Ruyi still didn't move. Lucen sat beside Ruyi for a long time. Seeing that Ruyi didn't respond, he closed the door softly and went out. He sat alone by the swimming pool, looking at the blue and blue water in the swimming pool, imagining
After the baby is born, the family happily swims together.
Lu Sen's life seemed to have been segmented since he met Ruyi. In the first twenty years, he had been stubbornly working hard for many nihilistic and boundless things. But after meeting Ruyi, he truly
Living in reality.
And this reality is really what he lacks most, wants most, desires most, and is most indispensable.
"What are you thinking about?"
At some point, Jiang Shanshan stood next to Lu Sen. Lu Sen was shocked by Jiang Shanshan's words, his thoughts were completely broken, and he suddenly felt disgusted in his heart.
"Aren't you leaving yet?"
Lu Sen forced out a sentence with an expressionless face, still as indifferent as before. He had always been stingy with his enthusiasm for people other than Ruyi.
When Jiang Shanshan heard such an unfriendly word coming from Lu Sen's mouth, she didn't feel strange at all. Instead, she felt she was used to it.
If not, then he wouldn't be Lucien.
If he hadn't always had a cold face and a cold tone, I wouldn't have fallen in love with him so crazily.
Jiang Shanshan smiled at Lu Sen, as if nothing had happened. This smile seemed like she had experienced a lot of vicissitudes, and she also looked like a girl who did not like the fireworks of the world.
"Lucen, I know you are still wary of me. I'm not surprised at all. I know I have done too many bad things in the past. I can't even forgive myself, let alone you."
Jiang Shanshan sat next to the swimming pool. The blue water seemed to purify people's hearts. Faced with such cleanliness, even a hard heart would melt.
"Lucen, until now, I still love you. I have never looked at another man except you since I was a child. In my heart, you have always been like a superman, more like a knight. Although I said you might
Don’t believe it, the reason why I treated Ruyi like that before was actually because I wanted to get you. Later I realized that I was wrong, but it was too late. I know that the harm I caused to Ruyi and to you was
I can never make up for it."
Jiang Shanshan's tone was slightly choked, but Lu Sen noticed it.
Jiang Shanshan has always looked like a young lady. She has been held in the hands of Father Jiang and loved like a treasure since she was a child. There is nothing she wants that she cannot get, except for Lu Sen.
Lu Sen looked at Jiang Shanshan's back, and his cold heart suddenly softened. Jiang Shanshan's back was so thin. When Lu Sen was waiting at the prison gate this morning, when he saw Jiang Shanshan for the first time, his heart "thumped".
This was the first time that such a graceful and luxurious woman looked so embarrassed and helpless in front of Lu Sen.
"Lucen, I have figured out a lot for so long. Apart from the unreal pomp, I am actually an ordinary woman. I need love, friendship, and everything a woman needs. I am a failure now.
As a single woman, I have never done anything to live for myself except loving you, because I don’t regret anything you do. Although I have done many vicious things to Ruyi, I still feel
, If I have loved you, my life has not been in vain. Many people have never tasted true love until they die. From this point of view, at least my efforts are valuable. At least I let you know that I really love you.
.”
When Jiang Shanshan said this, her tears could no longer be controlled and flowed out, like an open valve, rushing out. Ever since she surrendered, she had never thought that she could still talk to Lu Sen here.
Heart-to-heart talk is already the greatest gift from God to her.
"do not talk."
Lu Sen couldn't bear to listen. In fact, he just didn't dare to admit that he was really moved by Jiang Shanshan. Since Lu Sen had a child, he would no longer be as stubborn as before.
and the child, opening up the softest place in his heart.
Jiang Shanshan looked at Lu Sen and smiled with some relief.
"No, I want to say that there are some things that if I don't say them now, I will never have the chance to say them again. Lucen, although I love you very much, I still want to bless you and Ruyi. I can see that you are
I love Ruyi very much, and I know that Ruyi also loves you in her heart. You are really destined by God. I didn’t understand before, and I only thought that love is possession. Now I want to see you happy. With Ruyi,
After you have a child, your life is already perfect. I see you are living so happily now, and I am really happy for you."
Jiang Shanshan wiped her tears and said sincerely. She didn't look like she was lying at all. She really understood thoroughly that some things cannot be forced. Even if she insists on it, if it is not hers, it will still be.
Never belong to yourself.
After Lu Sen heard these words, he really looked at Jiang Shanshan with admiration. In the past, he only thought that Jiang Shanshan was a cynical young lady who didn't like other people's fireworks. But now she really has one, and she will treat her with admiration.
Feel.
This woman has grown up from the moment she turned herself in.
"Thank you. I'm very happy to hear what you said. It's best if you understand. Some things really cannot be forced."
When Lu Sen said the last sentence, there was a sense of helplessness in his tone. People around him were extremely envious when they saw him and Ruyi together, but no one really understood what the relationship between him and Ruyi was.
What a hardship.
Jiang Shanshan heard the helplessness in Lu Sen's tone. She had actually seen for a long time that the relationship between Lu Sen and Ruyi was not that simple. It was easy to detect the feeling of two people together, but she also understood that in Ruyi's heart
Naturally, she has her own difficulties, such as Jiang Yuanxiu, and perhaps more.
"Lucen, Ruyi actually loves you very much, but have you ever thought about what she needs?"
Jiang Shanshan seemed to be hinting at something to Lu Sen. She didn't say it clearly. She just wanted to see how much Lu Sen knew about Ruyi.
Lu Sen thought for a long time but didn't say anything. Only now did he realize that what he and Ruyi lacked most was communication and understanding. No matter how long two people have been together, understanding and trust are the most important.
"Lucen, actually you know better than me. Ruyi never cares about how much money you have or how powerful you are. What she needs is never such a huge villa or such a busy life. What she really wants is actually
A simple and peaceful life, with a man who loves her very much, and several children whom she loves very much, who stay with her every day, so that she can be happy and not lonely."