"I overestimated my abilities. If that's the case, then forget it." I didn't know if my smile was far-fetched. I didn't even know if I was smiling. I slowly stood up and walked away from Su Yunlie's room. I shook my head pretending to be meaningless, and then said: "Yun Lie, you have a good rest. I'm leaving first. Let's... just be ordinary friends from now on."
Yan Bi walked towards the door of the ward without stopping. An inexplicable and complicated look behind him hit my back. I didn't look back. I didn't care. I didn't think about it. Yun Lie. I don't like that. A woman who is willing to compromise. So if you don’t want me, I will leave. I will not ask you to let me stay.
When I ran out of the hospital, the biting wind made my heart tremble and shiver. Suddenly, tears fell from my eyes. There were street lights and streets outside, a blurry night, bright lights and feasting. For a moment, I just felt I am really out of tune with this world.
I caught the last bus back to school. There were not many people on the bus. I looked out the window until the hospital building could no longer be touched in my sight.
"Girl, wipe it." Sitting next to me was an old lady. Maybe she saw that I was crying too pitifully. The old lady handed me a pack of tissues.
Hearing this, I tried my best to raise my lips and give the old man a smile. Then I wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes. I told myself in my heart: Yan'er, don't cry. Don't cry. You can always find a reason for you to compromise.
The reason I gave myself was that Yun Lie and I were not suitable, so there was no need to be together. I had also used this reason to reject Su Yun Che at the beginning. But now it seems that the two brothers and I are not destined to be together.
In fact, I vaguely remembered that I seemed to have forgotten something. But I couldn't remember anything for a while. I got out of the car. I walked for a while back to the dormitory downstairs. I took care of my things carefully. After checking my face, I confirmed that I was not at a level that would make the other three girls in the dormitory notice something strange. Then I went upstairs.
I took a shower again. I changed into pajamas. Then I lay on the bed and started calling my mom and the others. Once my hair was dry, I no longer stared at the news on the computer as usual. Instead, I fell asleep.
Qingqing and the others knew that I had gone to the disaster area without authorization. Perhaps they thought that I must be very tired now, so they did not disturb my rest. In order to cooperate with me, the lights in the dormitory were turned off more than an hour earlier than usual that night. In fact, they I don’t know. I barely slept that night. I cried silently in bed alone. The more I thought about it, the more sad I became. Before I finally fell asleep, I told myself that I would never be so young and frivolous again. I fell in love at my age. Never again... If one day I fall in love with someone again, then I must ensure that I have enough endurance to accept another emotional failure. Only in this way can I be with that person. Dating. Otherwise, I really don’t want to try the pain of losing such love again.
Half a month later, I found a TV station and worked as an intern there. At this time, things in the earthquake-stricken area had been basically resolved. Daddy and Uncle Xue had returned home more than a week ago. I moved into my original position.
According to the teacher's instructions, I worked very smoothly in the TV station. I didn't care about the fine or rough work. I served tea, water, documents, wrote scripts, and took pictures. I was willing to take the initiative to do whatever I could do. That's why. I must have left a deep impression on the staff at the TV station. Now some official reporters are willing to take me with them when they go out for interviews. I have heard many TV station employees praise me for being a hardworking girl. .Said I have a future.
The future? I don’t know. I only know that I am interning here. I can temporarily cover up the remaining sadness in my heart with busyness. Yun Lie, I want to forget you. Forget that I once innocently liked you. I love you. I just like you. Nothing else...
A week later, when I arrived at the TV station early in the morning, I heard the station director lecturing me. I originally wanted to submit a few documents to the station director. But now I heard the scolding coming from the office room. I didn’t feel too good about it. I dared to knock on the door. After a few hesitations, I could only wait for the two people inside to finish talking.
Finally, the reporter who was caught by the station manager came out in despair. I took a closer look and saw that this reporter was someone who usually took good care of me. I bit my lip. I couldn't bear it. She asked him in a low voice, "Senior, are you okay?"
"I'm fine." He shook his head towards me and walked away minding his own business.
Later, I found out when I sent the documents to the station director. It turned out that the senior I just wanted to go for an interview today. However, because his wife was sick, an examination found that the platelet content in his wife's body was much lower than normal. Times. He was worried. He had just taken a temporary leave, and the interviewee for the interview he was supposed to leave for was the general manager of Su Corporation. When I heard this, I remained silent.
The general manager of Su-style enterprise, that is, Su Yunche. I still remember this.
"Director, if there's nothing else, I'll go out first." In fact, my own interviewing skills are not bad. But the person is Su Yunche. Naturally, I don't want to do such a troublesome thing.
"Hey, wait a minute, small businessman. Go and call Sister Jun in." The station director stabbed the table with a steel pen. It was obvious that he was very unsettled.
"Okay." I responded hurriedly and then did as the station director said. Sister Jun was originally a very experienced reporter in the station. Now she is mainly responsible for photography.
I don't know why the director wanted to find Sister Jun. I only know that Sister Jun patted me on the shoulder after coming out of the director's office and said she had an honorable task for me.
My heart skipped a beat. I had a gut feeling that it was not going to be a good thing. Sure enough, the next moment Sister Jun said: "Yan'er. This is the first time for a trainee reporter to interview alone in our station. After discussing with the station manager, I decided to let you do it instead. Xiao Zhou went to interview General Manager Su. How about it? Be happy."
I'm so happy. I'm so happy. Senior, I'm about to cry. "Senior, can I not..."
Before the last word 'go' came out of my mouth, I saw the director of the station coming over. "Small businessman, the station is too busy at this time of year. Sister Jun also has a lot of time on hand. I heard that you have been busy these days. Your performance is good. Now I will make an exception and give you this opportunity to interview Mr. Su. I heard that he is still from your school, right. This way you can have some conversations. Seize the opportunity. Young people should seize every opportunity. Everything You are the most capable among the interns. Don’t let us down."
So whether I wanted to or not, the station director had already spoken. If I refused, it would be suspected of being pretentious. Then I thought that I really didn't need to be so afraid of Su Yunche. I settled down and started preparing for the interview.
The interview time was at 10:30 in the morning. Su Yunche's secretary was obviously very surprised when he saw a little girl like me filming. That's right. I looked like a novice with no experience. But the radio station internship these days It's not all in vain. I know that momentum is very important at times like this.
When he saw Su Yunche, he was working at his desk. He didn't even raise his head. He just said coldly: "Please wait a moment. I'll be fine soon."
"Okay." I responded and stood aside.
I didn't expect that this man would suddenly raise his head. His sharp eyes captured me for a moment. He said, "It's you."
"Mr. Su, I'm here to interview you on behalf of our station. I hope we can have a happy cooperation later." I said in an official tone. I told myself that I am just a reporter now. The person I am facing is not my senior brother or my ex-boyfriend. .He is my interview subject.
"Haha. Let's get started." Su Yunche seemed to have lost interest in continuing to work. He stood up from the desk and walked towards me step by step.
I had a vague urge to retreat in my heart. But if you lose, you won't lose. I can't forget the purpose of my coming here today. Thinking of this, I smiled officially and said again: " Now that Mr. Su is ready, let's get started."
The topic of the interview was not decided by me. All I had to do was get all the answers to the questions given to me on the stage. I sat down on the sofa. I followed the steps and started to enter the topic. But Su Yunche was not a very cooperative interviewer. He asked directly: "Tell me. What questions have been asked of me? With our friendship, I can answer them as best I can."
There was a lot of teasing and ridicule in his tone. His thoughts were seen through. I nodded and responded: "Okay, Mr. Su. It is widely rumored that General Manager Su is young and promising. What do you think is the secret of your success?"
After a conversation, I just felt that I was completely dealing with a class enemy. It was... not easy.
Thinking of the last question, and looking at Su Yunche's smiling but mocking gaze, I couldn't ask it anymore.
"There is no more to follow." Su Yunche's eyes flashed with light. I was speechless.
"Since not, then should we come and talk..." Su Yunche stood up after finishing his words. There was a bit of danger in his whole body.
"Mr. Su, I have one last question. What are your plans for your future marriage? Will you marry the daughter of the Xu Group?" It turns out that it only took a few seconds to ask this question. My heart calmed down. I just asked. As for how to answer, that was his business.
Su Yunche was a little stunned by my question for a moment. I could see the pain flashing in his eyes. But I couldn't do anything. He chose the path. He was not willing to succumb to this position. Such a marriage was not for him. It is undoubtedly an excellent choice.
He sat down again. He regained his previous calmness and elegance. But there was a hint of unwillingness in his voice. "I will marry Miss Xu. It will be good if we have a happy family after marriage. If we are not suitable, then it is okay to separate." It's a matter of time."
When the recording reached this point, I frowned. I simply pressed the button to stop recording. I looked at him and solemnly said: "Mr. Su, everything you say and do will be written into the report. What you just said will be included in the report." Answer as if I didn't hear you. You'd better think carefully before answering."
Suddenly a figure was covered in front of me. Su Yunche put his hands on both sides of my body. A pair of leopard eyes stared at me. His thin lips moved. He said: "Then what do you want me to say? I want to marry someone to keep at home. Then go out and mess around with women? Or do you want me to say that I don't love the country and love the beauty. Marrying the daughter of the Xu family is just a temporary measure."
Questioning. I know that he is not angry with me. It's just that we are over. The end means there is no future.
"Mr. Su, please calm down." I thought a thousand times in my mind. When I finally spoke out, I only said this. Maybe I shouldn't have asked the last question. Misfortune comes from the mouth. Trouble comes from the mouth. .I sighed in my heart.
"Calm down. Heh. How can you be calm? You are sitting in front of me now, so close to me. Less than... um, ten centimeters. But I don't have the right to hold you and kiss you openly. Do you think I should calm down? ." I was speechless at the pressing question in his words. Obviously I felt that he didn't care about me that much. Why did I feel that I was always the one who was wrong in this situation?
My jaw was raised. I was forced to look at the remnants of the storm in his eyes. "I heard that you also went when Su Yunlie went to support the earthquake-stricken area last time. You were looking for him."
Why did you mention this issue? I denied it. "No."
"Then give me a reason. Tell me, you will never tell me that you have too many bad intentions, so you went to the disaster area. That kind of place can kill people if you are not careful. Why don't you say anything? Went there without saying a word." Su Yunche seemed to be a little more obsessed with this matter.
Maybe he was too close to me. I was confused and this sentence popped out of my mouth. "The people I love are there. I want to make sure they are safe."
"The one you love." For a moment, I was sure I heard the sound of grinding teeth.
"Mr. Su, if you don't have anything to add to the question just now, then I'll leave first." There is always a feeling that nothing good will happen if I stay here any longer. I want to run away spinelessly. I shrank my neck. I thought to myself that the weather was actually quite cold. I was going to buy a warm baby and take it with me.
"Why are you so anxious? I haven't finished speaking yet." Su Yunche sat next to me as he spoke. "Big reporter, I just accepted your interview. Why don't you let me interview you now?"
My heart was pounding. It seemed like today was not a good day. I wanted to sit farther away from Su Yunche, but he clamped my hand and said unhappily: "Sit tight." "
I didn't dare to violate it. Who made this place the company's foundation? I secretly pouted and thought to myself whether I should blackmail those two seniors later. Look, this good job fell on me. It's become a chore.
"Big reporter, who do you mean by the person you love? I remember you were an orphan. You didn't have a boyfriend when you went to the disaster area. By the way, I saw a man on TV. An army officer. Mature, confident and charming. .And he and you seem to be having an affair." I understood what Su Yunche meant. Didn't he just want to say that daddy and I don't know anything about each other? It's just that his suspicion is really unreasonable. What do I have to blame? Why don't you explain it to him?
"Mr. Su, please stop slandering and speculating about me. I still have work. I can't stay for a long time, so I'll leave now." I was smarter this time. I quickly stood up while Su Yunche's grip on me was not so strong. .then backed away from him for a while.
Su Yunche didn't give me a chance to leave. He took out his mobile phone and made a call. After a while, my mobile phone vibrated. A message was displayed on the phone. It was Sister Jun who reminded me that I could have a good time with Su Yunche. She said that the alumni could It's not easy to meet either.
"Let's go." Su Yunche returned to his desk. He clasped his hands on the table. There was anger and arrogance in his eyes.
If I had known that something like this would happen, I don’t know if I would have agreed to date him in the first place. I still don’t understand it to this day. I am just such an ordinary person. In the eyes of people from the upper class like them, it is even more so. What is there about a woman who is so lowly in the dust that Su Yunche is so interested in me? Or rather, he is just purely curious and interested in me. I don't think there is anything in me that can make people curious.
"Mr. Su, I don't like beating around the bush. Okay, we won't talk about business now. You want to talk about private matters, right? Just tell me. I'll listen." I walked to a chair and sat down. I waited quietly for Su Yunche's words.
"Yan'er. Have you ever liked me?" I haven't heard the name "Yan'er" from him for a long time. My pupils met Su Yunche's handsome outline. I paused, calm and relieved. "With you. When we are together, I only like you."
I once said that when I am with him, I can promise not to get entangled with other men.
"Then have you ever loved me?" Now there was a bit of eagerness and longing on his face.
I lowered my head and felt a little bitter in my heart. Is there any point in pursuing the past? "Ache, when we broke up, I took back all my feelings for you. You should understand."
No. Maybe I didn’t take it all back at that time. After all, I was sad for a long time after the breakup. However, this must be the last time in my life that I call him Ah Che. Because now, I can no longer love him. So, Ah The term "Che" should be left to others to call it. Emotions have withered away. Where is the need to explore this proposition of love and non-love? Rather than just adding to the trouble, it is better to cut it off with a knife. From now on, you and I will be separated.
"Mr. Su, you don't have to be unwilling. It's all because I am too selfish. If you don't want me anymore, I will leave without mercy and never look back. It would be the same for anyone else. Really, I didn't deliberately target you. "I didn't deliberately target Yunlie. He didn't want me. Even though I was so reluctant and sad in my heart, I still resigned myself to my fate. Feelings cannot be forced.
My answer was obviously not satisfactory to Su Yunche. He stepped to my side again. He looked down at me with a condescending look. The anger in his eyes was unconcealed. "Yes. Your feelings are really not like feelings. You can just take it back." Take it back. Then tell me why you hooked up with Su Yunlie again. When did you two meet? Was it because I abandoned you and you provoked him because you were unwilling to accept it. Or did you secretly cross Chencang behind my back a long time ago? Already."
His hand holding my shoulder was very strong. I looked at him stubbornly. I didn't know whether to cry or laugh. Why did Yun Lie and Su Yunche not want to see his brother like this? Haha. I suddenly felt that I was really bad. There is no way you can take back a relationship just as you say. Yun Lie is still single now. He just said that being with him would be aggrieved. But I am not aggrieved.
I want to find him. At this moment, my idea was particularly strong. After smiling apologetically at Su Yunche, I could only say: "Mr. Su, the past has passed. People must cherish what they have in front of them. I want to Gone."
I reached out and shook off Su Yunche. I took a cursory look at my things. After confirming that there was nothing wrong, I pulled away and ran. Su Yunche seemed to be chasing me, but I didn't give him a chance to catch up with me.
It wasn't until I ran out of the Su's Building that I remembered that I had no idea where to look for Yun Lie. Where would he be at this time? I didn't know what happened to his legs.
Feeling uneasy, I dialed Xixi's number. The girl was in class, so she had to text me instead.
"Yan'er, are you okay? The old man in physics is in class." Xixi was obviously typing a little hastily and all the words were typed wrong.
After thinking for a while, I asked: "Xixi. Do you know where I can find Su Yunlie?"
Xixi also knows that Yunlie and I know each other. It’s just that she doesn’t know. I don’t know. I like Yunlie. I hold the phone tightly. I hope in my heart that Xixi can give me good news. I want to see him. I want to When I see him, I want to tell him: Don’t be afraid of me being wronged. I just want to be with you.
After a while, my palms became sweaty. Then I saw the following message appear on the screen of my mobile phone. "Yan'er, my eldest cousin seems to have returned to the army. I heard that his leg injury has not healed yet. But He still insists on staying in the army. Do you know where the Military District in City A is?"
A City Military District. I thought to myself for a while and then went to take a taxi.
I don't know if I can find Yun Lie here. But I'm here anyway. Now that I'm here, I have to ask him clearly. If it doesn't work, I said that I came to see him as a friend, so it's okay. .
Several officers and soldiers looked at me from time to time along the way. It was strange. I have obviously been in the army since I was a child and I am familiar with the ways. Why do I feel so awkward and awkward now? When I asked about Yun Lie, .I always feel that there is a lot of ambiguity in the way people look at me.
There are many people in the army. After asking around, I finally found out that Yunlie is the deputy commander of the 1st Division. And now he is in the army's office.
"This lady, Assistant Division Su is inside. Assistant Division Lin is also there. I will send you here first." Because I lied about being Su Yunlie's family member, the soldier who sent me here was very polite.
After Brother Bing left, I knocked on the door. Then I heard a clear female voice, "Come in."
I opened the door and went in. I glanced at Su Yunlie who was looking at a map at the table. At that time, a few scattered sunlight particles outside the window spilled in and fell on his military uniform. I thought in a daze. Zhu Yunyue is really charming.