Ou Suiliang always felt that time passed so fast that before he had time to remember anything, the people and things around him changed, just like Sima Duran's appearance. In his memory, she was still free and unrestrained, proud and elegant, and she looked up again , but she is already a calm and reserved middle-aged woman.
Doing the math, more than twenty years have passed since the day I met her.
"I'm talking to you, what are you thinking about?"
A slightly resentful tone restored Ou Suiliang's thoughts, and he shook his head apologetically. Ou Suiliang sighed and smiled bitterly: "Your Majesty, your Majesty and the general are both old men. No matter how much you want to concentrate, you can just sit still. I'll feel tired and sleepy, and I really can't stand it."
"Sometimes you don't even recognize yourself when you look in the mirror. How can you say that you haven't changed yet?" Sima Duran sneered and rolled her eyes, "I thought you were the most honest person in this palace, no?" I think that after I got married, I became glib and talked nonsense for a long time, and I became more and more annoying."
People who have already passed their thirties have understood what to say and what not to say. Being smooth and not falling behind others is indeed becoming more and more annoying. Ou Suiliang understood that Sima Duran was just joking, but he He always had other thoughts in his heart, always thinking that he had been regressing over the years, and had retreated to a desolate situation where he had no confidants and no one he could trust.
People change. If he was as honest and frank as he once was, how could the result in exchange be the stability he has now?
Sima Tulan didn't expect that her unintentional words made Ou Suiliang suddenly silent. After a moment of embarrassment, he put away his smile and sighed quietly: "I always thought that I could be like before, you, me, Huaiyu, three people can throw away It seems that it is really just a dream to say something intimate because of your status. Now that I can still talk to you with a smile, I should be content."
"Is your Majesty angry? The general is just distracted for a moment and has no intention of ignoring her." Ou Suiliang hurriedly explained that a man in his fifties was as helpless as a teenager.
"Suiliang." Sima Tulan whispered, shaking her head to indicate that Suiliang didn't need to explain, "I came to you today and don't want to hear high-sounding words. You know that I don't like to use those words only to you and Huaiyu. It's a rigid title. When will you stop being a general, Huaiyu and he won't be the emperor, and I won't have to bear the reputation of the queen and speak my heart as kindly as before? I'm really tired of being supported by one person like this. .”
Ou Suiliang didn't know how to respond for a moment.
In fact, when Yuzhi suddenly appeared in the general's mansion and said that Sima Turan had summoned him, he was a little at a loss - Sima Turan had closed his heart for many years, let alone Yi Huaiyu, even he might have been rejected many times. Outside the Qing Palace. Ou Suiliang wanted to know why Sima Tulan took the initiative to find Yi Huaiyu and said such words when Yi Huaiyu was in greatest danger.
"Don't look at me like that, as if I'm hiding some ulterior secret and want to harm you." Sima Tulan cut the flower branches and looked sideways at Ou Suiliang.
Yuzhi and others were screened out, and the door was closed tightly. It was obvious that Sima Dalan had something important and private to say to Ou Suiliang. Ou Suiliang had never been an impatient person, and he could tell that Sima Dalan was using gossip to cover up his nervousness. , smiled, and sat quietly in the chair waiting for her to speak.
When facing Ou Suiliang, Sima Duran's little thoughts had nowhere to hide. After playing with the flowers and branches for a while, the words in her heart began to flow out.
"Yesterday I went to see Huaiyu, and this morning I went to Lianchenxuan. Suddenly there was no one there, and I felt empty in my heart, as if something had been lost in the palace and could never be found again." Slowly he lowered his hand and dropped it.
On the case, Sima Duran's voice was light and slightly low, "Looking at Jing'er and Bai Qige, that girl looked a little wrong. After asking Tao Shihai, I found out that Huaiyu was making things difficult for them again. I really don't understand what he was doing, those two
The children were born and died together, and love is stronger than gold. No one can survive without the other. How could Huaiyu have the heart to break them up? He is a good man. He has three wives and four concubines, and he has been romantic and happy for most of his life, but he has to be in trouble when he gets old.
Junior, you are really a bastard."
Sima Tulan's trivial complaint made Ou Suiliang burst into laughter: "When did the empress start to care about His Majesty's affairs? After so many years of indifference, can you finally bear it now?"
"Who can't help it? Why can't I help it? It's not like he's working too hard -" Sima Duran was eager to retort. After saying a few words, she was shocked to realize that she had missed the point. Her face quickly fell and she froze.
After sitting for a long time, seeing that Suiliang didn't mean to laugh at her, Sima Tulan licked her lips and reluctantly spoke again: "Yes, I blame Huaiyu for the things he did, and I also wanted to hate him.
A lifetime, but I am not a fool. After thinking about it for so many years, some things must be figured out after all. You and I both know Huaiyu’s temper. There are some words that he refuses to say. If it weren’t for Tao Shihai, maybe I would still be here today.
Being kept in the dark.”
"Oh? What did Eunuch Tao say to your empress?" Ou Suiliang picked up the teacup to hide the surprise that flashed in his eyes.
Judging from Sima Tulan's reaction, it seems that Yi Huaiyu's indifferent attitude has been shaken. This is what Ou Suiliang hopes to see most. However, before knowing the inside story, Ou Suiliang decided to continue to inquire quietly to avoid being rash.
In short, this is a rare opportunity.
But he also knew that Sima Duran came to him for more than just explaining her feelings.
"Suiliang, let me ask you, how much do you know about Jun Fang back then?"
As expected, Sima Tulan immediately raised the question, and it was a question that surprised Ou Suiliang.
"Master Shen? You know a little bit, but not much. It depends on what the empress wants to ask."
Sima Duran took a deep breath and seemed to be worried about where to start: "I hate Huaiyu. A big part of the reason is that he failed me and felt sorry for Jun Fang. He was obviously the person who helped him the most. How could he bear to do that?"
Hurt? Especially Jun Fang, if Huaiyu hadn't forced him like that, maybe he wouldn't have died so early..."
"Are you blaming Your Majesty?" Ou Suiliang interrupted calmly, "Master Shen fell ill due to overwork and died young. Your Majesty has always blamed himself for this. He often said that he was responsible for the death of Master Shen. Does your Majesty think so too?
?If this is the case, the general will really complain for His Majesty."
Ou Suiliang hit the mark and directly said what Sima Duran didn't know how to say. This made Sima Duran feel happy and also felt a trace of self-blame for no reason.
Should Shen Junfang's death really be blamed on Yi Huaiyu? These years, she has lived in pain with her longing for Shen Junfang and her hatred for Yi Huaiyu. The feeling is indescribable. She thought Yi Huaiyu was so cold and heartless.
People don't understand. Could it be that he is just like her, or even sadder than her, thinking that he is guilty from the beginning to the end, and carrying his sins in silence?
The idea that Yi Huaiyu was ungrateful and forced Shen Junfang to die seems...not so clear.