101 It wouldn’t be like this if there was no miscarriage
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Su Han kept telling herself to adjust her mentality. She could no longer doubt Xuan. She had always seen how good he was to her and remembered it in her heart. How could she forget this because of impulse.
His past with Liang Ruoqing. Su Han just needs time to accept... It's not a big deal. They still have such a long future. Wouldn't it be too stupid to live in other people's past~
"Hanhan, what are you thinking about?" Lu Tianming said with a slight smile. Ever since the two of them sat on the chairs in the corridor chatting, Su Han had been looking up at the sky for a long time. It seemed like he had something on his mind.
Su Han banged her head on the wall behind her. She didn't want to speak. She couldn't talk to Tianming about Ye Junxuan... Liang Ruoqing couldn't talk about it.
Since Lu Tianming confessed his love to her, Su Han obviously felt that communicating with him was not as natural as before. Some topics had become very sensitive. She didn't speak. He didn't dare to ask more. They used to be such good friends, but now they can. Become so strange.
Just when Su Han was feeling a little lonely, a juicy peach suddenly appeared in her field of vision.
"Wow…"
"Here. I bought them specially for you." Lu Tianming held up the peaches in one hand and smiled gently at her. On the way to the hospital, he bought three or five specially and brought them with him. He knew Hanhan would like them. .
Su Han felt as if he had discovered a new world. He was so happy that he took it with both hands. He nodded shyly to Lu Tianming: "Thank you."
It turns out that Lu Tianming knows him best. How did he know that she wanted to eat peaches? At this point... pfft. Ye Junxuan is slightly inferior~
Lu Tianming smiled again when he saw Su Han. He also became more enlightened: "Little monkey, remember to wash before eating."
"Yeah, I know." Su Han held the peach in both hands and put it under her nose. Yeah, it smells delicious. It must be very sweet.
Lu Tianming also brought a fruit plate from the ward: "Here, give me the peaches. I will help you wash them."
Unexpectedly, Su Han snatched the fruit plate from his hand and held it on his legs like a treasure: "No, I'll wash it myself. Give me all the peaches~"
Lu Tianming had no choice but to obey. The remaining three peaches were all taken into Han Han's bag. Then, Su Han held the fruit plate in both hands and walked away.
Lu Tianming looked at her happy back. He smiled and shook his head.
Su Han was humming a tune by the sink. He washed the peaches cleanly and put them on the fruit plate again. He held them with both hands and prepared to walk back.
"Oh. It's so miserable. Do you think this is fate?"
"Ms. Su in bed 609. She... forget it. This is the patient's privacy."
Miss Su. She.
Su Han couldn't help but stop when she heard her name. She turned around and looked... She saw the door of the consulting room on the other side of the corridor was ajar.
But...what's so tragic. What's the patient's privacy? What happened to her...
Su Han couldn't help but be curious. He stood on tiptoes and walked to the door of the consulting room. There were two doctors sitting inside. They seemed to be chatting about something.
"If you really want to ask, well, it's okay to tell you. I reviewed Miss Su yesterday. Based on her current condition... I'm afraid she won't be able to have children again in her lifetime..."
When... rang...
The moment he heard those words, the peaches on Su Han's plate rolled to the floor.
...What does it mean to be infertile?
She can no longer have a baby...
How is this possible... This can't be true. Tian Xuan also said that when she is discharged from the hospital, he will bully her and ask her to have many babies... The doctor made a mistake in the diagnosis, right? She is recovering so well now. Can How can you be infertile for life if you can run and jump?
"Yes. She had a natural miscarriage before. But her physical condition...sigh. Really. If it hadn't been for this miscarriage, she might not have been like this."
Su Han's head suddenly became dizzy and he almost fell to the ground.
She squatted down and hugged her legs tightly. Finally she couldn't help crying. She buried her head in her lap. Her heart suddenly hurt so much.
She can't have a baby. She will never have another Xuan baby...
Why is this... why does God abuse her like this? What did she do wrong...
Lu Tianming heard the sound and rushed over. Finally he saw Su Han around the corner.
"Han..."
Lu Tianming was about to call out her name, but it was stuck in his throat because he saw another person had already walked to her side.
"Hanhan. What's wrong with you?" Ye Junxuan saw Su Han squatting by the wall and crying sadly. He quickly helped her up. He saw that her eye circles were extremely red, so he held her shoulders anxiously.
Su Han let him shake her shoulders. She seemed to have lost her soul. Seeing that she was reluctant to speak, Ye Junxuan became even more anxious.
"What happened? Tell me... what happened to you..." His intuition told him that something must have happened to her.
"Xuan..." At this time, Su Han finally spoke tremblingly. There was still a thick pool of tears in the corners of her eyes. In the blink of an eye, they gushed out like spring water. "I can't get pregnant anymore. I can't anymore. What should I do..."
Hearing this shocking news, Ye Junxuan's pupils also dilated a bit.
"Who did you listen to...how is this possible?" Ye Junxuan was very doubtful about this result. "Hanhan, please don't be impatient. Speak slowly. Tell me what happened."
Su Han suppressed the sobs in her chest and tried to calm herself down. At this moment, she knew that Ye Junxuan was caring about her. However, she still did not dare to look into his eyes.
What will she do if all this is true? What if she really will never have a baby again? What will they do...
"Tell me." Ye Junxuan was already worried. He didn't know what to do. Why did Su Han refuse to tell him the details?
Su Han held on to the hem of his clothes tightly. She bit her lip. Her eyelids could no longer bear the weight of pain: "The doctor said... I will never have a baby again..."
It's all because her health is so bad. Why doesn't she cherish herself so much? Malnutrition. Coupled with the torture of this miscarriage... She should have guessed it earlier.
Yes. It turns out that this result is reasonable. It is so helpless... She is destined to be like this. She is destined not to be pregnant with Xuan's child again... Is that so? All of this is destined. Haha. It is destined. of……
Ye Junxuan sighed. His voice was also trembling. He held Su Han tightly in his arms and comforted her very gently: "Be good. It's okay. Don't cry."
Ye Junxuan is also forcing himself to accept this fact. Although the news comes too suddenly, they have to face it together after all. Fortunately, Hanhan is still fine now. This is enough, isn't it?
Su Han's tears became more intense. She couldn't convince herself. The more relieved Ye Junxuan appeared, the more she blamed herself in her heart.
"Xuan...our first baby has been aborted. Why...why there won't be another baby in the future. Why..." Su Han shrank in Ye Junxuan's arms. She was already a little incoherent. "I want a baby. I want to give you a baby..."
Her heart has never been so sad. Doesn't she even deserve the right to be a mother? What kind of cruelty and punishment is this. She regrets it. She really regrets it. Can she start over? She must She will take good care of herself and not let the baby leave her...
Ye Junxuan didn't let Su Han talk anymore. If he continued to listen, his heart would be shattered. "Hanhan, don't be like this. It's not your fault, baby... Look, I'm not with you. You still I'm here. Look up."
How could Su Han dare to raise her head? She knew he was comforting her. She knew he was forcing a smile. Which man would be willing to marry a woman who couldn't have a baby? She was already like this. How could she face Xuan? She was very calm. .Also very self-aware...
Ye Junxuan knew that she was thinking wildly. He hugged her tighter: "Baby, don't think wildly. No matter whether you can have children or not, I will never leave you alone."
He loves her as a person. She is not a tool to carry on the family line. No matter what happens, he is determined to stay with her.
"Stop talking...please..." Su Han's voice became very weak. She was almost dumb from crying. She had no strength to struggle anymore.
She was so afraid of hearing the truest answer in his heart. She knew that he would despise her. She knew it, but she was just afraid of hearing him say it himself. The whole world could reject her, ridicule her, and look down upon her. But... she I really don’t want to lose the only him...
Ye Junxuan let go of her shoulders and wiped her crying face: "Let's go back to the ward to rest first. Okay. Don't be blindly pessimistic first. Let's listen to what the doctor says later. Maybe it's not as bad as you think. Woolen cloth."
Su Han was still sobbing and nodded to him. Her heart was very tired and she no longer had the strength to continue crying.
Ye Junxuan patted her back gently, held her waist and walked back to the ward.
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It wasn't until the two figures completely disappeared at the door of the ward that Lu Tianming came around the corner. He didn't hear what the two of them were talking about. But judging from her expression just now, she seemed to have been deeply hurt. trauma.
Lu Tianming lowered his head slightly and looked at the peaches scattered on the ground. He suddenly felt indescribably sad.
Those poor peaches were lying so quietly on the cold ground, as if they were abandoned creatures. The angel's wings were injured and he would no longer pay attention to them.
He suddenly felt that his existence was superfluous. Hanhan had changed. She was no longer the easily moved little girl. What she needed now was not fruit or the companionship of friendship. He couldn't give her what she needed...
It was a pity. He knew that he could not be the one to protect her for the rest of her life.