"I really want to marry Ah Che." The exquisite diamond ring was almost deformed in Su Yun's hands. At this moment, his eyes looked at me with more and more reproach. I felt a little scared in my heart. .
After all, I suppressed my fear. I nodded. I didn't know whether to smile bitterly or what to do. "Mr. Su, I don't want to play this kind of guessing game with you anymore. What do you mean? Let's make it clear once and for all. Okay, I'm younger, but that doesn't mean I don't understand anything. The word "ignorant" is still far away from me. I know Ache's parents don't like me. It's very clear. But, Ache loves me, and neither do I. I hate him. Sometimes fate is a wonderful thing. If you miss it, it will be gone. If there is still a possibility between me and A Che this time, then I will consider it. Maybe he will be a good choice. "
"I don't hate him. You want to be with him just because you don't hate him. What's the point of marriage without feelings? What do you think of marriage?" Su Yunlie was dissatisfied with my attitude and yelled at me anxiously. . He was so cruel that he threw the ring in his hand out of the window.
"You're crazy. Why did you throw away my diamond ring? Why did you, Su Yunlie." Seeing the ring moving away from my sight in a parabola shape, I pushed this excessive man away and went crazy again. As if he rushed to the window sill.
It's just lost. It fell from such a height. I can't see any trace of the ring at this moment. But I'm not willing to accept it. The ring was not given by Su Yunlie. He has it. What qualifications do you have to deprive me of the opportunity to start over with Su Yunche? I bit my lip bitterly. I just felt that I was really pitiful. I just liked this man a little, but he said he didn't want me anymore. So what exactly is he? Why do you treat me like this? Or, bullying me makes him feel very happy.
Tears rolled down. I didn't want to look back at Su Yunlie's expression. Now, I just wanted to find a place with no one and cry properly. It only took half a day, but I was already exhausted mentally and physically. I wiped my own face. From the corner of my eyes, I drooped my head and walked straight towards the door.
"Yan'er, where are you going?" The voice of the man behind him contained some affection that I couldn't understand. I raised my lips, but in the end I couldn't hide my endless bitterness.
I opened the door. There was a cold wind blowing towards me. My body shivered slightly. I crossed my hands and I secretly said something cold. The clothes on my body were actually messy and torn. I straightened out the single clothes inside me. It is to use the coat to hold yourself tightly.
"Yan'er, I'm sorry." After walking several steps up the stairs, I heard a gentle and apologetic voice.
I'm sorry. Su Yunlie. You know, these three words actually have no meaning. He just lowered his attitude and apologized to me. I was polite and didn't look back. I pretended to be strong and said: "You I accept your apology. But Mr. Su, please don't call me Yan'er again. Do you prefer to call me Miss Shang or Shang Yan'er? It's up to you. I won't treat you as a friend. I know A Che doesn't either. I like you. So I won’t necessarily call you big brother in the future. Of course, I think a little too far. You are not at home all year round, so we probably won’t have much chance to meet in the future.”
Maybe I was really too careless. When I walked down further, I missed a step and threw my whole body forward. In the flash of lightning, I just thought that I was really stupid. I couldn't even see the road clearly.
Su Yunlie was still some distance away from me. In addition, his leg injury was not completely healed. Naturally, he could not save me. The skin on his knees and arms were scratched. Looking at the faint oozing on the wrist The bloodshot bruises. I thought to myself: It’s great. I finally have an honest reason to cry.
I got up on my own. My hands were dirty now, and my legs were in terrible pain. But I had no intention of going back to Su Yunlie's house. I just cried quietly to comfort myself. Say you were injured but no one cared for you. So you can still cry secretly.
"Yan'er, why are you so stubborn?" It was funny but also helpless and pitiful. When Su Yunlie hugged me from behind, I could hear his heart beating. It was beating faster than mine.
I sat on the sofa again. I looked up at the ceiling blankly. In fact, I wanted to control the frequency of tears. Su Yunlie was so arrogant that he didn't look like a patient at all. Just like just now, he just hugged me. Shoulder. Forced me to follow him back here.
I found the medical kit. Su Yunche first disinfected my wound, and then put a bandage on me. I thought he was making a fuss. Seeing him squatting in front of me with such effort, he concentrated on giving me the medicine. I dealt with the wounds on my wrists and knees. I didn't understand. I didn't understand how many sides he had. I didn't understand which one was the real him.
Yu Qingyuli also helped me. I said thank you. Then I stood up and wanted to go back. In addition to men, I also have a job. I secretly despised myself for even thinking about men. After feeling confused, I took out a tissue and wiped the tears from my eyes without hesitation.
"Yan'er, I can give you a ring in return." I patted my sleeves and was about to walk towards the door when Su Yunlie suddenly dropped such a bomb.
My whole body froze for an instant. However, the accident only happened for a short while. Soon I returned to normal. When he said he would give me a ring in return, he probably meant buying one to compensate me... after all. He threw away mine. But Su Yunlie, why don't you understand? You don't understand that the ring is a token of love. You can't just give it to me. I tightened my hand. Finally, I took a deep breath. Cai Cai said: "No need. Thank you Mr. Su for your kindness."
"Yan'er, are you sure you don't want to be friends with me anymore?" Su Yunlie suddenly stopped talking and walked slowly to my side. His exquisite leopard eyes captured the crook of my eyes.
"Yes. I won't be friends with you." Every word came out without thinking. I avoided his eyes after saying that. Su Yunlie is too good at pretending. I don't want to be caught by him again. Cheating. I don’t want to be influenced by him anymore.
Su Yunlie suddenly hugged me tightly. Su Yunlie lowered his head. His thin lips captured my lips in an instant. I was surprised, shocked, and then felt ashamed. I tried to knock him down, but he was the first to knock him down. Her lips moved away. Then she said: "Yan'er, I'm sorry. Can I take back what I said earlier? You don't want to be friends with me. Then let's... be lovers."
"Shameless." When the word 'lover' came out of Su Yunlie's mouth, I didn't feel the slightest bit of pleasure. I just felt like my heart was going cold. Lover? A third party? No. I didn't listen to what he meant. Like, oh, Su Yunlie, what do you think of me? "Mr. Su, stop joking. I'm still young and can't afford to make such jokes."
I deliberately chose the word 'little'. I want to tell him that it was she who despised me for being young and not qualified to stand by his side. It was he who said he didn't want me in the first place. I just don't know why. She was quarreling with him like this. .My heart really felt like someone had stabbed me with a knife. The pain was deep in my bones. And even though I gritted my teeth, I still couldn’t help but want to cry wildly.
In fact, I am not willing to cry to gain pity. But every time I am in front of this man, I can't control the bitterness and discomfort in my heart. I want to cry to myself alone, but I always can't. I want to be strong in front of this man. I try very hard not to let him underestimate me, but I am still so weak.
"You are still young." Su Yunlie listened to my slightly crying words, as if he was extremely helpless.
My eyes deliberately showed a bit of ferocity. Then I opened my mouth and counterattacked unceremoniously. "Yes. Mr. Su. Since you admit that I am young, then I will find someone who is about the same age as me." You shouldn't object to men being together, right? No, it's never your turn to take care of my affairs. I'm leaving. I don't think Ah Che would like to see me here."
"Yan'er, have you ever loved A Che?" I struggled, thinking about escaping, but he was extremely strong and grabbed my hand. He didn't let me get even close to the door.
"Would you go to bed with him if you didn't love me? Su Yunlie. You are so funny. Can you stop asking me such childish questions? I don't like it and I don't want to answer it." At this moment, I am a poisonous hedgehog. .I am a sensitive person. He once hurt me like this. He said he didn’t care about me. I was so stupid that I couldn’t bear to forget him. But from now on, I won’t. "Su Yunlie. I will You are completely separated from my world. I will never remember you again, because you are nothing to me. I will live a good life with A Che, marry him and have children. I will take good care of him. Be good to him. Like all ordinary women in the world. Love my husband well..."
My voice became a little ethereal after I said it. Are these...really what I want? Why do I feel that all the words coming out of my mouth are so unreal? It's because I haven't yet Are you really ready to be with Su Yunche? I always have to work hard. "Ache..."
Whispering that name, a picture like this appeared in my mind... I was holding a SLR. A-Che stood in front of his silver car. The moment I was about to press the shutter, A-Che suddenly looked towards me. He ran towards me and shouted loudly. He shouted: Wife, I love you. I love you very much.
Suddenly I couldn't help but smile warmly. I completely ignored that my hand was still being restrained by someone. Then I thought about covering my lips and suppressing the thin and tender tentacles in my heart. Only then did I realize that I didn't move at all. No. Ah Che. Ah Che. I have never wanted to see him as much as I do now. I want to see him. I want to tell him... Ah Che. Yan'er loves you more than she imagined. She loves you. than She imagined more. She always deliberately forgets. Forgetting that your departure has brought her so much scars and sorrow. Ah Che, you can stop working so hard. Yan'er wants to be with you. She wants to be with you. I will walk slowly with you. When you are tired, Yan'er will be your harbor.
I raised my head. I thought my eyes must be filled with hope at this moment. I couldn't help but raise the corners of my lips. I smiled sincerely. "Su Yunlie, please let me go. I I want to go find A Che. I suddenly want to see him so much. I want to go find him and tell him. Tell him so many things. Yan'er has so many things to say to him. What should I do? What should I do? Su Yun Lie. Suddenly I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to finish my words. I wanted to find Ache. I missed him. I missed him so much. Yan'er didn't want to leave him anymore. Yan'er wanted to tell him many, many things. Su Yunlie .You don’t have to worry about me. I’ll be fine.”
I was a little incoherent. Because Su Yunlie didn't mean to let me go. I was afraid that he wouldn't understand my thoughts, so I had to persuade him flatteringly: "Su Yunlie, please let go of my hand quickly. Don't worry. .I’m fine. You don’t have to worry about me.”
My eyes became firmer and firmer. I suppressed the smile on my lips. Finally I couldn't help but smile and said: "Su Yunlie. You don't have to worry about whether I will grow up. I will grow up very carefully. I will do it very carefully." I will live a good life. With Ah Che here, I will be fine. Su Yunlie, you can safely marry Miss Lin. Don’t be afraid that I will be bullied when I am young. Ah Che will not dare to bully me. If If he bullies me, I will bully him back."
I thought I had made it very clear. I was even a little nervous with happiness. But why didn’t Su Yunlie let go of me? He pouted. I stamped my feet again, a little dissatisfied. "Su Yunlie. I told you I would be fine. When will you..."
I couldn't finish my words because Su Yunlie blocked my lips again. I even found it a little difficult to breathe. Vaguely, I heard a deep male voice say in my ear: "But you're okay. What should I do?"
"Su...ah..." The warm palm of the man in front of me picked up my clothes. The already broken clothes were even more ferocious now. The soft clothes on my chest were covered and kneaded. I don't understand. ...Why did things become like this again?
"Yan'er. I don't want to give you up to A Che. Please stop liking him, okay? I'll try my best to give you what you want. You stay with me from now on. Don't leave..." Su Yunlie bit. While stroking my neck, he muttered something quietly.
My heart trembled. But suddenly I pushed and hit him regardless. "No. No. Su Yunlie. Let me go quickly. I don't want to be nice to you. No. I have A Che. I Don't be greedy. I don't... want you. Give everything you want to give to others, okay? As long as I have A Che... ah, let go... wu wu..."
No, no, no. Su Yunlie, are you going to lie to me again? I don’t want to be lied to by you. You are a big liar. If you treat me better, you will bully me. I don’t want to believe you anymore.
Somehow I was pushed onto the sofa again. This time, Su Yunlie didn't give me a chance to escape. My upper body was naked. I covered my chest with my hands in humiliation. Su Yunlie A good leg suppressed my dangling legs. His deep black eyes stared at me. "Yan'er, I have figured it out. I want to be good to you. I want this position next to you. .I will not give it to anyone else. Yan'er, please don't get angry with me. I will marry you. I will pamper you and protect you. I don't want to be so timid anymore. This is good."
At this moment, I saw the firmness and persistence in his eyes. But Su Yunlie, why did you say this to me when I decided to turn around? If you had been willing to say something earlier, how could we have reached this point. I closed my eyes. There was a sting in my throat. The pain in my heart was even deeper.
My pink lips twitched twice. I pondered for a long time. Finally I have to say something. I want to say it. I want to tell him: Yunlie. I can't stand you letting go again and again. If you don't love me. Then don't give me hope randomly. I'm not smart enough, especially when it comes to relationships. I will be brave, but my bravery also has a bottom line. You slap me in the face and then give me a candy. I Don't like it. Not at all.
But before the words were spoken, Su Yunlie had already covered my lips with his hand. There were traces of regret and bitterness in his eyes. I didn't want to see him so decadent. Such him. It doesn't look like him anymore.
"Yan'er, don't say anything. Don't say anything. Just listen to me, okay." After a pause, and after confirming that I didn't try to resist, he continued: "Yan'er, Ah Che has been with his parents since he was a child. The proud son of heaven who grew up. In the eyes of outsiders, he is sunny, optimistic, confident, and gentle and courteous towards others. How many people would not like such an outstanding Ache. Yan'er. Before I went to my aunt's house, I and I Ah Che had a little conflict. In fact, over the years, I have always understood that the relationship between our brothers is not easy to ease. I don't want to worry about the things of the previous generation so much. But the two of us really don't look like brothers. It's a fact that I still can't change. Many times I tell myself that Ache is my brother. Even if there is something wrong with him, I should choose to be tolerant. But that day Ache casually said that my mother is not good. Maybe he was unintentional, but I really can't ignore my mother. No matter how good she is, she was still ten months pregnant and worked hard to give birth to me, but she died in childbirth...my relative."
At this point in the topic, Su Yunlie's voice was choked with sobs. I looked at his red eyes. It was the first time I knew that such a mighty and masculine man could have such depression and grief.
Maybe women always have a maternal feeling. I don't deny it. Even though I can't save myself at this moment, I still have the idea of hugging the man on my body and giving him even a little comfort.
"Yan'er. It was actually very cold that day. I went to the swimming pool. I also wanted to let the cold water extinguish the anger in my heart. But obviously the effect was not very obvious. And the water was far from enough to extinguish my anger. Later, I met you. When you swam toward me stupidly, my mood suddenly improved. It turned out that I felt like I was in a world of ice and snow. I didn’t expect anyone to help me. .However, you came and entered my life with such eagerness. Only later did I understand that you were the most beautiful accident in my life and the most undue mistake. When I first saw you and A Che, When we were together, I felt a little disappointed. At that time, I thought, it's actually good for you to stand by my side. But, you are someone else's after all. It's not easy for me to interfere. When you and A Che broke up. I know. But I only thought about looking for you for a moment. We are nothing. I couldn't find the position to look for you, Yan'er. After that, I told myself that I should forget you. Completely forget."
It was very cold in the room. Soon there was a shiver on my skin. When Su Yunlie noticed this, he pulled me up and then pulled me tightly into his arms. I didn't allow him. He coaxed in a low voice: "Yan'er, calm down. I actually don't want to force you like this. But you always make things difficult for me."
The smell of Su Yunlie's body was very good. It was different from Su Yunche's. His embrace made people unable to bear to leave and made them deeply addicted to it. All my weapons collapsed in an instant. I didn't resist because I knew it very well. My resistance was meaningless. More importantly, I knew that even if I wanted to find Su Yunche, as long as this man showed a little bit of care for me, I would not be able to ignore his existence. He gave me good things. I never have the heart to give up.
I kept silent. I lowered my head. Su Yunlie occasionally brushed my dark hair for me. The itchy hair stirred my heart. His warm palm gave me a fatal attraction. Obviously... Nothing should be like this.
"Yan'er, if you didn't show up in the disaster area that time and didn't run into the ruins to save me, I think I would never force myself to admit that I can't let you go more than I thought. I can't let you go. So at that time, I selfishly thought, how great it would be if I could make you like me too." Su Yunlie seemed to be bitterly self-deprecating when he spoke. He lowered his head and kissed my forehead a few times. When he breathed out Warmth touched the tip of my heart, and I trembled. I secretly cursed myself for not being able to let his emotions affect me anymore.
"Yan'er, I was particularly impressed by the way Ah Che saw you that time in the hospital. I know that even though Ah Che has accepted the family's arrangement and agreed to marry Yijing first, he still can't let you go. .Yes. How can feelings be buried? At that time, he said that you should go to the hotel to find him. Yan'er, do you understand? I'm really afraid that you will go. I'm afraid... I'm afraid that you will become his Human. It’s not because you are still so young, but because I like you. My heart tells me that I want to keep you and don’t want you to go. But what right do I have to do this? Maybe you just think of me as a friend. . Even worse, it is just a tool used to stimulate A Che. I actually hate this kind of status. But I can't do anything. Yan'er, I can't force you to like me. But I can't take back my affection. "My thoughts seemed to have completely returned to the scene in the hospital a month ago. There was a light of reminiscence on Su Yunlie's face.