This morning, the little girl had already gone to school. Gu Xiyan was sitting quietly in the living room alone, as stunned as a statue.
It would be great if she could really become a statue without sorrow or happiness. This thought happened to Gu Xiyan's mind. She immediately laughed at herself and said that she was really cowardly. Didn't she make a decision a long time ago? Why? When this incident was about to happen, she still felt a pain in a certain corner of her heart. That kind of pain, tingling, spread from her heart to her whole body, and all her blood was filled with stinging pain.
When Shang Yiqi went downstairs, he really had a document in his hand. Every step from the stairs to the hall felt heavy. The document in his hand had already been wrinkled by his grip, but he seemed to be unaware of it.
In fact, he had completed all the necessary divorce procedures in less than two days, and only the two of them had to sign the divorce agreement. But he waited until the last moment to take out the divorce agreement, why not because she could tell him One sentence: "We'd better stay together."
If she can say this, then he can really ignore the past grudges and regard this incident as a joke.
Finally, he arrived at the living room. After sitting down next to Gu Xiyan, Shang Yiqi slowly put the documents in his hands on the long table, "Do you really want to leave?"
Gu Xiyan told him the answer through actions. She opened the document and glanced at it symbolically for a few times, but actually didn't read anything. She turned to the last page and looked at his signature on the document, which was handsome and elegant. The resolute signature made her smile. She had always liked his handwriting, which was beautiful yet wild.
Realizing that he didn't bring a pen, Gu Xiyan stood up and went straight to get the pen.
Shang Yiqi did not look at Gu Xiyan when she came back. All his eyes were focused on the divorce agreement.
Gu Xiyan sat down, looked at the place where she should sign, and weakly pulled the pen and pasted it there.
Gu Xiyan, as long as these three words are written down, they will have nothing to do with each other from now on. How can the argument that they can't be lovers but still be friends work with them? Either love each other fiercely, or , separate decisively. Either love or not love, there is no third option.
For a moment, Gu Xiyan really wanted to say willfully, let's not separate. From now on, we will be together and no one can separate us.
But she never had the chance to say this, because when she was thinking this, she had already written her name quickly on the paper.
She wrote very neatly, and was a little dainty. She once thought that when she signed this name, she would at least feel sour and uncomfortable, or that she would write the name in an ugly way.
However, there was nothing, nothing, everything was a foregone conclusion. She didn't even have time to mourn that her marriage, which had lasted for so many years, was about to end. It was already over.
When she put down the pen, Gu Xiyan was a little dumbfounded. In just a few blinks, she personally pushed the person she loved most out of her life. From then on, there was nothing between them anymore. relationship.
"You are so cruel," Gu Xiyan was still wandering in the void, but Shang Yiqi's eyes turned red and he grabbed her shoulders fiercely, "Are you so impatient to leave me? I thought you At least you would hesitate, but how could you sign so freely and decisively? We have been married for so many years, did you ever feel a trace of reluctance and attachment to me and Yan'er when you signed? No, not at all, after all. Are you too ruthless, or am I too pretentious, why should I still have delusions about you?"
"Don't be like this. This marriage was a mistake. Now that the mistake is over, everything is just back to where it started. When I leave, you... will have a better one." Gu Xiyan didn't know why she said such words. , how can we get back to the starting point? Many things have changed long ago. Many bonds have been formed unconsciously. How can a marriage of so many years be erased by just returning to the starting point?
Gu Xiyan stumbled away, and Shang Yiqi stared blankly at the direction she left, and finally hammered the table hard.
Gu Xiyan's whole body was shaking when she was packing her luggage. How could she forget that there is another feeling called hindsight? Look, she was so calm just now, but now she is completely defeated.
Tears welled up in her eyes. She opened the closet, took two pieces of clothing and threw them on the bed, then dug through the suitcase. The clothes were stuffed into the suitcase in a mess. Gu Xiyan thought about it and opened it again. She walked into the closet on the other side, where there was a long white skirt, which was exactly the one he gave her that day.
She had only worn this skirt three or four times. As if she were holding some rare treasure, she took out the skirt and folded it carefully.
When she was about to put the skirt in the suitcase, she hesitated. This was the skirt he gave her, and she liked it very much. But if she took it away, if she wore this skirt in the future, How can I guarantee that I won’t think of him too?
Some things are destined to be forgotten. Some emotions can just be buried quietly in the heart. Some people, since we can't stay together, why should we still be tied to each other?
Gu Xiyan did not pack the skirt into the suitcase after all. After shaking the folded skirt out again, she put it into an inconspicuous corner of the wardrobe.
Just let it lie in this inconspicuous little place. If one day a new hostess moves in here, it may be packed away along with her other remaining clothes. Or maybe, she As soon as his front foot leaves, his back foot will clean up everything related to her. No matter what, this skirt should not appear in her life again.
Taking out the clothes randomly placed in the suitcase, Gu Xiyan sobbed softly while folding the clothes.
Why are she crying? Maybe... it's because her love has withered before it bloomed! But since she has promised to be with Wei Zhe, this is the last time she allows herself to be with the man who has become her ex-husband cried.
When Gu Xiyan went downstairs, Shang Yiqi was still sitting on the sofa. There was no anger and pain on his face, and now there was only indifference. Gu Xiyan paused, put down the luggage in her hand, and she moved it gently Walking towards him slowly.
She thought that she should at least say goodbye to him.
"Brother Shang... I'm leaving. Wei Zhe has promised to return to City T. If there is no accident in the future, I will never set foot in the capital again in my life. Take care of yourself, don't work too hard, and pay attention to rest. If anything happens, Don't force yourself. You still have your parents, sister, and Yan'er. In the future, you will also have a gentle and lovely wife. They are all people you can rely on. Thank you for your care over the years. I appreciate you from the bottom of my heart. You are all good to me, but I may not think of you again in the future. I will marry Wei Zhe after returning to City T. I will try my best to be a good wife who is dedicated to my life. Brother Shang, you will be too. He is a very good husband. I am not very good at talking, but I sincerely wish you find happiness soon. I am very sorry for Yan'er. I don't know how to explain my departure to her. I am not a good mother. But I understand that you are a good father. If you can, please let Yan'er forget about me." After Gu Xiyan said this, she looked at Shang Yiqi's profile, and a voice in her heart told her to look at him again, and she would be better off if she looked at him again. Okay, then don't have any illusions about him anymore, he doesn't belong to you anymore.
Greedily wanting to remember what he looked like at this moment, how could Gu Xiyan not know that she was deceiving herself. It was not easy to forget, but she had to do it, right?
"Brother Shang, if you have nothing to say to me, I will leave." Gu Xiyan couldn't tell whether she was sad or happy. She was about to leave, but he didn't even want to say a word to her.
Slowly turning around, Gu Xiyan finally felt relieved. Perhaps, this is the best result. So what if she talks too much, but it only increases her worries.
When she reached the stairs, Gu Xiyan picked up her suitcase and walked towards the door. It was only a few dozen steps away, but she walked as if it had been a century.
That day, the sad girl who was crying and venting her feelings at the airport met that handsome and handsome man with a frown. At that time, he thought she was disturbing others, and she was embarrassed. Soon the two of them became friends. The conversation became intense.
Time passed, and two years later, he reached out to her and said, "Yan'er needs a mother, and you are a perfect fit." And she handed over her hand and chose to agree. A marriage began.
That night, on the dim street, she silently thought about how good he was to her, and ran back to the dark and cramped car with all her strength. His body was hot, but she clearly resisted but still allowed him to enter her. Unexplored territory. He made her taste the ultimate pain, and at the same time tried his best to give her tenderness and care. When he captured that layer of innocence in her, she became a woman worthy of his name.
For many days in the future, they both thought about living their lives like this. However, unexpectedly, the man Wei Zhe appeared again in her life, and another outstanding and admirable woman also appeared in his life.
When she agreed to get married, she was just grateful that he had helped her. Without him, how could she have started another life in a different place? Now, more than seven years have passed since they met, got married, and then divorced. Now he is nothing but Apart from being more mature and stable, and more charming, it seems that she hasn't changed much since the year we first met her. And if she really wants to investigate, it's probably her mentality that has changed the most.
In fact, so what if we love, what if we don’t love? Many times, fate does not give us more choices, so we can only struggle painfully with the existing options. Now everything has come to an end, and they will last forever. This beautiful word has no chance!
Gu Xiyan finally walked to the door, exhaled a long breath, with a smile on her lips——Farewell, my favorite man. Qi, if you understand my feelings, then please... you must be happy.
After opening the door, Gu Xiyan did not look back. The sunshine outside the door hit her, and she felt warm all over. All the dark nights will pass, and now, the sunshine outside the door is just right!
Shang Yiqi suddenly rushed out and hugged Gu Xiyan from behind. He held Gu Xiyan tightly, fearing that she would disappear if he let go. "Don't leave, okay?"
"Brother Shang, we have made it very clear, haven't we? Let it go, we will both be happy." However, our happiness is not for each other. Gu Xiyan was startled and then said gently.
"I want to keep you. Don't leave with him. How about staying here? It doesn't matter even if we are not husband and wife." In this world, he only allows one person to squander his emotions like this, but what he hopes more is that she can accept it. his feelings.
Qi, how is this possible? You gave me pampering and pampering, but you didn't give me love. And I gave you consideration and tenderness, but I couldn't give you hope. A trace of sadness flashed across Gu Xiyan's eyes for an instant.
We are destined to miss it. Missing it only means that we are really not suitable.
"Brother Shang, I'm sorry." Gu Xiyan heard her weak voice, "I shouldn't be involved in your future. It's impossible for me to have anything to do with you in my future."
"I'm sorry? Haha, I knew it was like this, I knew..." Shang Yiqi's voice was sad and hopeless at this moment. He knew that this would happen, so why didn't he give up? He was a bitch to do this to her again and again. Leave a way out? But why did she ever care about his concession?
Gu Xiyan turned around and looked at Shang Yiqi, "Brother Shang, I'm leaving." She moved her lips and realized that she had nothing to say.
Before Shang Yiqi could answer, she picked up her luggage and rushed out.
"Let me ask you one last question." Shang Yiqi's hoarse voice successfully stopped Gu Xiyan in her tracks.
"Tell me, if you had had my child, would you be willing to give birth to him?" Shang Yiqi even said in a questioning tone.
Even though she had promised not to cry anymore, a few tears still fell from the corners of Gu Xiyan's eyes. There was a faint throbbing pain in her heart——My child, who would refuse the birth of a lovely baby? Gu Xiyan tightened her hands holding the luggage. , the child of the two of them!
"If I ever have a child, I will definitely try my best to give birth to him." After Gu Xiyan said that, she ran away.
The luggage was not heavy, and she hailed a taxi not long after walking out of the gate.
Shang Yiqi looked at the direction she was leaving, and a strong pain suddenly flashed through his handsome eyes - after all, it was him who failed to protect their mother and son.
When he told her that he was a soldier, how could he have imagined that one day he would leave his pregnant wife behind and fight on the front line against drug traffickers?
But even though he is such an unscrupulous husband, he still wants to...keep her by his side!