Just like my heart, it is empty and dark, with no light and no idea of the future.
"What you did today was so stupid." A deep voice sounded beside me.
Lu Mingxuan came to me at some point. He lowered his head and looked at me. His eyes were deep and stern, shining with some kind of invisible light. His thin lips were always pressed tightly together, and waves of chill emanated from his body.
I didn't say anything, just stared ahead quietly with lifeless eyes.
When he saw that I was silent, his sullen voice sounded again, "Do you know how dangerous it is for you to do what you did today? If I hadn't rushed over, you would have been -"
"Will you despise me?" I suddenly interrupted him and moved my eyes to his face: "If I was forced by him, you would also despise me, right?"
"..." He said nothing, his cold black eyes showing no emotion.
I raised the corner of my mouth and said, "Sure enough, you will also dislike me." I shifted my gaze and continued to look ahead, with a faint voice filled with disappointment: "Why don't you all like me?"
"Growing up, everyone has disliked me... You all don't want me... Except for grandpa, no one likes me or wants to pay attention to me... Am I that annoying?"
"She would rather follow a man than stay. Is that man really worth everything he has to sacrifice? Am I really her biological child? Why do I have such a mother..."
"I was really too self-satisfied... I took everything too simply, and many things were beyond my control. I thought that with a knife, he wouldn't dare to mess around, but it turned out that he easily...
Caught... I'm stupid, I'm really stupid... A stupid woman like me is really annoying..."
I was talking to myself, and my vision slowly became blurry. It seemed like something crossed the corner of my mouth and dripped onto my feet. It was a little cold, a little... salty...
Suddenly, a pair of arms wrapped around my waist from behind.
"You are really stupid." A warm and low voice came from my ear, "If you know that you are stupid, learn to be smarter and don't be so stupid again!"
"But she...has left..." Will she really never come back?
"This kind of person is not worthy of your memory. Even though she is your mother." His voice was still so cold.