Tang Shuwen stood alone on the balcony, smoking silently. The night in Paris was bright. There was a long river in the distance, and a long row of castles on the other side. The lights were bright, like pearls inlaid on both sides of the river.
The night is also quiet. Standing on the other side and admiring the night view is quite unique.
Smoke rings curled up from between his fingers. He had already smoked three cigars and his mood hit rock bottom. Tang Shuwen was not a heavy smoker. When he was under great pressure at work, he would smoke one or two cigarettes and go out to have fun with Ye Ershao and the others.
Sometimes I would smoke a few cigarettes. The times were not many. I rarely smoked a few cigarettes like today, and I felt indescribably irritable.
For the first time, he realized what it means to make one's own mistakes and not survive.
He thought he had handled these two relationships fairly well. However, he never expected that Zhao Yuning would become pregnant, and he insisted on giving birth to a child. This child would definitely be the source of trouble for the two families when he was born, and no one would
will be happy.
His parents don't know it, Xueru doesn't know it, he doesn't know it, and the Zhao family and their children don't know it either.
How should he deal with it so that Xueru will be happy?
Tang Shuwen clearly felt Chen Xueru's rejection and resistance. As a mother, she was also struggling with her children. She was kind-hearted and tolerant. She couldn't bear to hurt Zhao Yuning and the children, and she attributed all the mistakes to herself. Tang Shuwen felt very sorry for her, and she also
Very anxious.
If this continues, she will definitely get into trouble, and it is possible that she will break up with him because she cannot think about it.
In addition, Xiao Nian is still stupid and unresponsive, and the pressure in Xueru's heart is also great. Tang Shuwen is really afraid that he will lose their mother and son. At that moment, he even hoped that Xueru could be selfish and let him deal with it quickly.
Children, don't let that child threaten their happiness, Xiao Nian's interests, but she has never had such an idea.
If she really moved, I'm afraid she wouldn't be the Chen Xueru he loved anymore.
He just liked her kindness and tolerance.
I just occasionally hope that she can fight for her own happiness.
Perhaps, Chen Xueru doesn't love herself, so she doesn't think there's anything to argue about. This is what Tang Shuwen really cares about, as if she can throw him away at any time and give him the feeling of Zhao Yuning.
This made him feel very uncomfortable.
It is unrealistic for her to fall in love with him in such a short period of time, but at least he should have a good impression.
You can't have nothing but the identity of Xiao Nian's daddy.
Tang Shuwen breathed a deep sigh of relief, feeling extremely heavy in his heart.
What exactly was Xue Ru thinking in her heart? She didn't say a word, she just let him guess. A woman's heart is like a needle in the sea. Who knows what it will be like at this moment and what will happen next moment.
The evening breeze blew gently and was slightly cool, but the coolness on my body was not as good as the coolness in my heart. Smoking could no longer forget the troubles. Tang Shuwen squinted his eyes, twisted the cigarette butt, and threw it downstairs. Just as he was about to turn around and go back to his room, he suddenly felt the sound of footsteps behind him.
Approaching, the woman's delicate body pressed against his back, and her white hands hugged his chest. The warm fragrance floated from behind, and his body seemed to be dyed with fragrance.
Tang Shuwen stood still, but could not suppress the joy in his heart. The little bits of joy spread from his heart, and his heart beat like thunder. He looked down at her hand and couldn't help but wonder, she had no intention of leaving him, right?
?
Chen Xueru rested her head on his shoulder. There was a faint smell of tobacco on his body. She had been with him for a while and she rarely saw him smoking. She must have smoked a lot tonight.
He was a little irritable in his heart, and it was all because of him that caused his unhappiness.
"Shu Wen, don't be angry, okay?" Chen Xueru said softly, "I really miss Xiaonian. He is sick. We have been out for so long, so it is time to go back. We will talk about the future."
Tang Shuwen was filled with joy, but his voice was slightly cold, "Do you care if I'm angry?"
He didn't want Chen Xueru to know that he was not angry with her, he was just angry with himself for not handling the problem well, which put Chen Xueru in such an embarrassing and dilemma situation.
But if she thinks he is angry, then let's just think so, it doesn't matter.
"I... care." Chen Xueru said. If she didn't care, she wouldn't come out to find him. If she didn't care, she wouldn't feel bad when she saw him standing alone on the balcony smoking.
She hasn't been with a man for too long, and is a bit strange, or in other words, she has been hurt once. After so many years of hard work raising Xiaonian, she understands that everything must be done by herself. Even if she gets married, because she has been hurt,
She didn't dare to give her all her sincerity. This man wanted her to get married for the sake of his children, and she was also afraid that she would sink deeper and deeper into the trap and eventually be unable to extricate herself, but end up with bruises all over her body.
Especially Zhao Yuning's pregnancy made her feel more in danger and closed her heart even more. Only in this way could she protect herself. She was also afraid that Tang Shuwen would be shaken and choose Zhao Yuning and her instead of her and Xiaonian.
's children.
He didn't know how to deal with the relationship between them for a while, so he could only rely on his own instinct.
She didn't want Tang Shuwen to be unhappy.
The word "care" gently blew away all the haze in Tang Shuwen's heart, and also blew away all the irritability in his heart. His mood became very bright, the corners of his lips slightly curved, and he almost held her hand tightly,
He hugged her back.
But he endured it.
"Xueru, do you really care?" Tang Shuwen's tone was soft, with a hint of sadness and a touch of pain. Chen Xueru's heart ached. Did she really hurt his heart?
He thought she didn't care about him?
Chen Xueru hugged him tightly with slight fear, and said in a deep voice, "Shu Wen, if I didn't care, I wouldn't follow you out, so don't be angry, okay? I admit, maybe I'm a little lost, but that's also because
I am afraid that I have been alone with Xiao Nian for too long. It is not easy to have a family. I like your parents very much, Man Dong. They have given me the feeling of family. I am also afraid that if you waver, I will lose this family. I just
Afraid of losing.”
Tang Shuwen frowned and laughed at himself, "So you just grasped the driftwood at the beginning, so if it were someone else, you wouldn't care, right? As long as he can give you a home, you will follow him wholeheartedly. Is that what you mean?
?”
"No!" Chen Xueru quickly objected. How could he say that?
She wanted to explain anxiously, but found that she didn't know what to say. Instead, Tang Shuwen was anxious. He turned around, his handsome face was solemn, and there was a darkness that was about to swallow her up. Chen Xueru was a little afraid of his eyes like this.
"Xueru, you just said you like my parents and Mandong, what about me? I am your husband, where did you put me?" Tang Shuwen asked in a deep voice, his hands couldn't help but clasp her shoulders.
What she was most afraid of was that Xueru wouldn't like him and would still be concerned about the past. Coupled with Zhao Yuning's pregnancy, her impression of him would be even worse.
Chen Xueru was stunned and lowered his head. He didn't know what to say. Do you like him?
Her face felt hot, there was no doubt about it.
How could you not like it?
If you don't like it, your honeymoon trip won't be so happy.
"I understand." Tang Shuwen slowly let go of his hand, his eyes dimmed, and he raised the corners of his lips in a self-deprecating tone, "So you don't like me..."
"No!" Chen Xueru hurriedly held his hand. Tang Shuwen looked at her. Chen Xueru's cheeks were red. Her actor had said words such as "I love you, I like you" countless times on the screen.
It is not difficult to say that I like you, but at this moment, I find it difficult to say it and my heartbeat is pounding.
It turns out that acting and life are different. They say that acting is like life and life is like acting. But sometimes, some words can be said unscrupulously in the acting, but they are shy and uneasy in front of him.
"Tang Shuwen, please don't embarrass me." Chen Xueru said softly, her beautiful face full of helplessness. She was not stupid, and she understood in her heart that he was asking for her affection on purpose, but this was unfair.
What about him?
But you like her again?
Tang Shuwen hugged her quickly, holding her tightly in his arms, as if she were fragile glass. Chen Xueru had a faint warm bath fragrance on her body, which made him feel very comfortable and peaceful.
It was an indescribable tranquility.
"I won't embarrass you, but you don't embarrass me either. Xueru, promise me, no matter what happens or what knots you have in your heart, you will tell me and don't make decisions in private, let alone try to figure out my thoughts. Understand
I don’t understand, you have to listen to what I say in everything, can you do it?” Tang Shuwen asked seriously, he did not force her to fall in love with him immediately, trustworthiness was essential.
"I have done everything you said. The matter of the child happened before we got married. I didn't know about it, so you can't blame me." Tang Shuwen continued.
Chen Xueru smiled softly, "I don't blame you, I really don't."
"Then you can't blame yourself. None of us are at fault."
Chen Xueru smiled bitterly, "We are all right, so whose fault is it? Is it God's fault? Is it to blame that fate is too cruel?"
"Promise me, okay?" This was the second time he asked Chen Xueru for trust.
"Okay." Chen Xueru said, a smile flashed across her beautiful face, her brows were as bright as water, as if there was a faint emotion rippling through a thin layer of mist.
Tang Shuwen's heart moved, he leaned over and kissed her lips.
Chen Xueru clung to his shoulders and responded to his kiss, and the two kissed on the balcony as if no one else was around.
The castle behind them, with its bright lights, has become their static background.
