone else. I don't want anyone except Qi." Gu Xiyan choked with sobs, her face full of vulnerability.
After saying this, Gu Xiyan covered her lips and left in a hurry. Just faster, faster, Qi, I can't wait to return to the roof where we once lived together.