The images on the wall continued bit by bit, as if someone had filmed the entire process, and Zhang Fenghuang's voice could be heard ringing like a silver bell.
Zhang Deshuai's face was gloomy and uncertain. He looked at Ouyang Yilan with flickering eyes and couldn't help but fixate on the wall. His heart was numb and his throat was sore.
She is Xiao Wang...Zhang Fenghuang...the child of Ouyang Yilan and I...the chromosome...
His thoughts were like a mess. Zhang Deshuai recalled Ouyang Yilan's words and felt an inexplicable depression. He still had a feeling of disbelief, but as the images continued slowly, Ouyang Yilan seemed to be tired when he heard the words.
Weak and choked with sobs - it was obvious that he was extremely excited and his breath was as thin as a thread, and he really hesitated.
"Sister! Sister Fenghuang!" Several lively and cute children appeared in the video. They looked younger than Zhang Fenghuang. They were both male and female. They were all very cute. They were running lively and rushed towards Ouyang Yilan in crotchless pants.
and Zhang Fenghuang. But the facial features of those children actually looked very similar to Zhang Deshuai and Ouyang Yilan. Zhang Deshuai found it incredible, but at the same time he really believed it as if he wanted to compromise.
"Oh, be good!" Zhang Fenghuang jumped out of Ouyang Yilan's arms, responded with a smile, then pulled her younger brothers and sisters and ran to play on the lawn aside, saying to Ouyang Yilan as they ran.
She said, "Mom, when will grandma pick us up? We have to go see dad!"
"Be careful..." Ouyang Yilan sat on a bench nearby, spread a book on her lap, frowned slightly at Zhang Fenghuang, and said with an alluring mature charm.
: "Don't make trouble, even if I go this time, I will just let you take a look from a distance!"
Zhang Deshuai narrowed his eyes slightly and noticed that the cover of the book was extremely simple. He was slightly startled and realized that Ouyang Yilan in the image was actually holding a Buddhist scripture!
Ouyang Yilan, who was next to her, saw Zhang Deshuai's surprised expression. She sniffed, looked at Zhang Fenghuang in the video heartbrokenly, and explained with sobs: "After she was born, she became the main research subject. I repeatedly
I protected her and prevented her from taking medicine, but I still couldn't stop my dad from using medicine on her... She claimed that she was nine years old in name, but in fact she was only three years old... It was all because of the use of medicine that she became
Such! But I didn’t expect it! I didn’t expect it..."
Looking at the little boys and girls laughing beside Zhang Fenghuang, Ouyang Yilan raised her slender left hand to cover her mouth, sobbing even harder: "Since she was born, research on these children has been stopped...
...I thought the nightmare was about to end. As long as her body was still unable to find a way to break through the shackles, I was even willing to accompany them every day to spend this life peacefully! But even then, I no longer had to worry about that kind of moment.
I may have seen the images of those children being killed by drugs. Thinking of those long-dead children, I have nightmares every day... I dream that they are calling me mother, and I dream that they keep crying and complaining to me..."
"Zhang Deshuai..." Ouyang Yilan slowly curled up her legs, hugged her legs tightly with her arms, rested her chin on her knees, and said almost weakly: "You can't imagine... You can't imagine that kind of heart
The feeling of guilt and guilt kept rising and spreading throughout my body. Even during the day, I would feel cold and dark... I stayed in that manor for ten years. Except for the three years of being hypnotized, I felt like this every day.
Crying, every day..."
She choked a few times, hugged her knees more tightly with her arms, her body trembled slightly, but she suddenly cried out: "You know what!!! I have searched for countless books, music, and countless jokes. I just want to
I smiled without any baggage and just wanted to remove all the guilt and guilt from my body!!! They are human beings too! Why should they be treated like this! Why..."
"But it's no use! After reading the Bible, the first thing I thought of was that God has guided the shameful development of human relations! After reading the Buddhist scriptures, I felt nauseated when I thought of their words of mercy and the so-called vegetarian food that is also a living thing! After reading "
"Tao Te Ching", the so-called way of inaction makes me feel even more powerless and tired! Yes, I have to do something, but I really can't do anything... You won't understand that feeling of extreme fatigue.
of!!!"
Ouyang Yilan cried even more heartbrokenly, burying her face between her knees. Her low and desperate cry made Zhang Deshuai's heart twitch violently: "My heart has been twisted to the extreme. Any book in my hands will become distorted."
It was extremely dark... Those so-called healing music became my lament in the end... Countless funny jokes made me look like I am now, even though my heart is obviously scarred, I can still show an abnormally cheerful smile.
, laughing so heartlessly...Ha, after such a thing happened, my personality is actually still cheerful..."
"In the end, I finally understood... Human nature is inherently good and it turns out to be wrong! Desire is the driving force behind the progress of human society! What does this mean? It means that our so-called 'dreams' and 'ambitions' are basically a form of greed for ourselves.
Whitewash! We will be jealous, bored, and tired...Human beings with desires and negative emotions cannot become saints after all! So I figured it out, and gradually began to become insensitive. I can let go without reading those things that deceive people about their faith.
!”
"I began to want to behave more like a mother, to inherit the hopes of the dead children into these living children, to smile at them every day, and to use all my efforts to raise them until they become adults.
Until I watch them grow up...but!!!"
Ouyang Yilan suddenly raised her head and looked at the image on the wall. She didn't see any movement. The image on the wall suddenly accelerated its rhythm, and then stopped at a certain place and continued to play slowly.
"Oh...yes, that's it!" Zhang Fenghuang in the image suddenly nodded in front of the empty person, as if he had understood something, and seemed to have been told something, but suddenly his face wrinkled in panic,
She cried and shouted, "Mom, where are you? Little Phoenix is so scared! Brothers and sisters... Little Phoenix is so scared..."
Zhang Fenghuang seemed to be in a dark room. In the image, she was the only one standing beside the bed. She kept crying and shouting, but no one answered. Then she seemed to have made some decision. Her little face flashed for a moment.
Sweating like raindrops, he pursed his lips very firmly and said: "In this case, then I will bear all the responsibility!"
The figure disappeared in an instant!
It seemed like the sound of a door opening, and the scene followed a corridor into a bedroom. In the bedroom, there were children lying quietly, sleeping very sweetly.
Zhang Fenghuang's body appeared out of thin air.
She pursed her lips tightly with a grimace, and her little body trembled from time to time, as if she was extremely nervous. She looked around at the sleeping children with sad eyes, and murmured: "Don't blame me, little Phoenix doesn't want to do that either."
, I really don’t want to... but there is no way... there is really no way..." Taking a deep breath with a firm gaze, Zhang Fenghuang became invisible again!
Ouyang Yilan next to her suddenly trembled, as if she was extremely afraid of seeing this scene again. She grabbed the thin blanket that Yuzi had hung on Zhang Deshuai, hugged the thin blanket, and made a hoarse voice from between her teeth.
: "No, no, no..."
Zhang Deshuai's heart was pounding. A boy in the picture suddenly had his face covered. As if he was under some pressure, he moved a few times under the quilt, but soon stopped moving...
Just a few minutes passed like this, and all the children lost their voices under the quilt. Then Zhang Fenghuang's body was revealed, and he sat down with his arms convulsed, crying loudly but still justifying his behavior: "It's not mine.
Wrong! Don’t blame me! Don’t blame me!”
Seeing Zhang Fenghuang brutally killing those helpless children in the video, Zhang Deshuai's eyelids jumped very strongly, and a chill ran down his spine. It was hard to imagine that this little Lolita who felt so kind to him could actually
To be so cold-blooded!!!
Ouyang Yilan suddenly stretched out her hand to type on the keyboard, and the image on the wall suddenly disappeared, as if she had experienced an unbearable torture. Ouyang Yilan was still frightened, and her forehead was already covered in cold sweat. She had no time to wipe away the tears on her cheeks, and looked at her coldly.
Looking at Zhang Deshuai, he howled and shouted: "Just because I am the one who controls time, just because of your grandmother's words, just because your shackles are not opened! Zhang Deshuai! In order to solve the mystery of you, for what dog?"
In the future of the Throne of Blood, you made a woman endure unimaginable darkness from the age of sixteen! You made a woman witness countless tragedies happening with her own eyes!!"
"And you! But you still live carefree in your world! Live in a campus without fighting against the world! Walk with your childhood sweetheart every day, and say good night to the person you like every night! I want everything.
If you are alone, I will bear everything! Have you ever considered my feelings? I am a woman!"
"I am a woman!!!" Ouyang Yilan slumped on Simmons, her voice almost too weak to be heard, "I also long for love, for carefree days... in that dark time
Here, I even thought about being able to lean on someone's shoulder and let me cry loudly... I also need comfort, a hug, and someone who can share my pain... But when I clearly need you to take responsibility,
Where are you? Living a life that I think is lonely, but actually makes me extremely envious. Living a life where my parents always pay attention to and love you, but I think my parents are unkind and unkind. Living a life where my childhood sweetheart secretly cares about you.
We are inseparable every day when we are in love...Zhang Deshuai, I hate you! I really hate you! I want to kill you!!!"
"..." Zhang Deshuai was at a loss, his face was pale and bleeding, he looked at Ouyang Yilan silently, his lips began to tremble involuntarily.
He finally believed it!
Looking at Ouyang Yilan's haggard face in front of him, Zhang Deshuai felt depressed and his mouth was bitter. After a long while, he said in a deep voice: "I, I will be responsible for you..."
"Responsible? Zhang Deshuai! You are now one of my watchmen. Who gave you the right to secretly agree to the throne of God!"