During the war breaks, all combatants took advantage of this rare gap to seize the time to rest.
The same goes for Gawain.
Gawain felt that his hands didn't even belong to him. When the enemy retreated, he collapsed on the ground like a pug, sticking out his tongue and panting. His hands kept shaking and he couldn't control them.
.This is tiring and scary.
Yes, it's scary. Gawain originally agreed to Camelot's invitation to join the Knights, but more because he wanted to bring together Gunslinger and Arthur. He had no interest in being loyal to Camelot at all. He had already planned it.
, when Gun Niang and Arthur are together, he will pursue Gun Niang again. If Gun Niang agrees to his pursuit, he will directly abandon his fief and leave with Gun Niang. If Gun Gun doesn't agree, he will also lose
Xia Fengdi left alone.
It's so free and easy.
To put it bluntly, he did not have that awareness.
But the problem is that things in this world are always unexpected. Before he even started to bring together Gunslinger and Arthur, the war came. He had no choice but to join the war. It wasn't really out of any idea of loyalty, it was completely
It relies on inertia and is pushed along.
Participated in confusion.
It was the first time that Gawain participated in a large-scale war, and Gawain actually had a little expectation. As a knight, who doesn't want to make achievements in the war? Even though Gawain is not enthusiastic about these things, the blood of knights still motivates him to move forward bravely.
But when the war started, he realized how tender the battles he had experienced before were. Fighting with a few gangsters was the way of chivalry? No! Bloody war is the destination of knights. Those who have never seen the battlefield
Knights are always just kids who have never seen the market.
When the living beings fell wailing one by one in front of him, Gawain was shocked in his heart... No, it should be said that he had no time to be shocked at all. He had to face the next enemy, one after another, one after another.
One. He became numb. He began to turn a blind eye and mechanically chopped down the next enemy.
When the enemy retreated, his numb nerves suddenly revived. Only then did he realize that he had killed many people, and more people died in that small place. Everything was like a dream, and it was also a nightmare.
!
Now Gawain suddenly realized that his hands were not as steady as he thought, and his heart was not as unruly as he thought.
Just when Gawain was confused, a kettle was handed to him.
It's Kai.
"Drink some water." Kai didn't care whether the ground was dirty or not, and sat down on the ground. In three hours, Kai charged into the battle at least five times and killed more enemies than he could count. However,
These five rushes were far less exaggerated than the first. Kai was afraid that he would be lost, so he consciously controlled his desires and backed down if he felt something was wrong.
"What? A little scared?" Kai said, perhaps wanting to stop being immersed in the desire to kill. He was not talking to Gawain entirely to enlighten him, but more because he needed to communicate with himself.
, this can also be regarded as a way to suppress the killing nature, and prove that oneself is a person through communication.
Gawain picked up the kettle and took a sip, which almost froze his lungs. It was filled with ice water! It was night now, and the temperature was already about minus five or six degrees. When he took another sip of ice water, his lungs were completely frozen.
My heart is so cold that it can freeze to the bone.
Gawain looked at Kai with wide eyes.
Kai laughed: "Drinking some ice water will be good for your current condition. The first time I followed Uther to the battlefield, I used this trick. By the way, I remind you, don't listen to those people.
Nonsense, drinking to relieve stress is useless! Drinking will only make you more numb. Only this thing can calm yourself and calm your mind."
Gawain was stunned, and then took another sip. He was not afraid of getting upset. But after drinking a big sip of ice water, he felt that his heart, liver, spleen, lungs and kidneys were trembling with cold. But after the cold, his hands
Really not shaking.
"Taking human life is never a good experience, but reality is reality. The day you become a knight, you should understand that you have to go through this move." Kai leaned on the barricade and looked up at the cold night sky. Today
There are no stars, but the moon is very bright.
Gawain didn't think about the deep meaning of Kai's words, he had already calmed down.
"You will be scared when you go to the battlefield for the first time?"
Gawain didn't ask Kai about the meaning of his fighting. It's useless to ask, because the two people's views on things cannot be the same. Kai fights to protect his home and country, but what about Gawain? He protects his home and country.
, his home country is not in Camelot, and he feels that these big things are meaningless to him.
As he said himself, he likes to be on the side of the weak. Seeing the women and old people repairing the barricades and positions with difficulty, Gawain feels that his fight has meaning. If he does not protect these weak, they will inevitably die in the forest.
Under the butcher's knife of the Nords.
As for whether he should be responsible for protecting these women and the elderly, he didn't think much about it. Anyway, he was happy with it.
I have to say that in terms of mentality, Gawain is better than most people, at least much better than Arthur, that guy who always likes to get into trouble.
"Yes!" Kai said without hesitation.
Gawain looked at Kai unexpectedly. Gawain was easily dissatisfied with others, but he still admired Kai. If nothing else, let’s talk about Gawain’s most confident battle. Just now, the enemy that Kai charged into the battle alone fled.
The scene made Gawain feel that he would never be able to do such a thing in his life. It was too intense.
But such a fierce man actually said that he had been afraid.
This is nonsense. Kai was just a little detective in his previous life. Even when he was a soldier, he never saw any big scenes. Where did such gun battle scenes come from in peacetime? Do you really think those criminals are as good as those in movies and TV shows? The army and the police force
Are you kidding? It's okay if you don't resist, but once you step on the line, you're really looking for death!
So when he followed King Uther to the battlefield for the first time to kill people, Kai had nightmares for several days. It was much more intuitive to kill people with a sword than to use a gun. Later, he slowly got better. People always slowly get better.
Get used to the environment.
Of course, Kai wouldn't tell Gawain about his thoughts. They haven't gotten to know each other that well yet. Although Gawain liked being familiar with him, he still felt pressured by Kai, so he didn't ask in depth. The two of them had a very tacit understanding.
Changed the topic.
While the two were chatting, Perino was still very conscientious in arranging the follow-up arrangements.
As Sennold retreated, Perino began to direct the civilians to collect the rubble and Sennold's body. Then he blocked the gap with the corpse and stones. Although it was not strong, it blocked the gap at least.
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Perino is a typical knight, strong in combat, but not proficient in internal affairs. But he has one advantage, that is, he is obedient. He will do whatever Kai asks him to do. Like blocking the gap in the city wall with corpses.
Most knights would definitely resist such a crazy order, but Perino followed the order very seriously.
