Chapter 62 Even if that person is not me (Burst 11)
After Shang Shuze sent Duan Xinchen back to the army, he immediately left for Hannan University. There was a vague feeling of foreboding in his heart. He exhaled several times for a while. He finally suppressed the strange feeling in his heart.
Yuan Qian followed Xia Yiyang and stood next to the first fountain in the campus. The fountain pool is square in shape. There is a faucet-shaped outlet on each side. The outlet will fill the pool with water. In the center of the pool, there is a water spray device. Just as the water in the pool spurted upwards, the momentum was spectacular. Yuan Qian and the two were close to the edge of the pool. At this moment, some water vapor hit their faces. They were moist and felt comfortable.
Speaking of which, this fountain also has a name. It’s called Four Dragons Playing in the Water. It’s one of the seven scenic spots on the Hannam University campus. At this time, there were many couples standing in twos and threes next to the fountain. Some of them were even making wishes in front of the water. As soon as I finished making my wish, there was the sound of coins being dropped into the water. If you look carefully at the bottom of the pool, you will find that there are hundreds of one-yuan coins on the bottom of the fountain pool here. Most of them are couples who come here. There is a saying in Hannam University that if you make a wish for love in front of the fountain where the four dragons play, your wish will come true one day. Therefore, this fountain is full of romance. .It is also deeply loved by campus couples.
"Qian Qian. Do you have any wishes?" Seeing Yuan Qian's confused attitude, Xia Yiyang took out a coin from his pocket and handed it to Yuan Qian.
Yuan Qian didn't answer. She just declined with a faint smile. "Senior, do you have anything to do with me?" [
Xia Yiyang didn't feel uncomfortable when he saw this. After taking back the coin, he asked gently with a smile: "Qianqian, am I different from others to you?"
This question was a strange one. Yuan Qian couldn't figure out Xia Yiyang's meaning for a moment, so he only responded calmly: "Senior Xia, everyone is different."
"Qianqian..." Xia Yiyang was hesitant to speak at this moment. There were cheers from lovers around him and joyful laughter. After a long time, Xia Yiyang took out a photo from his pocket. His A trace of sadness flashed across her eyes quickly. "Qianqian. I didn't understand why you reacted like that when you first saw me. But now, I guess, I understand."
Yuan Qian was shocked when she heard this. She turned sideways. Only then did she see the photo in Xia Yiyang's hand.
It is a photo with a long history. The photo has been pasted, but you can still see a bit of simplicity and old-fashioned flavor. In the photo, there is a man and a woman. The woman has a ponytail, and her face is full of youth. She is smiling and leaning When she was in the boy's arms, it was easy to see that the boy must be very doting on her. And the boy's appearance... anyone could see it. The boy in the photo was very different from Xia Yiyang at this moment. for resemblance.
Yuan Qian's heart suddenly twitched. At first, there was a slight pain. Soon, the pain spread. She began to feel that she was about to suffocate. She looked away. When she spoke, she realized that her voice had changed because she was crying. and bitterness. "Senior Xia, what exactly do you want to say."
He could see Yuan Qian's stubbornness and sadness. At this moment, Xia Yiyang wanted to hold her tightly in his arms, comfort her, comfort her, and tell her that he was there. But he knew that she would not miss his embrace. He shook his head bitterly. His voice was mute. There was a flash of reminiscence in his eyes. "I went to my aunt's house a few days ago. There is a restricted area in my aunt's house. I have never been in it before. But that day, I heard my aunt's house. I cried in that room that I had never entered. On impulse, I opened the door and went in. Later, I found this photo in that room. At that moment, I understood everything. Qianqian. I guess Many times. I know who you must have thought of me. But I never thought that that person would be my cousin, Xia Shi. Is it him? I am really stupid. If we are not related by blood, the two of us are not related by blood. How can individuals look so similar? If I hadn't stayed abroad for too many years and had too little contact with my cousin, maybe I would have thought of coming here earlier."
Yuan Qian suddenly took a step back. At this moment, there was shock and pain on her face, resistance to acceptance, and countless more complex emotions. Tears suddenly fell from the corners of her eyes. She slipped to the ground. Feeling at a loss, there were already people around them pointing fingers at the two of them. Xia Yiyang hurriedly knelt down and helped her up. There was no apology in his words. "Qianqian. I'm sorry. I'm hateful. I shouldn't have said this. "
Yuan Qian suddenly snatched the photo from Xia Yiyang's hand. Then she flattened it bit by bit with self-reproach. The man in the photo had a smile as deep as the sea. He was tolerant, doting, cherishing and caring... ...In the past, she liked it when he smiled at her like this, because it made her feel that this big boy really liked her.
Xia Yiyang had no choice but to hug Yuan Qian horizontally. Otherwise, as soon as he let go, the girl would slide to the ground limply. Yuan Qian was completely immersed in her own world. How could she care about what others did? What? It wasn't until Xia Yiyang hugged her and sat on the stone chair under the tree that she bit her lower lip, trying to suppress her sobs.
Suddenly, she felt so disgusted with the person next to her. Why did he... insist on exposing her scars in the big sun. She had already thought about it more than 900 days and nights ago... She would never consider remembering that boy. She only wanted to share the opportunity with others. She only wanted to miss him quietly by herself. Quietly thinking about his gentle and gentle smile. Thinking about his every word in class. Thinking about his """" expression when he taught her to do exercises. There's nothing you can do about it, "You can't teach a child." Thinking of all the tenderness he only gave her...
But why... the man next to her wanted to crush the humble desire in her heart. Just because Ah Shi was his cousin, and he happened to find out that he and his cousin looked similar. He knew this thought. Childish and pitiful. But at this moment, Yuan Qian really couldn't hold any prejudice against Xia Yiyang. It doesn't matter whether she is stupid or unreasonable. She just wants to be happy now. But why... is this happening? Disaster.
The tears broke out again. As they snaked across Yuan Qian's cheeks, she felt cold, refreshingly cold. It turned out that in addition to being salty, tears also had this special symptom. They were cold and icy.
Xia Yiyang couldn't help but take Yuan Qian into his arms. Even if she didn't want to. Even if she was so opposed and disgusted. But at this moment, he suddenly wanted to hold her tightly like this and give her a little bit of warmth, so that she could start from there. He stood up slowly from the cold abyss of despair. He knew that he was insignificant and out of reach. He knew that he might never be the sun in her heart. However, even she would also hope for happiness and light. Wasn't he greedy for that touch on her body? Fragrance, praying extravagantly... One day, she can give her a shallow smile, a slightly raised arc, accompanied by her trusting eyes. Then, suddenly she can see the spring, and suddenly she can see the sky. The high ground is wide and the two hearts are connected.
"Why. Why. I don't understand. Really. I don't understand..." Yuan Qian murmured. At this moment, Yuan Qian could no longer tell what she thought about Xia Yiyang. When they first met, she did because of this man and The person she longed for was so similar, which made her feel miserable. But in the future, didn't she try hard to distinguish the two of them and stop confusing them together? Why. Why did he have to remind himself that there was once a person. The truth lies in her. The vivid colors that occupy most of her life. There was once a person who she loved too much. It was too painful to let go of her. She couldn't forget it. She couldn't miss her. Why? He cared so much about himself and gave her his warm chest. .Give his deep affection to her. Does he know that she will never respond to the love he gives? Not only because he is not him, but also because there is another person in her heart. The man firmly took root there.
"Qianqian. Before today, I imagined how you would react when I brought up this topic with you. I know that maybe you will hate me for this. Hate me for being so hateful in your heart. Adding another injury. I hate that I obviously said I wanted to be good to you, but it made you more painful. But Qian Qian, you know, always thinking about the people in the past will never be truly happy. I don’t have to forget Qian Qian. The past has passed. I just hope that Qianqian can face the past, and then live in the present and take a good path in the future. Qianqian, you are only 20 years old this year. You are only 18 or 19 years old. You still have a long life. .I don’t want to say anything about the death of someone. I just want to learn to like someone again. Fall in love with someone. Even if that person is not me.” When I said this, I didn’t know why my throat was choked. .Actually, I still care a lot. I care about how she feels about him. I care about whether she might give him a chance. I care about what he will do if she falls out with him because of this incident...
Xia Yiyang. It turns out that you are not as brave as you thought. It turns out that when facing this woman, you will be careful every step of the way. Such a coward is afraid to move forward. You laughed at yourself without hesitation in your heart. After the episode, Xia Yiyang hugged Yuan Qian tighter and lowered his head slightly. He looked at the peaceful but lonely look on the face of the little man in his arms. Suddenly, he felt a surge of lofty ideals in his heart. ..He suddenly wanted to express his feelings. He wanted to express his love for her. He liked her, even to the point of being hopeless. When did it become like this.
In an instant, thousands of scenes flashed before Xia Yiyang's eyes. There was the scene where she buried her head and sobbed on the street that day. There was the scene where she stuffed all the snacks in her pocket at him at the dance. There was the scene where she was in the desolate land in the northwest. There is a scene where she laughs sincerely. There is a scene where she hugs a bear doll and sleeps peacefully with her eyes closed. There is also a scene where she, who has always deliberately distanced herself from him, is crying in his arms at this moment...·