Chapter 236: [Life is as if we met for the first time] Goodbye Long Lilie
"I have been hurt a lot for you, but not once did I regret or blame you. Even that time you drank the bowl of abortion pill for me with your own hands. When you came out of the womb and caught up with me, I already knew
, my eleventh year was ruined, completely defeated by my heart that loved Long Lilie."
"I really like the Qingluan hairpin you gave me. I really like the saying that we will never leave each other. I thought it would last a lifetime, but..."
Feeling Eleven's slight trembling, Bai Zhanfeng couldn't help but hold her hand on his chest with his backhand, turned his head slightly and looked at her, "Eleven..."
She shook her head and told him she was fine
"I can't tell you the insult I suffered, because I know that once you know it, you will suffer more than me. I am stupid. I want to use my own way to make your life better. So, when you believe the rumors, believe me
I couldn't explain when I had an affair with Sheng Yeming; when you crippled me because of hatred and tortured me because of hatred, I could only accept it silently. I can't say that I didn't blame you at this time, but I am not qualified to blame you.
, it is indeed me who betrayed you, and it was me who failed to protect myself that made me like that..."
"eleven!"
"Don't talk!" Eleven hugged Bai Zhanfeng tighter.
"Long Lilie, you have chosen a path for me that brings disaster to the country and the people. I am willing to become your chess piece. I am not afraid of death. I am only afraid of suffering more torture while alive. Long Lilie, I will also be afraid. I will be afraid.
One day I can no longer bear your hatred. One day I will tell you the secret that I cannot tell you. At that time..., what will you do? So I am willing to die. If I die, I will not be afraid of not being able to keep it.
It’s a secret, isn’t it?”
"I have been stupidly lying to myself. You want me dead because my betrayal makes you hate me so much that you want to kill me. But if I think about it more carefully, in fact... you have never believed in me, right?
If you trust me enough, you won't doubt me and Sheng Ye Ming; if you trust me enough, you won't be afraid that I will reveal Linglong's identity." After saying this, Eleven suddenly smiled sarcastically, "How can I give it to you?
Forgot, you said you have no heart, how can you have trust without a heart, right?"
"But... do you know that when Wuhen Huachi was kneeling down to let you kill me, I looked at you standing there motionless and thinking, and my heart had never felt so painful for that sword, stabbing
In my heart, it actually doesn’t hurt at all. It only hurts inside because I know that you, Long Lilie, are thinking about whether to kill me for Linglong. I am willing to die for you, but I am not willing to die for her. I would have
I said, I am not her and I am not as generous as her..."
"But Long Lilie..., your Linglong, what kind of woman is she? I always feel that I can't compare to her, she must be very good, a perfect woman, that's why you love her so much, but... then
Why would she, who is perfect, do what she did to me?" She believed that there was no need for him to lie to her about Sheng Mochen's words. "She found someone to kill me, she asked Sheng Mochen to insult me... I feel sad for you, I don't know.
Do you really know and understand the Linglong who will be with you forever and love her forever? If even she disappoints you..., will there be no one to accompany you to continue on? You
Are you feeling lonelier?"
"Forget it, no matter how lonely you are, it has nothing to do with me, Eleven. Die, that Eleven who once loved you very much died on the execution ground you arranged for her, and died amidst the unpleasant insults of the people. She was short-lived.
I have never blamed you in my life. No, maybe there were two times. One was when she said she liked you and you told her not to like you again; the other was when you were so cruel that you didn't go to see her when she was being taken to the execution ground.
"
"But now that he is dead, there will be no more unwillingness. Everything has passed. From now on, I will be me, and there will be no more you, Long Lilie. We are separated. I am tired and can no longer love. I
I won’t love you anymore”
The sunset is dazzlingly beautiful, the breeze blows by, the black hair is fluttering, and the jade hands are gently folded on the chest of the man in front of her.
The silver-faced man in front of me remained silent for a long time.