Chapter 91: The place in my heart that can never be touched
"Achen, why do you torture me like this? Why do we have to bear the grievances of the previous generation on the next generation?
Have you never loved me except when I was used by you?" The woman looked at him with resentful eyes.
He wanted to tell her that he loved him. He had never been truly happy in the past three years. All his happiness had been buried long ago.
On the day she died, he suddenly found that he had quietly fallen in love with that lily-like woman,
But when he wanted to recover her, he found that she had left and could never be found again. He thought,
He once thought that he would not love her, that he would not fall in love with her. He just felt guilty, he just felt that a human life,
So he couldn't forget him, but gradually he discovered that missing him and heartache would cause him great pain every night.
The bone-deep pain tortured him, and he was losing weight day by day.
Only by engaging in busy work can he eliminate that fear and pain. Coming home every day is the most difficult day for him.
In the end, if Luo Yu hadn't forced him, he wouldn't have left that villa, his and her original love nest. He owed Luo Yu a marriage,
He once promised to give her a home, and Luo Yu had already revealed her feelings to him when they first met.
For love, Luo Yu is willing to give everything. He owes her a home. He has already failed a woman.
He doesn't want to owe another woman's affection anymore. He has already ruined a woman's life, and he doesn't want to ruin Luo Yu's life again.
He just wants to make up for Luo Yu properly. She has sacrificed too much for him, and he only has gratitude to Luo Yu, but no love.
He can only compensate her with material things and a marriage.
But in the dead of night, he would always pick up the sweater Minmin knitted for him. Every stitch and thread was filled with her love.
He would hold the sweater in his hand and look at it deeply, as if he saw the smiling woman's face.
He knew that he married someone else a year after her death, which was indeed a bit chilling. But he didn't want to owe the second woman any more love.
He just wanted to give Luo Yu some compensation. Because he owed Luo Yu so much. If it hadn't been for him back then,
If it rains, it will not be...
Alas, there are too many ifs, but they are all irreversible.
He just wanted to live this life with Luo Yu in an ordinary way. But today,
His heart seemed to be stabbed hard again,
Luo Yu pestered him to attend a solo recital by Zhang Min, a French pianist new to Hong Kong, and that familiar tune sounded,
He seemed to see the lily woman appearing in front of him again.
He remembered the beautiful moment when they first met. Time seemed to go back to the scene when he and she had just met.
His heart was hit hard, and every cigarette hole on his wrist was burned by his own hands.
Because he was tortured by the heartbreaking pain every night, he could only offset the painful torture by self-mutilation.