He stumbled and held the door, straightened up, only to feel that his body was extremely cold, and the pain that penetrated his bones made him want to go crazy.
Hated...he hated himself for feeling...unable to control his feelings.
The whole person is as if there is only one body left, and the soul is no longer his own.
It is constantly scattered, going crazy, and fearful. It is looking for a point of venting, but can't find it.
His mind was filled with darkness, and occasionally his mother's smiling face would appear, clinging to him and gently calling him, "Baby."
Gu Jinnian only felt pain, and the blood in her body almost solidified, making it impossible for her to breathe.
He reached out and pushed the things on the table down.
He felt that his whole body was dirty, so he went into the bathroom and took a shower again and again. If there was even a drop of water that could not be wiped off, he felt that it was not clean, and then he washed again and again.
Then the whole body couldn't stop shaking.
He put on his bathrobe and squatted at the foot of the bed, his heart beating wildly.
He couldn't hold on any longer. With himself like this, Gu Jinnian felt so tired.
He took a deep breath and tried his best to calm himself down. He looked disgusting with himself like this.
.....
The next morning, Gu Jinnian woke up again from sleepiness.
The room is not too messy. Compared to yesterday, it should be much better now.
I opened the window and took a deep breath. After washing, I put on my clothes and went downstairs.
Father Gu was already waiting for him.
"Are you awake?"
Father Gu asked.
"Do you think I'm still asleep now?"
"...."
"Come and sit."
Father Gu sighed and said.
"What do you want to say?"
Gu Jinnian sat down and squinted his eyes, still looking a little tired.
"Are you sick?"
Father Gu was straightforward and his tone was serious and affirmative.
Gu Jinnian curled his lips: "Sickness? You think too much. What happened a few years ago is now well managed by me. So, you don't need to think about it."
Father Gu glanced at Gu Jinnian and said slowly: "Then why were you so flustered last night? Jinnian, no matter what happens, I am your father. At this time, you should tell me. If it is true
If you are sick, let Weilan come down and help you take a look. He has been treating you for several years, and he knows these things best."
Father Gu spoke very seriously.
"I didn't get sick, and even if I did, I could get through it."