What we can't reach is called distance, what we can't go back is called the past, and what we don't look back is called separation. Most of the time, it's not that people don't love, they just hide away because of love. What you avoid is the figure, but what you can't avoid is the shadow.
That silent feeling.
When Ruoxi went back, Shiqin was waiting for her at home.
There was a hint of sullenness in her smile, but before she could speak, Ruoxi had already shrunk unconsciously.
Ruoxi... what are you afraid of? Seeing Ruoxi's appearance, Shiqin's eyes flashed with distress. He came over and hugged Ruoxi gently: "Xier, what's wrong with you? Why don't you want to go to the psychological examination?
consult?"
"No, I'm not unwilling!" Ruoxi lowered her head, not wanting to speak or explain anything.
Mu Shiqin picked up Leng Xi, kicked open the door, and wanted to go out.
Ruoxi's expression changed and she pushed her hard: "Shiqin, let me down! Let me down!"
"Xi'er, don't mess around and be obedient!"
"I do not want to go!"
"Okay, give me a reason!"
Looking up, Shi Qin's ice-blue eyes stared at him seriously and intently, trying to see through his disguise. Ruoxi smiled palely and shook his head: "There is no reason!"
With a bang, Ruoxi was still on the soft car seat. Mu Shiqin said to the driver with a cold face: "Drive!"
Ruoxi fell hard on the car seat, looked at Shi Qin's appearance, and sighed.
It's not that she doesn't want to go, it's that she's afraid of the feeling of being analyzed all over her body.
It’s not that I don’t want to go, it’s that I hate being denied.
Shiqin, do you really love me? Wouldn't it be very tiring to fall in love with a sick woman?
Outside the window, people are coming and going, cars are like a dragon, and buildings are passing by in front of the eyes, like wild beasts, devouring the humans who enter. However, people are still unconscious, their expressions are either happy or brilliant, stroking the eyes of the car windows
Glass, Ruoxi's heart became colder little by little, as cold as snow, as cold as ice to the bone.
Tan's Consulting Office
"Master Mu, Miss Ye!" Still wearing a white coat, this man always has a smile on his face.
Ruoxi nodded, covering her chest, feeling depressed again.
"Ruoxi, please consult carefully. I'll wait for you outside." Shi Qin glanced at Ruoxi, then at Consultant Tan, closed the door and left.
"Miss Ye, please sit down!" Consultant Tan sat on the side of Ruoxi with a smile on his face. "Miss Ruoxi doesn't want to come here, right?"
Ye Ruoxi smiled faintly, neither confirming nor denying.
Tan Yuming saw Ruoxi's look and smiled: "Miss Ye, if you don't want to come here, you must try your best to cooperate with the consultant. You will not come here until you are completely healthy, right?"
Ruoxi's heart moved, she raised her eyelids and said nothing.
"And Mr. Mu should care about Miss Ye very much, otherwise he wouldn't wait outside again and again. Does Miss Ye really intend to continue like this?"
Ruoxi's heart was shocked, and her frown suddenly relaxed. She raised her head and looked straight at Tan Yuming: "I understand!"
Tan Yuming curled his lips and smiled, seeming to have returned to his original foxy demeanor. "Actually, Miss Ye, you don't have to think of consultation as a very depressing thing. It's good to think of it as chatting with me."
Ruoxi sneered: "I'm paying money to chat with you?"
"Okay, let's talk about a topic today - escape and face!" Tan Yuming stood up slowly and said: "Take a drug addict as an example, no matter how he started taking drugs, but the continued drug use after that, the root cause is
In general, it is to escape pain. It is like hiding in the shadow. The painful fact is a devil. In order to avoid this devil, simply sell yourself to a bigger devil. In addition, for alcoholics, because they have had an alcoholic.
The tyrannical father suffered a lot of torture from his father. In order to forget this pain, they learned the same method."
"You mean what I'm doing now is escaping?" Ruoxi frowned, stroked her forehead, and said calmly. "Then can I still be saved?"
"Psychologists only help patients solve problems. The specific analysis must be expressed by the patient!" Tan Yuming looked at Ruoxi's gesture and smiled: "Only by cooperating with the psychiatrist can we have better psychological treatment. You can put your
Tell us about your symptoms and your current mental state!"
Ruoxi frowned and wanted to speak but didn't know how.
"Don't worry, Miss Ye. All conversations between psychological counselors and patients are confidential." As if he understood this dilemma very well, after Tan Yuming finished speaking, he stood up and looked at Ruoxi.
"Actually... I actually don't know what's wrong with me. I've lost my sense of freshness and struggle for things. I have a bad idea of myself and want to destroy myself, both mentally and physically.
, just like my stomach is not good, I always drink." Ruoxi rubbed her temples, and after a while she said: "I still have insomnia, sweating, and no dreams, but I always wake up with a fright."
"Well, has Miss Ye ever thought about the factors that caused these reasons for you?" Tan Yuming's voice was soft, but he still didn't look at Ruoxi, which made Ruoxi subconsciously breathe a sigh of relief.
"I...I...I don't know. Maybe there was this problem at the beginning, but I didn't realize it. And now the symptoms are getting more and more serious." Ruoxi's thinking logic is a bit confused, and she doesn't know what to say? She feels depressed in her heart.
It became more and more serious, and in the end I was out of breath. "I always feel that I am incompetent and a waste, and I want this waste to die quickly. Whether it is mentally or physically."
Tan Yuming: "How long has this situation lasted for you?"
"I can't remember clearly, it must have been a long, long time ago." Was it that time when she was raped in the rain? Or was it the rainy night when Mu Shiqin left her alone? Or... Ruoxi's forehead was covered with sweat. Whenever she thought of these things
, her heart ached: "Whenever I think about it, I want to give up, and I have thoughts of suicide. I went to Xu Yao that time to relax, but I didn't expect..."