I have been working on manuscripts all night long these past few days, and I have finally slowed down a bit.
People are very tired, and their hearts are even more tired. I want to think and say a few words.
I know that the end of the perfect attendance game will cause dissatisfaction among everyone.
But I think that not everyone can understand the end of this matter. I am the one who is the least willing and the least willing.
I don't like to give up halfway, and I don't like to break my promise.
When I realized that I had to give up, I was very struggling and painful, but I didn't even have time to deal with this emotion because I still had writing tasks that had to be completed.
I also thought about forcing updates on the thriller side. In fact, I just insisted on writing the chapter on the 17th, but my time and energy really didn't allow it, so I couldn't continue.
Fortunately, most readers still understand me. I would like to say sorry to these readers once again for failing to live up to your expectations.
If some of my words from now on hurt your feelings, I hope you don’t misunderstand me. I didn’t say those words to you.
I told some people.
There are indeed more people reading my books now, so this group of people has emerged.
These men don't care or understand other people's situations. Perhaps only when an "emergency situation" occurs to them, they will take the subsequent series of compromises for granted, but when it comes to others, they will will be ignored.
Even if I have been writing for so many years and have tried my best to fulfill every promise I have made, it means nothing to these people. As long as I break my promise once, they will say, "You are talking nonsense and go back on your word." .
Well, I think these people have either never broken their trust due to any objective factors in their lives, or they simply lack the most basic tolerance, understanding, and respect for others.&;&;
This has nothing to do with watching genuine or pirated copies. I am not focusing on this point, because some of these gentlemen also watch genuine copies.
I don’t know what kind of environment these people grew up in, what kind of education they received, and what kind of cognition they had, so that they think that the author owes them something, and that as a "consumer", they feel that they are superior to others.
Even if I make a living selling my calligraphy, if I take other people’s money and others take my calligraphy, I don’t owe anything to either of them. Why should I grovel?
The world is fair, and I will naturally welcome those friends who sincerely support me and like me with a smile. If I make a mistake, I will admit it to them. I don’t ask for forgiveness, and I don’t need you to understand my inhumane ways. Struggle and sacrifice, but I sincerely say to you, I'm sorry.
As for those gentlemen, I don’t think I have any need to respect them, or to kneel down and lick a group of people who don’t know what respect is, as you expected.
You can play in an environment that welcomes you and provides you with that pathetic sense of superiority, and you don't have to feel uncomfortable in my place.
I have never said to my readers that if you like to read and don’t read, I have always used this attitude towards those big men. To be honest, these people, if you want to leave, leave quickly. Don’t I always think how big the loss will be if you are missing somewhere, how shocked you will be when you leave, and how reluctant and shocked others will be.
The world would go on as usual without everyone, and it would be the same without me, the person who sells words.
Finally, I would like to say sorry to all of you for not being able to finish the game, because I have also broken trust with you. Because after all, I am still a person who knows how to respect others. Regardless of whether these people are worthy of my respect, let’s just discuss the matter.
I was wrong.
Okay, that's almost the end.
Many people say that I have changed.
Maybe.&;&;
I didn't write single chapters before because I didn't like writing.
A few years ago, the first single chapter I wrote was asked by my editor at the time.
I have been advised by more than one person that the singing bird has food to eat, that I should strive for more for myself, that I should get my readers into the habit of voting, etc.
So, I also started to write some single chapters. I tried my best to write the single chapters well. Even if they were utilitarian words, I also wanted to use them to bring happiness to others. I tried my best not to ask for votes directly, because
I was mentally resistant. Therefore, I came up with the Perfect Attendance Game. As a person who updates very slowly, I use some rigid indicators and the "commitment" that I value most to constrain myself.
I didn't expect that it would end like this after an unexpected situation.
I am still very grateful to the readers who treat me sincerely, and I will not feel sad for those who do not respect me.
Perhaps, this is also an opportunity for me to return to my original state.
I want to tell you that, actually, I haven't changed.
I am a person who is difficult to change. What changes is the spectators and the world.
I still haven’t been to a Qidian writers’ gathering. I try not to attend any activities that have nothing to do with writing itself. I’m still writing the stories I want to write. I’ve never done anything to “fill in the water” as many people say.
Whether you scan it at a glance or read it carefully, every chapter of mine is written carefully and took a long time.
The mood and effort I put into writing the first chapter of my first book are still the same now.
Even if I write slowly and very hard, my bottom line will not change. I have to be responsible for my work and live up to my own standards.
Maybe you have grown up, the world has progressed, but I still stay where I am.&;&;
But I think this is good.
I have nothing to do in the future and will not post anything other than the main text.
As I quoted the former captain of Division 5 many years ago: "Admiration is the emotion furthest from understanding."
I think I should step back to a more appropriate distance and communicate with you again using the simplest words in the story.
At least now, I think this is better. Please pay attention
