Her heart felt as if someone had cut it out with a knife, and the pain was so severe that she couldn't even stand up straight. The fact that she didn't dare to admit was displayed bloody by Bai Yan in front of her. Hua Xuanji didn't know how to react at this time.
He could only kneel there as stiffly as before, his fingers red from the cold clutching the same cold clothes.
Biting her almost purple red lips tightly, Hua Xuanji was forced not to shed any tears.
Don't cry, you can't cry, who can you cry to? No one really sympathizes with or understands you. Even the little maid in front of you who has been with you for more than ten years now looks full of doubts.
She had no choice at all about her identity. Whether she was a girl from a brothel or a body that was broken in the later period, Hua Xuanji could not choose. She could endure it before because she took someone else's body and gained a new life.
And it was all physical torture.
However, at this time, she couldn't even choose her own feelings, and could only become a tool controlled by outsiders. This was definitely not what she wanted, nor was it her original intention to fall in love with Yehua.
There is an insurmountable bottom line in everyone's heart, but she just couldn't cross the threshold where ancient people could have three wives and four concubines.
Just now, she was still complaining about Huaguancai's tragic fate. Will it fall on her so soon? The hands holding the clothes tightened tightly, and Hua Xuanji took a long breath to relieve the sting in her heart. She was not that
Like a woman in the harem, her most common dream every day is to expect favor. What she wants is an ordinary home, and what she wants is a man who treats her wholeheartedly. If Yehua can't do it, she would rather
Let go.
"Brother Yehua, is this here? It's so dark." I don't know if it was because of the snow queen, but the voice of the woman behind him seemed particularly clear, and also, particularly harsh.
"Either I go in by myself." Ye Hua's voice was still neither cold nor indifferent, but his cold eyes were focused on the position of Hua Xuanji. Looking at the trembling little man, he felt an indescribable bitterness in his heart.
.
Now I still don't have enough strength to protect her.
She stretched out her hand to take the wine bowl in Ye Linglong's hand beside her, but she avoided it with a smile. Her green eyes raised a charming arc. Ye Linglong held the wine bowl in one hand and held it with the other.
Ye Hua put his arm and leaned his head slightly on her shoulder:
"With brother Yehua here, I'm not afraid of anything. Let's go." He said, pulling Yehua, who had a slightly stiff smile on his face, and walked inside.
"Qingge, you go first." Hua Xuanji stretched out her stiff little hand and pushed Qingge beside her. Although she didn't feel anything, she still used her full strength. She lowered her head and looked directly at the patches of white snow on the ground, unable to lift it up.
There was no temperature, and she could not feel the slightest heat or cold. Her hands were already frozen. Hua Xuanji chuckled. If this continues, I am afraid that even the beating heart at this moment will be frozen sooner or later.
.
Like all women who fall in love, Hua Xuanji did not expect the deep jealousy contained in everything she was thinking at this time.
The empty and lonely courtyard was tightly covered by the vast snow. Every step he took was accompanied by a loud creaking sound. Even though the woman beside him kept teasing with him, Yehua did not change his gaze for a second.
"You wait here, I'll be back soon." Less than one meter away from Hua Xuanji, Yehua stopped to himself, opened the little hand holding his arm, and said calmly.
"Brother Yehua, it's so dark here, just let me accompany you." Ye Linglong knew that Ye Yehua wanted the wine bowl, so she put her hand to the right and refused to hand it to him. Her green eyes were slightly raised.
: "I heard that the emperor doesn't allow anyone to get close to this woman. It's not good to do this."
"It's really not good." Hua Xuanji closed her eyes tightly and took a faint breath, "So you two please go back. It's freezing cold, so I'm afraid it's not suitable for you to communicate with each other."
"Hey, why are you talking like that? Brother Yehua and I are here specially to give you something."
Sending something? Hua Xuanji raised the corners of her lips numbly, but she still came to tell herself the truth. Her long eyelashes were covered with crystal snow beads. "This is how I usually talk. If you don't want to listen, you can go back."
"You go back first." Yehua, who had not spoken for a long time, no longer wanted to cause trouble. Seeing Hua Xuanji's behavior, he was stunned for a moment, and then a faint joy filled his heart. Is she jealous?
Ye Linglong was a well-rounded woman. She knew that being too proactive about some things would have the opposite effect. She obediently put the wine bowl into Yehua's hands and pretended to be aggrieved: "Then I'll wait for you at the door.
." He said and trotted down quickly.
"You should also go down with her." Hua Xuanji slowly opened her eyes, smiled softly, and said cruelly: "If you don't accompany your new princess, are you afraid that if she runs away, you will lose an advantageous chess piece?
" She gritted her teeth tightly, obviously wanting to use words to stimulate him. However, when the words came out, she was the one who hurt first.
Yehua's body froze when he heard Hua Xuanji say such words so coldly. He didn't expect that she would actually say such words. He narrowed his cold eyes slightly and asked in disbelief:
"You know everything?"
"What do you know?" Hua Xuanji still replied calmly: "Shouldn't I know? How long are you going to lie to me? Why do you want to wait until I marry her and let me see the truth before I finally understand?"
"Things are not what you think." Yehua didn't want to say anything more. Explaining to her at this time would ruin his own affairs. He leaned down and handed the wine bowl to her lips, staring at her for a moment.
Black eyes.
"Just trust me, I have my own reasons too."
"What difficulties does a cold-blooded person who is willing to do anything for the country, even his own brothers and flesh and blood die without any grief, what difficulties does he have." A cold smile curled up at the corner of her mouth, Hua Xuanji turned her head and stopped looking at Yehua.
Her face, that cold face was the only softness in her cold heart at this time. She didn't dare to look at it, for fear that if she looked at it, she would fall again, and for fear that if she looked at it, she would not be able to be cruel again.
"Who says I won't grieve, Hua Xuanji, is this me in your eyes? So unbearable, so outrageous? If I hadn't been out fighting at that time, I would never have let you and your child have any problems."
The fingers holding the wine bowl trembled slightly, and a hint of helplessness slowly touched his lips.
How could I not be sad? How could I not be sad? When I learned at the border that their mother and son were in danger, it was me who immediately rode over after not sleeping for days and nights. It was I who stayed beside her quietly without resting.
He waited quietly for two months, even giving up the military talisman he had already obtained for her.
But at this time, she actually said that she was cold-blooded.
"No way?" Hua Xuanji bit her lip tightly to prevent tears from flowing down, "Then you will let the child be born safely, be crowned king from now on, and take us away from this noisy, endless conspiracy of the throne?" Turning her head
Looking sadly at that handsome and unusually handsome face, and seeing that he remained silent for a long time, Hua Xuanji felt a layer of sadness in her eyes, and something seemed to gradually become apparent.
"Don't you want to answer? Then let me tell you, you are reluctant to give up. You are reluctant to endure the throne that has been so easy to get for more than ten years. You are reluctant to bear the opportunity of Bai Yan trampling the emperor under your feet. You are reluctant to sit on the boundless country. So, you are reluctant to give up.
Yes, only..."
Before she could say the last word, Hua Xuanji's lips were pressed tightly against her warm lips. Her cold and purple lips were rubbing against Yun's breath, which gradually became extremely hot. The spicy wine also slid in along his lips.
Hua Xuanji's throat, Hua Xuanji felt an indescribable warmth suddenly surge all over her body, and a heat surged up from the soles of her feet.
Gently pushing the stunned woman away, Yehua waved his sleeves and smashed the porcelain bowl in his hand into pieces. Even though it was separated by layers of white snow, it still shattered into dregs. This shows how much strength Yehua used.
The slender fingertips gently touched the woman's cold lips. Yehua's voice was actually a bit trembling than Hua Xuanji's.
"How could I let you go? Do you know that when you were in a coma, Bai Yan collected all the precious medicinal materials into his bag. In order to revive you, I even put down my body and exchanged military symbols for the medicinal materials. Hua Xuanji,
I cannot give up the boundless country, but I will never let you lose your life in this struggle."
Reaching out and wrapping Hua Xuanji's frozen little hand into his big palm, her dark eyes flashed with tenderness. "The reason why I want to get the throne is not only because I have to fight back fiercely for what I experienced when I was a child, but also because I have to
Do you know that if one day Bai Yan takes over this world, will you and I still be able to live in this world? This is an era of the weak and the strong. If you don’t step on others,
, then the only person who will die is you."
Habitually tying Hua Xuanji's broken hair behind her head, Yehua stretched out his hand and hugged the trembling woman tightly, "Even if you hit me or scold me, no matter what you do or ask me to do, I am now
I can bear it, I just hope you can understand me, I do all this for you."
The warmth in her chest made Hua Xuanji unable to cope with it for a moment. She wanted to push it away but had no strength at all. The faint scent of mint spread into her nose, and Hua Xuanji had to admit that she felt soft-hearted again.
What Ye Hua said was something he had never thought about. He never thought that the battle for the throne would be so terrifying.
Hua Xuanji thought that all this was understandable, but as a woman, it would be so sad to watch her husband marry another woman.
Taking a deep breath, she pushed Yehua away with all her strength. Hua Xuanji gasped for air and her face became extremely solemn.
"What if I don't let you marry the princess of Mo Country? What if I don't let you have contact with her? Can you do it?"