Li Bingjie is six years old, upright and innocent, loves to jump around, and has a carefree childhood.
Going forward, in the memories of real children today, parents are like shadows, cute and respectable, but also a little scary. They rarely appear in front of children, but sometimes they are kind and gentle, and sometimes they are severe and terrifying." So Li Bingjie
She prefers to rely on her grandma who raised her every day. She acts like a baby, laughs and jumps around.
Although, she was very envious of other children in the kindergarten. They were picked up and accompanied by their parents, and sometimes they would go to the kindergarten to play with their children. But she always had a kind grandma to take care of her. She knew that she also had
My parents and an older brother are rarely together.
In Li Bingjie’s memory, grandma was an ordinary old man who lived at home. She had a gentle temper and always had a kind and kind smile on her face. She did not work or be busy with greenery, and she regarded raising and educating her little granddaughter as the most important thing all day long.
work.
Perhaps, to a certain extent, it is not an exaggeration to say that the old man and his granddaughter depend on each other.
The special family environment and natural personality made Li Bingjie somewhat withdrawn and slightly inferior from that time on. She did not like to play with other children in the kindergarten. More often, she was willing to focus on
Reading a book, or sitting quietly by herself, waiting for her grandma and the family driver to pick her up.
When she was more than five years old, her grandma took her to a rural area, which she said was ***'s hometown. There were many honest adults and elders there, and their kind and kind smiling faces appeared in front of her one by one. At that time, she
, she didn’t know that there were actually many other things mixed in the many smiling faces, such as to please, respect, envy, etc. It was during that trip to the countryside that she found that the children there were better than her classmates in the kindergarten.
many.
In kindergarten, her classmates would clap their hands and show off the gifts their parents bought in front of her, or tell her how good their parents were to them at home; her classmates would ask her why your parents didn't come to pick you up, and do you have any parents?
Do they not like you?" Li Bingjie also had self-esteem in her young mind, so she had a slight sense of inferiority, so she became somewhat withdrawn and evasive.
In the countryside, she found that her peers here were very friendly, and they came up to her out of curiosity and pulled her to play on the felt, jump rope, hide and seek, and play house. No one would ask her about her daddy when we played in the snow for a long time.
Where my mother is, no one is showing off any so-called gift toys in front of her; even occasionally, some children will point at her and laugh at her for being stupid. She is caught playing hide-and-seek, and she is not good enough at skipping to swing the rope.
"Human," but Li Bingjie was having fun and was very happy.
Her kind and kind grandma often took her to that village to play with some friends from then on.
And there are some mothers who are as vague as shadows. When they occasionally appear, they will scold her strictly when they see her alone and excitedly playing games they learned from the countryside.
With a solemn face, say a few words for her." Then there would be the quarrel between her parents; in Li Bingjie's view, there was no reason for the quarrel. Every time at this time, grandma would hug her and leave in anger, not to let her see her parents quarreling.
Li Bingjie doesn't understand why her parents are always arguing and why they can't laugh like other people.
She likes to see other people smiling at her, and she likes the smile of her grandma who always has a kind and kind look on her face and dotes on her. She likes to see her less often but more than her parents, and she also smiles kindly and hugs her.
Tease her grandpa. Also, she likes the brother who occasionally comes with her parents, takes her little hand and tells her stories, and says, are there people bullying you in kindergarten? Tell your brother, he will beat them!
She likes to go to the countryside with her grandma more and more, and go there to play with those little friends. She will run and jump, stepping on some mud with her beautiful little shoes, and her beautiful little face will turn into a cat face." Then she looks at herself and her grandma mischievously.
The driver uncle and Wu Ma who came with us were nervous, but smiled helplessly.
The summer when I was six years old.
It was a lightly raining Sunday. In the afternoon, the driver drove out of the village that had brought endless joy to Li Bingjie, got on the highway, and drove towards home.
Everything seemed peaceful and no different from before.
However, accidents always happen in people's peaceful lives. When the driver slowed down at an intersection and waited for several tractors to pass by on the other side of the road, a large oil tanker came rushing from behind and made a loud noise.
The sound of brakes sounded instantly, and before anyone could react, a violent impact was heard, and the car shook violently! Then it broke into pieces!
At that moment, grandma took Li Bingjie, who was sitting side by side in the back seat, into her arms and protected her with her body.
The young Li Bingjie was covered with blood. She looked at her grandma's face twisted in pain with her frightened eyes, her eyes wide open and her mouth open. Why did her always kind and kind grandma become so miserable?
So scary?
Later, she learned that her grandma was gone.
Grandpa was furious at home and scolded her parents, complaining and blaming them. Li Bingjie, who was standing on the stairs, looked at the scene happening in the living room below and listened to what her grandfather said. In her young heart,
She also seemed to vaguely understand that her parents were responsible for ***'s death, and she herself was also responsible.
If her parents take more care of her on weekdays, or even say a few more words and show a few more smiles every time they see her, they will not feel lonely and inferior in the kindergarten, and they will not
Every day, you pester your grandma to go to the countryside to play? And if grandma didn't take her to play in the countryside to make her happy, how could she get into a car accident and run away?
From that moment on, Li Bingjie's temperament completely changed. She was cold, indifferent, without a trace of emotion.
In the years that followed, her mother and father took her to many places, saw many doctors, and tried various methods to treat her psychological shadows and symptoms.
However, she has always been rejecting and uncooperative. She is lonely and makes people feel sad and pitiful. She just finished elementary school. She is very talented and has excellent academic performance, but her temper is still the same.
When she was in junior high school, she suddenly asked to go to school in the same village where she played as a child.
The parents did not agree at first, but grandpa firmly agreed. The reason was that the child had not made any requests for so many years and had barely spoken a word in a year and a half. Why not let the child go to school there?
After the doctor learned about it, he also suggested giving it a try, which might open up her closed mind.
It was in that ordinary rural middle school that Li Bingjie met Xu Zhengyang.
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Li Bingjie remembers the day she met Xu Zhengyang for the first time very clearly.
Xu Zhengyang wore a white plaid short-sleeved shirt cut and made by rural women, a pair of blue coarse cloth trousers, and a pair of brand-new cloth shoes. He had a yellow-green schoolbag slung across his shoulders and had a short crew cut.
When the teacher led Li Bingjie into the class, Xu Zhengyang was standing next to the window seats in the third row, shouting at the students behind him: "Hey Wangchuan, you are in the back again, and you are alone."
A table, "Chaojiang, Chaojiang, hurry up, throw the pencil sharpener over to me, I will carve names on the table
Xu Zhengyang was greatly embarrassed when he saw Qi Xi coming. He lowered his head and sat down with an embarrassed smile, taking a glance at Li Bingjie who was standing next to the teacher.
The teacher glared at Xu Zhengyang with an unkind expression. Then he led Li Bingjie to Xu Zhengyang's seat and said, "Xu Zhengyang, sit inside. This is your new deskmate."
Naturally, Xu Zhengyang didn't hesitate at all, and immediately sat a lot inside, leaning against the wall. At the same time, he winked at the buddies behind him and made a face, which clearly said: Did you see it? Just forget it, buddies.
Yes, I have a deskmate. She is also a pretty girl.
However, Xu Zhengyang did not take the initiative to strike up a conversation as everyone expected.
This guy is thin-skinned, sorry.
After the first get out of class, Xu Zhengyang finally said his first words: "Hey, let me go,"
Li Bingjie stood up and moved out of the way without even looking at Xu Zhengyang. Xu Zhengyang walked out and was making noise outside the classroom with a bunch of buddies.
The school bell rang and when Xu Zhengyang ran back to his desk, Li Bingjie had already sat on the back of the desk.
"Dian, my seat is inside." Xu Zhengyang reminded.
Li Bingjie ignored him.
"Okay, if you want to sit there, sit there." Xu Zhengyang curled his lips and sat down.
Everything is very plain and ordinary.
Xu Zhengyang and Li Bingjie also remember what happened next very clearly.
The office belonging to Xu Zhengyang on the second floor of Guxiangxuan was very quiet.
Li Bingjie, who was wearing an elegant long dress, was sitting on the sofa. Her eyelids were slightly lowered, and her curved eyelashes seemed to be getting longer and longer. She lowered her head shyly and looked at the dish of dried food on the coffee table.
Fruit that is clean and moist.
Well, even a weirdo like Li Bingjie couldn't stand Xu Zhengyang staring straight at the girl's face for more than an hour. Can you be embarrassed?
Finally, Xu Zhengyang sat up straight, with a slight smile on his face, and a hint of recall in his eyes, and said softly: "Bingjie, do you know? Before I went to school when I was a child, there was no kindergarten, nor was it called a preschool.
, we called it the Yuhong Class at that time. Six-year-olds, oh, those who are not one year old should go to the Yuhong Class for one year, and then go to the first grade at the age of six.
Li Bingjie then raised her head, her eyes as bright as stars were as ethereal and indifferent as ever.
"Close your eyes and relax. It'll be fine in a while. Just treat it like a nap," Xu Zhengyang ordered softly, with gentle and easy-going eyes.
Li Bingjie opened her eyes wide and looked at Xu Zhengyang.
"Well, okay, don't worry, wait a moment." Xu Zhengyang smiled. A trace of spiritual consciousness was gently sent over, easing Li Bingjie's somewhat panicked mind.
Everyone knows that Li Bingjie has a mental illness, which is not good. However, the patient herself, because of her illness, excludes others from having spiritual communication with her, and does not think there is anything wrong with her.
In the past, Xu Zhengyang respected Li Bingjie, so he didn't want to force himself to explore her heart, let alone use his magical powers to uncover the barriers in her self-enclosed heart. But as Mr. Li said, she had a disease and could
It would be good for her if she could be cured. However, Xu Zhengyang could not convince himself to forcefully decrypt and open Li Bingjie's consciousness and heart without her consent.
So today, when Li Bingjie came to Guxiangxuan and sat in Xu Zhengyang's office, Xu Zhengyang asked her gently and persuaded her, hoping that she could receive treatment.
After Li Bingjie hesitated for a long time, she finally nodded gently.
So Xu Zhengyang stared at her face until she looked shy, lowered her head in embarrassment, and turned her head away.
Now, Xu Zhengyang understands Li Bingjie's past, knows that there are some very sad past buried deep in her heart, and also knows the reason for the barrier that closes her mind. But he still needs Li Bingjie's consent.
Only then can she truly let go of her burdens, dig out the normal mentality that Li Bingjie has suppressed in her heart, and remove that layer of barriers.
This is not difficult for Xu Zhengyang. When he was a wandering judge, he could travel with his spiritual consciousness at night and make the drug trafficker Xie Yufen, who had a mental breakdown and went crazy, return to normal overnight. What's more, he is now a city emperor.
, it is indeed not difficult to do this.
It's just that I have some concerns and hesitations in my heart.
Finally, Li Bingjie nodded slightly, closed her eyes, her long eyelashes resting on her eyelids, her expression did not show that she was relaxed, she leaned gently on the back of the sofa, and put her hands together lightly on her lower abdomen.
Xu Zhengyang calmed down his mind for a moment, and then his consciousness once again entered Li Bingjie's deeply hidden inner world.
The spiritual consciousness is like a clear stream, like a trickling stream, flowing happily in the deep ravine in the heart that has been silent for many years, breaking the tranquility and depth that is beautiful but lifeless like the underworld.
The trickle soon flowed into thousands of gullies, where it meandered, filled, and smoothed. The waves bloomed and then disappeared into the trickle. The water gathered more and more, gradually becoming a big river.
The momentum of the wave surges away, washing away the dirt and dust of many years, making this originally beautiful and elegant inner world become more and more brand-new, full of vitality, and seems to be flourishing.
However, the waves washed over the ravine, inevitably causing some shocking splashes.
In reality, Li Bingjie's originally calm jade-like cheeks trembled slightly, and strings of crystal clear tears oozed from her tightly closed eyes. Her eyelashes were moistened and stuck to her eyelids, and tears slid down her cheeks.
, drop by drop, gradually formed a line.
Xu Zhengyang stood up and walked over, sitting next to Li Bingjie. His eyes were gentle and his expression was calm as he looked at Li Bingjie's delicate body that was trembling slightly.
"Woo, woo" a slight sob came from Li Bingjie's delicate nostrils.
Soon, Li Bingjie opened her eyes, threw herself into Xu Zhengyang's arms, and hugged him tightly. With a loud cry, she started crying, crying so hard that she was in a mess, crying with grief.
The door of the office was suddenly pushed open, and Li Chengzhong looked at the sofa with a surprised face. Li Bingjie buried her beautiful face in Xu Zhengyang's arms wearing a white shirt, her delicate body trembling uncontrollably and crying loudly.
Xu Zhengyang patted her back gently and smiled without saying a word.