The weather in Riyadh is really annoying. It is hot all year round. When I went out, I encountered two policemen in Riyadh who were rude and rude to a woman driving a car. I went back to Su's house and changed into a short-sleeved and hot skirt. I deliberately walked through the city in a showy way, causing them to chase me for a whole day.
In the morning, I heard police sirens everywhere on the street, and I was in an extremely good mood.
I drive to the beach alone, and every time I see the sea, I think of Hailan. If Hailan was still alive, maybe I would have ended my love for Kaka long ago, and I would not compete with my sisters for men.
When I think of Hailan, I naturally think of my nemesis.
Why I fell in love with him is something I have never been able to figure out, and I usually don’t want to think about it a second time.
It's been a month, he's been gone for a month, sincerely avoiding me and not giving me a message. I think he's been thinking about it terribly. Is it good for him to be on Agent Island? Is it hard work?
There is only one person left in my world, and he is the only one left in my eyes and heart.
I think I'm sick.
But I am willing to continue to be sick like this.
Of all the characters in the world, I only recognize one, and I only think of one.
April 17, 2015
Today I met a handsome guy in Arabia. He is very handsome. Arab boys are always very lovable. He said he liked me. I asked him what he liked about me. He said he liked my body.
He became angry instantly and wanted to shoot him.
Then I thought about it, liking someone's body means possessing it, so it can be considered liking. I don't like him liking my soul, so it doesn't matter if he likes my body.
I'm young, pretty, and have a good figure. It's so normal for him to like my figure.
The only person in this world that I like and likes my soul not only doesn't like my soul, but also doesn't like my body. This is my sadness.
Well, I think this sentence touched me. I am a person who is unstable in love between men and women. One second I thought he was very perverted and without any connotation, and the next second I thought this man was real and cute.
I hate Kaka's disguise, he is always smiling, so I especially like men who don't like to laugh. I think I must be a little perverted.
I tried to date him. God, it was really tiring. I didn't know what to say to him. After only three days, I lost interest.
Leave without saying goodbye.
May 17, 2015
Today, I did something stupid.
Very stupid, very stupid thing.
Mommy and Daddy went on a trip. I knew that Uncle Chu Li and Aunt Rongyan were not at home, so I sneaked into Kaka's house and ran to his room to sleep.
I have never done anything so stupid in my life. I was very excited and felt stupid at the same time. Lying on his bed, I seemed to have slept much better. His scent and shadow were everywhere in the room.
This is the place that belongs to Kaka. I am lying on his bed.
I have no friends, and no one can express my feelings. I talked nonsense all night while holding Kaka's photo, and finally fell asleep.
I was taught a bad lesson by my teacher. I was still in adolescence and deeply in love with someone of the opposite sex.
Hormones are soaring in the body and I am very excited every day.
The last thought was...
This is a place that belongs to Kaka. One day I will do AI with Kaka here.
May 18, 2015
The first time I woke up in Kaka's bed, I felt great and didn't want to leave the whole day.
I accidentally knocked over Kaka's pen holder, and a pen fell into the drawer. I saw a photo album, a photo album belonging to Hailan and Kaka. The album was very thick, and it was all about Hailan and Kaka.
There are photos of Hailan from when she was just born to when she was a girl. Each one has a beautiful smile. I look at the photos and don’t want to feel a little bit jealous...
Golden boy and beautiful girl, an enviable couple.
I can't help but wonder, when will Kaka have my photo album next to her pillow?
Hailan, Hailan, can we exchange in the next life?
I'll be his fiancée.
June 17, 2015.
There was a murder yesterday, Kaka, I'm in a bad mood.
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July 27, 2015.
Mo Xiaobai came jumping up and down to tell me that Kaka was coming back. Just this month, I jumped up with joy. He was finally coming back. I was so happy.
Kaka, do you know?
I'm very happy that I can see you again.
The feeling of secret love is both obscure and beautiful. I am addicted to a drug that I can never quit.
Yesterday I read a book and saw a sentence, thank God, I met you in my best years.
This sentence was very touching and I read it over and over again.
The years I have known you have been my wonderful years.
August 3, 2015.
Everyone said you were coming back, and Aunt Rongyan also said you were coming back. Why haven't you come back yet? It's been six days. I'm counting the days until you come back.
So annoying, so annoying, so annoying...
I am not as cool as Mommy, and I never wait for anyone, because she is so lucky to have her daddy chasing her all the time. She doesn’t need to look back or wait for anyone. Even if she doesn’t look back, daddy will chase her with all his strength.
.
And you?
If I don't wait, will you chase me?
Oh, I forgot, you rejected me.
Really unhappy.
September 20, 2015.
You finally came back. Thank God, I flew to London. I didn't expect to hear that you flew to the Middle East to perform a mission as soon as you came back.
You did the information.
Just as I thought, you are so thoughtful and thoughtful, so you are the best suited for intelligence work.
I won't disturb you. I'll come back to you when you stand firm.
