Chapter 431: The so-called so-called you have been there all along 2
Perhaps, this is the most primitive voice deep in the soul.
Perhaps, what I long for is not death, but another rebirth. What I want is not healing, but liberation in the true sense.
Liberation from bondage, liberation from shackles, liberation of soul and spirit.
There are always some invisible things that weigh me down. Therefore, I long for a rebirth. I long for a real life and death.
but……
I looked at the dark night and sighed.
However, I don't have the courage yet.
In the face of death, I am just a coward.
Take a deep breath slowly and then exhale hard.
Suddenly I felt grateful that I was still alive.
Live only for a better life.
Mu Shiqin next to me hugged me and suddenly said in surprise, "Ruoxi, your eyes..."
I looked at him and asked strangely, "What's wrong with my eyes?"
"Can your eyes see?!"
I was startled because it was night and I was used to the darkness and didn't notice whether the lights were on or not. I could already see Mu Shiqin in front of me.
His outline is still so deep, his profile is still so resolute, and his evil blue eyes still contain unpredictable power.
I blinked my eyes hard and put my arms around his neck, "I can see...Shiqin, I can see you!"
Mu Shiqin kissed my eyes, doting and affectionately, "Ruoxi, promise me not to do stupid things again..."
"Silly thing?" I looked at him puzzled.
"I found you at the exit of the stairs. You fell down the stairs, hit your head on the railing and passed out..."
What he said was so distressed and so sad.
I touched my bandaged head and hesitated, "Then...isn't it a complete dream?"
Sure enough, I walked from Mu Shiqin's arms to the emergency exit, but when I rolled down the stairs, I hit my head and fainted. The scenes I experienced after that were all my dreams, as real as hallucinations.
Dreamland.
My consciousness was a little blurry, and I was afraid I was dreaming at this moment.
I can't even tell which part is a dream and which part is reality.
Mu Shiqin comforted me. In the dark night, his eyes glowed with blue light, as beautiful as stars.
He said, "Ruoxi, let's go on a trip tomorrow."
"Travel?" I was a little confused.
"Yeah. Just think of it as a pre-wedding vacation." He kissed my eyelids softly and smiled fondly. "Didn't we agree that when your eyes are healed, we will go on a trip? Where do you want to go? No matter the end of the world.
I'll be with you all the time."
I looked at the man in front of me, and his firm tone moved me.
I never thought that I could have such ordinary happiness.
"I want to see the cleanest place in the world."
“The cleanest place?”
I smiled and nodded, looking forward to it in the boundless darkness, "Yes, I want to go to the paradise on earth. I want to go to the cleanest far away place."
"Okay, as long as it's where you want to go, I will definitely accompany you. I will never leave you."
I hold tightly to this man whom I love like my life.
At this moment, how much I wanted to throw away all shame, morality, dignity, and humanity.
At this moment, I just want to hug and hold on to this man.
"Shiqin. If I weren't me, would you still love me..."
He laughed at the stupidity of my question and said, "If I were no longer me, I would still love you."
I never believe a man's love words. But at this moment, I would rather he lie to me.
Honey, I don't want to tell you how much I love you. Because I don't have the qualifications.