The living room fell silent in vain, except for Li Lisa's rapid breathing that could be heard intermittently, and she said emotionally, "Don't look down on them, really don't..."
With her head lowered and her body hunched over, she looked like a wandering kitten, her eyes appearing and disappearing under her bangs, and large tears rolled down her chin and onto her trembling arms.
"Lisa..." Zhang Deshuai moved the corners of his mouth, his brown eyes staring at Lisa Li motionlessly, feeling inexplicably uneasy.
"Yes, I'm sorry..." Lisa Li suddenly stood up, covered her face and ran out with a long stride, faintly crying as she ran.
"Lisa!" Fan Mengyu shouted, raising her legs to run out, but Wang Junjie grabbed her: "Do you know what happened to her?"
"I don't know..." Fan Mengyu frowned and shook her head, "This is also the first time I've seen her like this."
"Catch up yet!" He Dadong heard the answer, stood up and patted Zhang Deshuai, who was looking at the door in a daze, looking very dissatisfied. Zhang Deshuai seemed like a sleeping person who was suddenly woken up, nodded with sudden realization, and rushed in
It's night...
The night is getting deeper and deeper, and Zhangjiacun has also fallen silent, with only scattered lights still on individually, making it quiet and comfortable.
Zhang Deshuai ran out of the door and stopped. On the edge of the small flower bed next to the door, a weak black figure huddled and wept helplessly.
He sighed, walked slowly to sit next to Lisa Li, put his elbows on his knees, and crossed the fingers of his hands in rhythm, but suddenly felt that he could not say anything, and listened to the faint sobs in his ears, saying nothing.
Somewhat tired of crying, Li Lisa sniffed, bent her upper body and hugged her thighs, and lowered her head to the ground. She coughed sadly a few times, shook her body and sneezed a few times.
Zhang Deshuai's mind went blank. Hearing Li Lisa's sneezing, he felt complicated and took off his shirt and put it on her body. He felt the cool breeze with his bare upper body. It seemed that his whole body was sober and calm.
"Ahem..." After choking and coughing a few more times, Li Lisa put her hands into her long hair, wiped away the tears on her face, sniffed, straightened up, and returned the clothes she was wearing to Zhang Deshuai, "
No, no need..."
"It's okay, just put it on, I'm not cold." Zhang Deshuai refused, thought about it again, and said funnyly: "What's going on? It was fine just now, now you just keep your distance from me. I didn't make a mistake, right?"
If you make a mistake, tell me so I can understand."
"..."
There was silence for a while, then a few faint cries.
Zhang Deshuai lowered his head in frustration, looked at the ground with a faint smile and said, "It's okay if you don't tell me. You always have your own space, and I won't ask for details. I have to find out. But, I said, don't
Cry in front of me... If you are unhappy, just tell me, I may not be able to help you solve it, but at least I can be someone you can talk to..."
After thinking about it, he clenched his hands tightly, and Zhang Deshuai hesitated and said: "Is it because... is it because of schizophrenia?"
silence.
There was another torturous silence.
In the darkness, the owner of the pair of shining moonlight eyes seemed to be looking at Zhang Deshuai, trying to see something from his expression.
During the long wait, someone said: "If...I mean if...if I got schizophrenia, would you still...still like me?"
Zhang Deshuai did not turn his head, his body was a little stiff, as if he was frozen, and his breathing was disturbed for a while. He raised his head and looked forward, shaking his head very firmly, "I don't know."
"..." A line of tears silently flowed down from her left eye. Lisa Li closed her eyes and pursed her lips tightly. The already thin lower lip was bitten so fragile that it bled almost instantly.
It seemed like a long time had passed, and it seemed like it was just a moment, Zhang Deshuai asked back: "Let me tell you one thing...if I was very ridiculous, and I pestered you with text messages every day, annoyed you every day, and finally on the first day of school, you
You fell into the Half Moon Lake and I rescued you like a bear rescuing a beauty. Will you fall in love with me immediately, or will you find a good gift to thank me, or will you honor me and be your man for once?
The opportunity of being a friend, and then stubbornly insisting on my choice amidst the cynicism of others, or letting nature take its course. After my humble dignity is challenged by others, in order to protect your reputation, I consciously shrink back and forth.
Tails retreated?"
"..." Li Lisa opened her eyes, looked at Zhang Deshuai incomprehensibly, and argued: "No! It's not because you saved me that I fell in love with you! I, I originally thought I didn't like you... No
, No, that's not the case! I...you..." She was so flustered that she was at a loss. She was so anxious that she was about to cry again.
"So," Zhang Deshuai faced her, patted her shoulder, stood up and looked at the bright moon in the sky, "there are no ifs. If it's all just fantasy and unrealistic, I only know that you have schizophrenia.
, I will be very sad..."
"I was actually stunned just now. After hearing so much of your analysis, which was well-founded, I felt a little panicked. But now that I think about it, I found that if I let you go, not only would I feel guilty... Haha
, I don’t know what to say, I just can’t bear it. So, don’t worry, you also said that it can be cured. What’s more, all I see is your perfect side, and I really don’t feel the slight flaws.
But let me have a look, maybe you will be cuter than the little phoenix, and maybe I will sink even more accidentally."
Turning around, Zhang Deshuai smiled softly, but it just blocked the moonlight and was buried in the shadows, making it difficult to see clearly.
Her pretty face was rosy and alluring. Li Lisa unconsciously covered her racing heart with both hands and swallowed: "Deshuai..."
"Okay, don't cry." Zhang Deshuai stroked her hair, squatted down, gently hugged Li Lisa, and pressed against her shoulders, "It's okay, no one will look down on you. Even if they look down on you, there's still nothing left.
I……"
"Damn it, hate it..." As she said that, Li Lisa hugged Zhang Deshuai's neck tightly and almost threw herself on him.
"It's not me..."
"Huh?" Zhang Deshuai was startled, then smiled with relief, and said with some embarrassment, feigning anger: "Please, you deceived my feelings! You actually dare to say that if, I will bite you!" On the side of his head, Zhang Deshuai suddenly pressed against her.
With her face, taking advantage of the moment of tenderness bursting out, she pried open Lisa Li's red lips.
"Uh-huh-"
It took a long time for the two to separate. Li Lisa gasped and hit him with her weak fist. However, Zhang Deshuai, who was sitting aside, hugged him and said, "It's okay. Why are you so shy! Isn't there no one here?"
!”
The back of her head was pressed against her thick and hot chest, and her heart was filled with a deep sense of security. Li Lisa did not struggle, but said with a weak trembling voice: "But you have to remember your words, you cannot discriminate against anyone."
"Tell me, what is going on?" Zhang Deshuai's heart was beating very fast, and he felt that the girl's body in his arms was so hot that it almost melted him, and he was inexplicably restless, "But I won't lie to you. You should know better than anyone else. I know
I've emphasized it many times." As he spoke, his fingers tightened, but they seemed to have touched something that shouldn't be touched. It was soft and warm, making the girl in his arms tremble.
"Don't mess around..." After a moment of silence, as if she was adjusting her breath, Li Lisa said hurriedly, then sorted out her thoughts, and said to Zhang Deshuai, who put her hand in An An's hair and combed it gently, blushing a little,
"It's my mother...I told you, my father is busy taking care of business every day, and he doesn't even come home, and he has a baby outside..."
After a pause, Li Lisa felt sad and her face was held by Zhang Deshuai, "So your mother..."
"Yeah." Lisa Li nodded, "That's the main reason." She put the shirt in front of Zhang Deshuai and said hesitantly: "You should know, right? I told you about my dad at that time just to show that I didn't want to...
"
"No." Zhang Deshuai shook his head deliberately, "How could I know! People say that girls compare boys with their fathers because they have a good impression, which means there will be further opportunities. Besides, people say: Picking up girls depends on it.
He is just a thick-skinned person! To be bold and careful, you still need a thick-skinned foundation. I can’t forget it, so naturally I just have to persevere and continue shamelessly. Hehe, now I have achieved positive results!”
"Always unruly..." Lisha pouted and said, giving Zhang Deshuai a gouging look, "You won't forget what you said today, right?"
Zhang Deshuai shook his head firmly: "Nonsense! Girl, don't let me ravage you again! How dare you question me! My mother-in-law must be taken care of..."
Li Lisa acted coquettishly and wanted to hit her. Zhang Deshuai chuckled. Seeing her hanging her head in vain and trembling again, he couldn't help but ask: "What's wrong? By the way, you go out a lot these days, and Auntie is alone..."
"She's fine!" Li Lisa felt shy, not wanting Zhang Deshuai to see her moved expression, so she whispered, "She's fine a long time ago, but she's just been taking medicine. My mother is afraid that someone will treat her like a monster, especially me.
To her. But sometimes when I see her squatting in a corner talking to herself, I feel scared when I think about it. But she is better now and her mentality is much more cheerful. As long as she doesn't mention her father, she won't have any problems.
.It’s just...sometimes she doesn’t feel safe, so I will call her often.”
"Yeah." Zhang Deshuai smiled, "That's good, I was thinking of going back with you first! However, with successful examples around me, I am more confident in treating little Phoenix's disease!"
"It's just our exaggeration of unknown things that makes them feel inferior and despair..." Lisa Li pursed her lips and said, "In fact, sometimes everyone can think more from their perspective..."
"Don't think about it after it's over." Zhang Deshuai hugged Li Lisa and smiled softly. He suddenly raised his head and said with a playful smile: "I put myself in my shoes and thought about it, and I feel like you won't refuse."
"What, um-"
At the doorway, which was only a few steps away from the two of them, a figure was leaning against the wall with his hands clasped in front of his chest, looking up at the moon in the sky, exhaling slightly, and curling up the corners of his mouth, but with a clear hint of desolation.
She tightened her clothes and took a step outside, "Hey, we haven't seen each other for several years, and it turns out this is what happened! Hehe, I heard them say that you are the girl Zhang Deshuai has been dreaming about, Li Lisa, right?"
"Ah..." Li Lisa hurriedly pushed Zhang Deshuai away, the blush extending from her forehead to her pink neck, "I, I... I went in first -"
He stood up and ran away, leaving only Zhang Deshuai who was still unfinished. He wiped the corner of his mouth in embarrassment and looked at Ouyang Yilan with a face full of teasing.