Su Han didn't want to pretend to be herself anymore, she just wanted to cry.
Lu Tianming chose to remain silent. He knew that nothing he said would be of any use. Hanhan was completely trapped in a whirlpool called Ye Junxuan.
Su Han tilted her head slightly, with a few messy strands of hair hanging in front of her small forehead, like a doll that could be disposed of at will. She was so lovable that people couldn't help but want to hold her in their arms and protect her.
After a long time, Su Han suddenly grabbed Lu Tianming's arm. Her voice was surprisingly calm: "Tianming, do you think the feeling of jumping off the building and falling... will be painful?"
Lu Tianming was stunned for a moment. Why did she say such shocking words?
"Hanhan, what did you say?!" She jumped off the building. Why did she suddenly ask this question?
Su Han's mood was so calm that she laughed self-deprecatingly: "I saw some analysis on the Internet saying that if you jump from a building, you will suffer severe pain all over your body the moment you hit the ground. It sounds really scary. I am timid and afraid of pain..."
As she talked, she actually laughed with relief. The so-called death seemed to be telling a joke to others.
But this joke was not funny at all - Lu Tianming was almost stunned and did not even dare to speak easily. Looking at Su Han's current appearance, she completely thought that death was something that could be done casually. She was crazy.
Is that so? Because of a man, because of a heartless man who abandoned her, she wants to punish herself with death?!
"But think about it, you will be completely relieved after jumping... The pain is still worth it. What do you think?" Su Han curled up on the sofa, folding her arms. It was summer, but she felt that
So cold.
Lu Tianming couldn't bear it anymore. He grabbed her wrist and said sternly: "Don't think so much! Let me tell you - jumping off a building feels very painful, very painful, and you will not be able to bear the pain.
!”
He doesn't mind threatening her at this time. She is only twenty-two years old and her life has just begun. How many beautiful scenery have she not seen yet? It is too stupid and stupid to choose to die because of the departure of a man.
.
"But, I really can't live anymore...really..." The corners of Su Han's eyes were numb and she couldn't even cry.
Would dying hurt? More than when he pierced her body...?
She has nothing left, she has given him the best things, her first night, and her first love... He is everything to her, the only harbor she wants to rely on.
It turned out that he didn't care about her as much as he thought. She loved him with all her strength and gave her all. Why didn't she get a response? Why did she get such a result...
What's wrong with her? She really wants to cry, but also wants to laugh. What is she thinking in her heart? Is this feeling of relief relief or extreme grief...
Seeing how miserable she was, Lu Tianming really didn't know what to do. How great would it be if he could hurt instead of her, be sad instead of her? He would rather he was the one who got hurt and give her a happy smile.
"Don't think about him anymore! He won't care about you!... It's not worth it if you keep doing this." Lu Tianming said through gritted teeth every word. It's all because of that bastard named Ye Junxuan! He treated him like this
Hanhan, she chose him, but he didn't know how to cherish it...
Su Han didn't seem to have listened to Lu Tianming's words at all. She kept hugging her knees.
"I want to put the suicide note in a plastic bag like plastic wrap. Guess, why should I put it there?" At this time, Su Han was actually smiling, and smiled very happily: "I can't guess.
...Haha, let me tell you~ Because there will be blood, if the suicide note is blurred, wouldn’t I have written it for so long in vain?”
Lu Tianming knew that her heart was in pieces. Only a completely desperate person would say such words. How could he comfort her? How could he heal the deep wound in her heart...
Su Han nodded thoughtfully and continued: "I don't know where people who jumped off buildings in the past put their suicide notes, but they are definitely not as wise as me, ho ho..."
"Su Han!" Lu Tianming was getting more and more frightened by her. He had known her for so long and he had never seen her like this. Is she crazy, thinking of dying for a man? What should I do with my aunt, who has worked hard to raise her for twenty years?
She just let go after so many years... She didn't care at all about her mother's heartache? She didn't care at all about his hopelessness?
"I was thinking, should I put my ID card in there? It would make it easier for the police to work." Su Han didn't finish her words. She was still thinking about others, "But when I think about how much my ID photo affects the city appearance... it's really
I don’t want the police uncle to think I’m an ugly person.”
She had to die, and she couldn't be an ugly ghost. She had to dress up and try to die beautifully.
Thinking of this, Su Han nodded again, very satisfied with his idea: "Well, yes... I want it to be beautiful. Even if it breaks, at least I will leave a beautiful portrait."
Su Han seemed to regard Lu Tianming as a transparent person. She could no longer listen to what he was saying and wanted to be free. However, her eyes gradually became dim. Can death really end everything?
If she dies, there is no difference between her and death now. After she dies completely, her heart will not hurt so much.
Su Han looked up at the ceiling, tears streaming down his eyebrows, and said coldly: "Before I jump, I want to call him without hanging up... and let him hear the sound of me falling to the ground.
In this way, will he feel sorry for me?"
After hearing these words, Lu Tianming became more and more frightened.
But Su Han was still laughing.
She laughed because she was afraid that even if she died, Xuan would not look back at her.
Lu Tianming's expression was extremely serious: "Su Han, if you dare to do this again - I will die with you."
Die together? He said he wanted to die with her...
"You don't have to do this." Su Han shook her head hopelessly, because she didn't want this to happen, "Leave me alone, don't persuade me anymore, leave me alone, please..."
This is her last request. Let her disappear quietly from this world, without being tied up by anyone or anything. No care, no more pain.
"Girl, can you stop crying?" Lu Tianming's tone seemed unusually calm, but his heart seemed to hurt more than hers, "Do you know that if you die, I will have one less reason to live?
.”
He stared at her with incomparable determination. In that persistent look, it seemed that the deep fear in his heart was revealed. At that time, Su Han's tearful eyes seemed to have stopped for a moment.
No one has ever said such solemn words to her...
Is she really that important to him? If you die, I will have one less reason to live. These are such shocking words that make her suddenly feel that there are still people in the world who care about her and need her...
"Hanhan, do you really not know?" Lu Tianming's expression became gentle, and a faint smile appeared on the corner of his ordinary mouth, "I have liked you for a long time, a long time, a long time."
After finishing speaking, even the surrounding air became silent.
Is it true? Is this... Lu Tianming's confession?
Lu Tianming still smiled: "If he doesn't want you, I will marry you."
Su Han could only stare blankly into his eyes, not knowing what to say.
…
One day eight years ago, the weather was full of spring.
In a classroom in the second grade of junior high school, Lu Tianming walked slowly to Su Han's seat with his hands behind his back. After thinking for a while, he finally said to her with a smile: "Hanhan, I have something to give..."
"Don't talk, don't talk!" Su Han, who was in a mess, waved his hands quickly without looking up at him - only five or six exercise books were spread out on the desk, and Su Han was buried in the middle, looking left and right.
Looking for something.
Lu Tianming saw her fussing and smiled slightly: "What are you writing? So serious." Hanhan usually doesn't like to do homework. She has to put it off until the end every day. Why are you so diligent today?
Su Han casually threw down the signature pen, and she scratched her bangs in front of her forehead in annoyance: "Just now, the math teacher called me to the office and said that I didn't get any of the questions in yesterday's homework. Ugh, she wants me to do this unit's homework
Do all the exercises again..."
"..." All the questions are wrong. This also requires skills...
"Tianming, can you help me take a look?" Su Han pointed to a question in the exercise book and said anxiously, "I have read the homework of several classmates, and I can't understand this question...
…”
Lu Tianming smiled faintly and sat on the chair in front of her: "Okay, show me."
"Yeah!" Su Han smiled happily. She knew that Tianming was the best and would help her every time.
Lu Tianming looked at Su Han's homework book for a while and said to her: "I understand, you have substituted the wrong formula. The conditions used in this question are the adjacent sides and hypotenuse of a right-angled triangle. They should be substituted for cosine cos
In the formula, you substituted sine. Let’s change this number... Well, look, does the answer come out now?”
Listening to Lu Tianming's colorful answers, Su Han blinked aside. Tianming is Tianming, it's awesome, and the math class representative is not covered.
Lu Tianming patted Su Han's head and smiled gently: "Okay, little Benben. You are still called Hanhan. Why can't you learn trigonometric functions?"
"...It and I are not the same 'han'~" Su Han pouted unhappily.
Seeing her adorable silly look, Lu Tianming chuckled twice.
"Thank you, Tianming." Su Han corrected the math problem and finally got it right. She nodded with satisfaction and joy: "By the way, what do you want from me?"
Lu Tianming suddenly became nervous and didn't know where to look with his eyes: "I'm actually fine."
"Lie. What did you put in your pocket? Take it out~" Su Han had already seen something in his hand, and still wanted to lie to her? Hoho.
There was no other way, and Lu Tianming knew he couldn't hide it. He took something out of his pocket and carefully put it on the table: "Here."
Su Han blinked and saw that it was a note.
"What is it?" Su Han opened the note curiously, and she almost screamed.