Looking at the iron-green stone tablet in front of me, Jiri Gala's name is engraved on it.
Narentoya stood next to me, her eyes a little sad that no one could understand.
And I just looked at the photos on the stone tablet blankly.
In the photo, Rao Xuyao's smile is still so pure. His handsome face seems to be warmed by the sun, and the corners of his eyes and brows reveal the youthful excitement of a college student. He makes people feel warmer when they see him. It's a pity that such a gentle smile
, I can only stay in this black and white photo forever.
I touched it gently with my hand, and the cold touch made me shiver.
Is this really Rao Xuyao?
That man with a warm smile?
Why, why is he so cold at this moment?
Why, why do I feel like you are so far away from me?
Xu Yao, I squatted down and leaned gently against the cold stone tablet.
He rolled his dry eyes without a single tear.
Xu Yao, I promise you, I will only shed tears for you all night. When the sun comes up, I will only laugh.
If you don't like me crying, I won't cry.
If you don't like me to be sad, I won't be sad.
You see, I'm not sad at all.
I know that you did not leave me, you just went to a far away place to wait for me. I know that you will wait forever.
My dear, I won’t keep you waiting for too long. How can I let you be lonely?
You have been waiting for me in the distance for five years, how could I let you wait for me again?
My dear, one day we will meet again.
No matter in heaven or hell, we will meet again. Until then, please allow me to cry as much as I want, okay?
Because it’s really hard to smile in front of your black and white photo...
I leaned quietly against the tombstone and looked at the crows circling in the sky. The miserable cries made the story even more sad.
I don't know why, I suddenly felt very cold. Maybe I was too tired.
Xu Yao, do you know?
I loved you, I fell in love with you the first time I saw you.
Your eyes are as fascinating as gems, so clear that I can't take my eyes away.
But, my dear, I can't love you. You and I are both little beasts covered with wounds. Even if we hug each other for warmth, it's just wound against wound, loneliness against loneliness. My love for you can't find any way out.
.So, I chose another way out.
However, I did not expect that my way out would trap you tightly and cut off your way of survival!
I don't know how long I sat on the top of the mountain. It wasn't until my legs went numb that I awkwardly got up from the ground, then squatted down and kissed Rao Xuyao's cold smile in the photo.
I said "Goodbye. Xu Yao."
I think if we see you again this time, we will really never see you again.
I stood up, turned around, took one step, two steps, three steps, four steps...
Xu Yao, have you seen it? I am walking out of your life.
Suddenly, my vision went dark, and my body fell uncontrollably.
The moment I closed my eyes, I saw Xu Yao's smiling face, his smile was as warm as the sun.
His white fingers touched my face, and I heard him say, "Ruoxi, you must be happy."
I smiled, and smiled calmly, "Yes. I will..."
Xu Yao. If... there is an afterlife, let us meet each other indifferently, without the troubles and debts of the past and present lives, just like flying flowers encountering silk rain, lotus stamens encountering lotus dew, and streamside stones lying quietly in the river bed.
The clouds in the sky and the blue sky hug each other tightly... I just don't want to miss and be heartbroken again.