He seemed to hear the child calling him daddy and asking him, daddy, why did you leave your mother behind? Why did you leave me? Is it my fault? Is it my mother's fault...
He couldn't bear it, couldn't bear that his leaving had killed his child...
Saying sorry over and over again, he slowly stood up and tried to turn over.
However, just as he was about to pull away, he once again heard her calling him "ex-husband" in a tone of great disgust.
"My ex-husband, my ex-husband is worse than a beast!"
Listening to her scolding, he suddenly lost all his strength, and he didn't even have the strength to be angry or sad.
He weakly pressed his body weight on her, and buried his face in the crook of her neck. His voice was hoarse, as if he had aged dozens of years in an instant. "Yifan, have you ever seen her having sex with her ex-husband?
A woman? Have you seen Xia Yifan..."
After calling her name, he burst into tears, his body couldn't stop shaking, and he could hardly bear the overwhelming emotions in his heart.
Regret, resentment, guilt, helplessness, all kinds of emotions rushed into his heart, almost defeating him.
Why did God punish him like this?
Originally, he lived a very happy life, with a mother who loved him, and a beautiful, gentle, considerate, and loving wife who loved him deeply. How enviable!
However, God didn't like him and took away all his happiness overnight, plunging him into unpredictable darkness without any warmth to cling to.
Why should he be Chu Lin's illegitimate son? Why should he be an illegitimate son...
Why should he be found by that woman...
Why would such a kind mother get such a terrible disease...
Why did the woman he loved so much lose their first child...
Why, why on earth! Why did God make so many cruel jokes on him? Why...who can tell him why?
He lived for twenty-six years and asked himself why he had to endure so many disasters and pains even though he had never done anything immoral.
Just because he is his illegitimate son?
Is it just because he has the qualifications to inherit the Chu family's property?
God knows how much he hopes that the blood on his body has nothing to do with that man!
God knows how much he misses the hard days he once lived...
At least at that time, I was happy, happy, and with the person I loved most, instead of like now, like a madman who often doesn't know what he is doing.
He will be afraid, and he will often have nightmares, dreaming that his mother left him, dreaming that Xia Yifan left him, dreaming that everyone left him, leaving him alone in the endless darkness, lonely and scared.
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He asked the doctor why Xia Yifan was not pregnant. The doctor said that they were in a bad state and mentally. They seemed to be under a lot of stress and emotionally unstable. In fact, they were physically healthy, but mentally, they were patients and terminally ill.
people.
And she is his antidote. Only when she is by his side can he feel better...
So, please forgive him for being selfish and unable to let her go.
He also believed that she would not be well off without him.
For a long time, he didn't hear her response. He only felt that her body was tense and stiff, and she didn't even make a sound of breathing.
He turned over, held her in his arms, and said sorry, "I'm sorry Yifan, I shouldn't have treated you like this... I'm sorry, it's my fault, it's me who caused you such pain, it's me, it's all my fault