This aroused the disenchantment and dissatisfaction of other children. These two emotions combined were jealousy, and the children would directly take corresponding actions, and they demanded that the spoils be distributed equally, although Zhang Fuxing never joined them. In some older children, they were born.
Under the auspices, Miju took the needs of each person according to the head. Zhang Fuxing, who was young and weak, was powerless. He watched the Miju that originally belonged to him was taken away by others for some grand reason. He thought it was a robbery.
, He began to cry, his heart full of hatred. Many of these children were surnamed Zhang. They were related to each other and had a blood relationship of being close or distant.
He cried to grandma, and grandma had to come forward for her beloved grandson, but all the parents smiled and said, "Reviving his grandma must be my child, it must be wrong for your family to revival. Don't worry, I will fight after I go back.
His will give you a sigh of relief." Everyone is so careless, or pretending to be careless. Yes, what's the big deal about the children? Besides, there are no adults on Zhang Fuxing's side, who
Will you pay attention to an old rural woman who is powerless? No one takes it seriously, and no one will return the honey tangerines to him, regardless of whether those honey tangerines that originally belonged to Zhang Fuxing have become food for children or are temporarily stored
In their respective families, these have nothing to do with Zhang Fuxing.
The anger and hatred accumulated in Zhang Fuxing's heart were not eliminated, but more. After repeated things like this many times, he no longer cried to his grandmother because he already understood that it was useless. He only engraved it in his heart and sweared one day he
He must get his own things back. He began to hate the people in the whole village, and he began to gradually understand some people and things. It is precisely this reason. These reasons, the accumulation of these people and things is subtly influenced by this clever and sensitive
The child no longer plays with the children in the village and would rather be dazed alone. He begins to become silent and withdrawn. Some wild grasses in his personality begin to grow, and his views on the world and human nature have changed in some distorted changes, and as he grows up
And becoming more and more determined.
Zhang Fuxing entered the primary school in the village at the age of seven. This is the normal age for a child to enter school and the normal life trajectory of an ordinary child. However, for Zhang Fuxing, it is a big event, or, for him and his grandmother.
This family is a severe test. The tuition fee of eight yuan per semester is a major pressure. Moreover, there is also a book fee, a dime for each homework book, a pencil and an eraser, in the future, even
There are also the expenses of pens, schoolbags, etc., which will count as a huge expense, which is daunting. But out of some dignity and expectation, especially for a poor woman like her, who is a foreign surname.
Grandma decided to let Zhang Fuxing enter school. Only those who have experienced that kind of life will understand how difficult and great it is to make such a decision. But at the same time, at that era and at that grassroots level,
There are many phenomena. In the simple understanding of this old woman in the countryside, only by studying can his grandson become a government cadre, become a superior person, and treat her son and daughter-in-law who have been dead for many years, for this simple
I wish that she could add five or ten times the hardship she has suffered now. She used a shabby pocket that usually traveled to the township market to change it. As Zhang Fuxing's schoolbag, she carried Zhang Fuxing to beg the villagers to borrow money.
Finally, Zhang Fuxing was sent to the school.
No surprises, Zhang Fuxing was the best student in the class as soon as he entered the school. He was smart and sensible. In addition to being a little introverted, he was a typical good student in the eyes of almost all teachers. They praised him on various occasions, which could give a child.
Spiritual encouragement, but this did not help improve his material life.
From seven to ten years old, it should be the most difficult time in my grandmother's life. She tried every means to work, but in that era, that environment, could not be rewarded by trying hard, and the villagers around her were almost the same as hers.
Poverty, every family struggles under hunger. Many times, she almost collapsed due to fatigue and illness, causing the family to collapse. However, she is like a tough vine, after going through the wind and rain, but she never broke.
When Zhang Fuxing was in the third grade, the situation improved a little. The school introduced a reward method for outstanding students. Zhang Fuxing was waived tuition and miscellaneous fees, which made him and his grandmother feel relieved.
But his classmates were not good to him, and even in Zhang Fuxing's eyes, they were super bad. Objectively speaking, except for a few particularly naughty children, most of the students' attitude towards him was not obvious to others.
The difference, however, they will reveal some special expression inadvertently, such as strange gazes, and strange attention, because there are so many unique things on Zhang Fuxing: his barefoot, he has no draft
Ben, his homework book will be turned over and used, his too ragged clothes, his shabby and unique schoolbag, his noon steamed bun, and even his excellent results in the first place, all of which made him inevitable
The land has become a very prominent focus among all students and bear more attention. All of this always makes the precocious and sensitive boy feel like a stunning and unable to sit or lie down. Finally, he regards everyone's attention as having
Some kind of malicious intention.
Because of excellent grades, some self-confidence and pride may also be subconsciously a kind of self-important and arrogant inexplicable self-confidence. The shame and timidity brought by poverty make him feel that the world is dangerous and cruel.
Hurt is everywhere and lacks security. This illusory arrogance and real inferiority complex will lead to a child's behavior in daily life, his temperament is eccentric, his heart is extremely fragile and stubborn, and his inferiority and pride are manifested in
Zhang Fuxing had not yet come out, and he seemed to be a little introverted, not like to talk, always doing things alone, but in his heart, darkness had prevailed, and a certain kind of anger gradually became stronger.
He brewed a tendency to destruction, just because his current strength was not enough to be expressed.
In the fourth grade, he encountered something that might be remembered for his whole life, and the injustice that humiliated him seemed accidental, but seemed to have some necessity.