These two words can be said to be close or far. To say close, not long ago, there was a little life in her belly that was full of expectations waiting to be born into the world. But to say far, after three months of pregnancy, that little life was still far away.
She left.
She never wanted to mention anything about the child. It was a scar in her heart, a deep wound that had not yet scabbed over and was still dripping with blood. If the situation had not forced her to do so, she wished she could have given birth to that child and watched him cry.
He smiled, listened to his babbling, and called her "Mother"...
"You didn't tell me because you wanted to have a baby, right?" Yi Chenjing bowed and looked at the sitting Bai Qige at eye level. It was impossible to guess whether there was happiness or anger in her long eyes, "You are so sure that I will let you have an abortion.
, you are convinced that I want to kill my own flesh and blood? Why don’t you ask me about such a big thing?”
"What difference does it make whether you ask or not? Didn't you say that the only person you want to marry in this life is Princess Hongxiao, and no one can give birth to an heir for you except her? In that case, why should I talk so much?"
Bai Qige's annoyance was more obvious than that of Yi Chenjing, from her face to her tone, everything was cold and stiff.
He said it himself, and it was he who made her choose to hide it. Why should she question her after losing her child?! His hatred gave the little life a chance to be born, and it was also his hatred that took away the chance for the child to be expected by everyone.
The little guy who had never seen the world was even more aggrieved than her. He didn't even dare to let his existence be known. His father, the man who gave him life, didn't know until he never had the chance to see the world again that he once had a child.
A poor child who retains his own flesh and blood.
There was a dull pain in her chest, and her heart felt like a knife. The pain that had taken so many days and nights to numb was pricked again. Bai Qige didn't know how to react. She could only sit stiffly, holding her cold clothes tightly with her fingers.
She doesn't cry, doesn't make a fuss, doesn't complain about how miserable she is, and doesn't beg for mercy. That's the kind of person she is. She would rather swallow all the pain in her stomach than let anyone see it, laugh at it or sympathize with it, no matter what kind of person it is.
She couldn't accept the look.
Cry, who should you cry to? To God, to others, or to yourself? God is unkind and the world is unfair. She refuses to use her pathetic weakness as a basis for begging for sympathy and charity. She wants to laugh, even if her heart is broken.
She must laugh even though she is still alive, and tell those greedy people in the Yanliang world that her happiness, anger, sorrow, and joy are not determined by God, and her destiny is not determined by God!
After a while, Bai Qige relaxed her fingers and said lightly: "Don't you have anything else to ask? You can go back without me."
"Has someone told you? Once I give birth to the child, I must accept the title of king and leave the palace." Putting his hands on the table, Yi Chenjing lowered his head and his voice was very low. Bai Qige's reaction made him feel calm and prepared.
They all disappeared, leaving only anger and heartache filled with anger and heartache that she didn't know who to vent to. Looking at the tea leaves sinking to the bottom of the cup, Yi Chenjing couldn't tell what it was like in her heart. From the corner of her eye, she could see the corner of her peach pink clothes facing the door.
He moved, but he didn't want to stop him, he just wanted to say a word.
"Before you took medicine to miscarry, I just told my mother my decision - I will take good care of you and the child, no matter what happens."
However, she didn't give him a chance.
The figure walking towards the door suddenly paused, his shoulders shaking violently, and there was no sound for a long time.
Yi Chenjing raised his head and closed his eyes, his tone was extremely tired: "I can give up the deep hatred of Hongxiao for you, why can't you forget the things I did to you? You only remember that I said that I can only love Hongxiao.
May you have another heir, why can't you remember that I also said that I wanted to put aside the past and start over? Yes, that's right, I never thought that you would be pregnant after those two nights, and I never thought that you would do so absolutely.
Simply, think about it now, no wonder you were so full of sympathy when you mentioned Mrs. Qi several times... I was confused. If I could have discovered it earlier, I wouldn't have to sacrifice the child..."
"What if I find out? Can you afford such a heavy price to be crowned king and leave the palace?" She took a deep breath with trembling, the pain in her chest became more severe, and the pain was about to burst. Bai Qige turned around, her eyes full of sadness and coldness.
"Yi Chenjing, your Jiuzhou world, your country and the country, and the imperial throne that you want to ascend to at all costs, are you willing to trade these for a child you don't expect?"
"I can't bear it." The answer was simply decisive.
Bai Qige sneered, her smile was desolate.
Of course he couldn't bear to part with it, he wanted the flames of war to be stained with blood as repayment for his ten years of humiliation; he wanted this prosperous age to collapse and be buried with Hongxiao when he died.
The only one who is willing to give up is her, as a chess piece that can save the chance of winning in the world's chess game.
"I am reluctant to give up my position of power, ten years of humiliation and three years of ambition, but do you know that I gave up something equally important?"
As he raised his hand, his sleeve flipped over the teacup and fell to the ground. There was a crisp sound and the pieces flew everywhere. The sound was louder than Yi Chenjing's, but it didn't stop Bai Qige from hearing it clearly.
"I have ordered someone to prepare a carriage that day. As long as the emperor father orders you to come back, I will hand over a letter of divorce and let the war court escort you back to Zhaoguo to rest peacefully as an abandoned concubine. I gave up my control over you, gave up
In addition to the benefits you can bring, I hope that you, mother and son, live in peace rather than being around to make suggestions!"
After such an excited roar, the room fell into deathly silence.
They all understand that everything is irreversible, no matter who it is. Hong Xiao's death is irreversible, the crime she committed is irreversible, the harm he did to her is irreversible, the child they lost is irreversible, and they once had each other.
The feelings of hostility and mutual hatred are equally irreversible.
When looking into each other's eyes and forgetting to hate each other, it is already destined that the past is a mistake and the past is a mistake. Being attached to each other but unable to trust each other is also a big mistake among the mistakes.
The wind whimpered outside the window, and the sadness was like the low sound of a flute. The candle burning quietly did not flutter for a long time, as if time stopped at a certain moment. If time stopped, this moment would definitely be worth keeping in my heart, at least for Bai Qige, this is the first time.
For once, I completely believed in Yi Chenjing, the regretful look in his eyes, the truth screamed out from every word, and the words he asked yesterday.
Are you willing to be my wife?
Bai Qige didn't know if she was crying. Her eyes were sore and hazy, but she still couldn't feel any tears falling.
"Cry it out, you've been holding it in, it's enough, it's enough..." Holding Bai Qige tightly in her arms, who was accustomed to hiding pain and sorrow, Yi Chenjing didn't want to think about whether what he did was right or wrong, he had already
After losing the red veil, he didn't want to lose another woman who made him fall in love again. Didn't she pay enough? She was disfigured and humiliated physically and mentally, and now she has even lost her child. The sins he has personally committed are far more than she should repay.
Yes, now it's his turn to repay.
In the warm and true embrace, Bai Qige clung to her warm chest, unable to stop trembling while listening to the regular heartbeat.
Maybe she should try to accept it instead of carrying too much love, hate and grievances alone in the dark. Since Yi Chenjing can give her what she needs, why are she still stubborn? She fell in love with him first
, that’s why you chose to stay with him, isn’t it?
"I want him to be born, even if you don't even want to look at him... He is my child..." Finally, she burst into tears and broke down in tears.
The whisper in my ear was painful, but I tried my best to comfort the impossible: "It's yours and mine. But as long as you are still here, we will have other children, right?" He raised his ear.
With broken hair, Yi Chenjing leaned close to Bai Qige's face and asked the same words: "Qige, are you willing to be my wife?"
Infinite fatigue grew crazily while she was exhausted mentally and physically, and yet such tenderness took advantage of the situation when she was surrounded by suffering. Bai Qige couldn't say the word "no" because her heart didn't allow it.
Love is love, not loving means not loving. She rejected him before because she couldn't believe his deep intentions, and she was afraid that the tenderness she faced was another despicable scam. But when Yi Chenjing's red eyes told her clearly that he had never lied,
All barriers no longer exist.
"On the day of the victory, I want to pay homage to Princess Hongxiao."
"I'll accompany you." Yi Chenjing chuckled peacefully. He understood that this answer meant she agreed. With a light kiss on her smooth forehead, she wiped away the tears on Bai Qige's face with her fingers. Yi Chenjing sighed: "Actually, I
I have already told her that I want to be with you. She has been protecting you since childhood and she will definitely not object. But you have to think carefully. Seeking the throne is a crime of death by a thousand cuts. If I win the world, it will be okay. From now on
The glory is endless; if I lose, you are likely to face harsh punishments, and life is worse than death. Do you have the courage to follow me for the rest of your life?"
"I've done death row, I've endured infamy, what's more terrifying? Yi Chenjing, what I promised you will definitely be done, it doesn't matter whether I'm your wife or a chess piece, but when you look down on Kyushu,
Sun, I don’t accept any other status except the only post, and you can accept three thousand people in the harem, as long as you are not afraid of bloodshed."
"Are you joking or are you serious?" Yi Chenjing smiled bitterly, holding a serious face with helpless eyes, "There are four concubines, nine concubines, thirty-six Zhaoyi, and countless inferior concubines. I can't even set up one of them?
Sure enough, the most poisonous thing is a woman's heart. I thought you wouldn't be jealous with such an outgoing personality, but unexpectedly, you are more terrifying than anyone else."
Placing her cold fingers like knife points on Yi Chenjing's heart, Bai Qige's eyes were firm, without the slightest hint of joking: "I do what I say. I don't care what other people do. If the person I love is not affectionate, I would rather be alone for the rest of my life."
.This is my poison, which is enough to poison the world, poison those who break my words, and poison those who betray me."
A person has only one heart, and one heart can only accommodate one person. Yi Chenjing's ten years of infatuated love taught her what persistence and single-mindedness means, so she has to walk along the road of Hongxiao, not only for Hongxiao
Completing a life-long dream of two people is a way to thank the original owner of this body for the opportunity to be reborn. Perhaps it would be difficult for other men to accept this condition. Fortunately, she was facing Yi Chenjing, so she did it without even thinking about it.
A man who agrees but is by no means perfunctory.
"I swear to God I don't want to do those things. It's meaningless. You just need to witness it with these eyes." Holding the soft body in his arms closer, Yi Chenjing lowered his head, and Chunhe's voice lowered by half a minute, as soft as intoxication.
, "No one put a stove in your room tonight."
So, her room is not suitable for people to stay in tonight, is it?
Bai Qige raised her eyebrows and stepped down hard.