"Good? What's good about me? You just heard about me from other people's mouths. How can you judge whether I'm good or bad?"
Sima Dulan couldn't laugh or cry at Shen Junfang's judgment. She thought it was a flattery that she was tired of hearing, but it didn't look like he was serious when she saw it. However, Shen Junfang stubbornly met her eyes, causing the smile on her face to slowly disappear.
There are still people in this world who say good things about her. Should I be grateful or should I feel sad for myself?
"The emperor has admitted many concubines into the palace, but the queen still manages the harem in an orderly manner. Even if she hears many gossips, she just ignores them. Isn't this good?" It was rare that there was no one around, Shen Jun enlarged He dared to pour out the words he had buried in his heart for a long time, "I used to worry that it would be difficult to manage the harem with the emperor's temper. Later, after seeing the empress's style, I understood why the emperor was so relieved. And the emperor's attitude often made me curious. What kind of person would make the emperor so dependent but unwilling to get close? Because of this thought, I found various excuses to visit Huanqing Palace more often."
"Guoshi Shen should concentrate on assisting the emperor in managing state affairs. There is a dedicated person in charge of everything in the harem. There is nothing worthy of inquiry by Guoshi Shen in the Huanqing Palace. By the way, Guoshi Shen does not need to come again from tomorrow. I plan to teach the prince poetry in person. I also asked Master Shen to focus on more important things."
Shen Junfang was still immersed in the uneasiness after saying something he shouldn't have said. He was wondering if Sima Duran would be angry because of it, when a cold voice sounded in his ears. The meaning was simple and clear - she was indeed angry. , and I don’t want to see the young man in front of me anymore.
He could see her suffering, but how could he understand it? She would be upset even if an outsider just said something, let alone the most trusted person around Yi Huaiyu.
"If what I said just now made the Empress angry, Jun Fang apologizes." In response to Sima Duran's unceremonious expulsion, Shen Junfang first bowed respectfully and apologized. When Sima Duran's eyes became slightly gentler, the stubborn young man faced the wind again. Go up, the voice is louder and firmer than before, "I just don't understand why this is happening. Is it just because the Queen is from the Sima family? I don't know what the Queen's reasons are, but in my heart the emperor should be a person who can distinguish between public and private matters. The talent is right. If the Empress is forced to endure the emperor's neglect because she is worried about General Sima being implicated, then Jun Fang is willing to speak to the Emperor and seek justice for the Empress."
"No need." After a cold refusal, Sima Duran turned her back to Shen Junfang. Although she had tried her best to hold back her anger, the slight trembling on her shoulders could not be suppressed.
Or maybe, Jue Jue's back shows more than just anger.
Seeing Sima Duran's strong resistance in the young man's eyes, Shen Junfang suddenly became quiet, and his drooped shoulders seemed to silently express the sadness, frustration, and indescribable contradictions in his heart.
After a long time, long enough for Sima Duran to wonder if the young man behind him had turned into a stone sculpture, a lonely voice came out softly.
"I don't know if this is a betrayal of the Emperor's trust, but...but I don't want to see the Queen be wronged." The hand that often held a pen to write about the future of the country would be clenched and unclenched, and Shen Junfang was extremely nervous, which is only possible for teenagers. Youthful and reserved expression appeared on the mature face. Shen Junfang swallowed hard, and he could feel the trembling in his voice, but he persisted, his voice was broken and his eyebrows were lowered: "The Queen has done nothing wrong. It shouldn't be like this...I...I hope the Queen can always smile happily, instead of spending her life alone in the deserted Huanqing Palace holding the prince in a daze. That way...I...will feel bad."
There are thousands of ways to confess, either true or false, gentle or overbearing. They may sneak into people's hearts like a trickle, or they may sweep in like a violent storm... In any case, Sima Duran is very interested in this kind of thing.
She acted very indifferently, as the confession she was looking forward to only belonged to one person, but she also knew that that person would never say it.
However, when Shen Junfang whispered the word "heartbroken", Queen Yaoguo, who thought she had lost her feelings, was still stunned. For a moment, she even thought she was having a ridiculous dream.
He is a young talent who is favored by the emperor and a promising minister of state affairs. She is the queen of a country who has been deliberately forgotten by everyone. Such a disparity in status and status makes it almost impossible to create a strange intersection... What makes Shen Junfang
What causes such inexplicable throbbing?
Sima Duran was at a loss. She, who had always been calm, was helpless against the man's persistent gaze for the first time. She didn't know how to react except to retreat blankly.
This feeling shouldn't exist at all.
A smart person like Shen Junfang naturally understands this truth. He regretted the words he had buried deep in his heart after speaking impulsively. However, it was difficult to recover. So far, he can only stand silently and wait for any possible consequences - whether it is a beating or a scolding.
It doesn't matter if Sima Tulan tells Yi Huaiyu, he should bear the responsibility if he makes a mistake. This is a punishment for his youthful impulsiveness and a punishment for his ungratefulness.
Shen Junfang clearly promised to repay Yi Huaiyu's kindness throughout his life, but he committed an unforgivable crime when his benefactor was just beginning his career. Ever since he fell into the swamp called Sima Dalan, Shen Junfang knew that he was sorry.
Yi Huaiyu, but the longing and heartbeat could not be stopped. The more he warned himself not to get close to Sima Tulan, the more his feelings became like an addiction. If he didn't see her for a day, he would lose his taste.
The sky gradually darkened, and no one cared how much time passed in the dead palace. Sima Duran struggled to regain his senses.
"Go away and don't come to Huanqing Palace again - I won't tell anyone about this matter, and you can't mention it again. I don't want to have any conflicts with the emperor because of you." A slight sigh was crushed by the light night.
The already haggard face was mixed with continued fatigue. Sima Duran walked slowly towards the door. When she passed by Shen Junfang, she paused and deliberately lowered her voice to be hoarse: "I am not as unhappy or wronged as you think. He gave me
There is more to me than you and I imagined. Master Shen, please take care of yourself."
After Sima Tulan left, the palace was even more deserted than before. Shen Junfang stood there quietly until the palace maid came in to clean up before leaving.
Shen Junfang did not show up at Huanqing Palace the next day. The prince changed his mentor, and the rumors secretly floating in the palace came to an abrupt end. When all these carefully recorded letters were sent to the expedition camp, Liangchang accidentally
He breathed a long sigh of relief.
"The Queen always thinks of the Emperor at all times, and this has not changed until now."
"What? Is there something going on in the palace?" Emperor Dayao, who was frowning and concentrating on studying the military map, asked casually without raising his head.
"With the Empress and Master Shen taking care of it, how could anything happen? Your Majesty, just rest assured and face the enemy."
Ou Suiliang chuckled, whether it was bitterness or sympathy, no one could tell. He stared at the oil lamp with complex eyes, watching a piece of letter turn into ashes.