He hugged her tightly, unable to stop him, and suddenly burst into tears: "Fangfei...Fangfei...If you wake up, can you forgive me? Please forgive me, okay?"
No one answered him.
Silence, the night, as if everything was all, but he was talking to himself deep inside. Then, his hot tears fell on her face. The blending, the hotness almost broke his heart.
Have you ever been so scared in this life?
How could I be so heartbroken in this life?
She would rather die—she would rather die than break with herself; and she, actually, watched her die—because she was already scared at that time, when the Persian cat died, he was stunned, as if everything was
She completely cut it off, as if she was two irrelevant people, who had never seen each other faces before.
When I can truly embrace her - I feel the real loss. It seems that what I have gained has finally been completely lost.
In the bones, she has always been her own. Even if she quarrels or turns against each other, she is her own. Only at this moment, Fang felt that it was not - if she died, who would it be? And it was
Whose?
It seemed like I was back in the year when I was seriously ill - quarreling with her at the grave of her father, she shouted loudly, saying that she didn't want to be myself, nor the child in her belly, and she wanted to kill the child completely... At that time
No one knew his fear, fearing that all his hopes would be completely destroyed by her.
Only then did I realize that all hope was almost destroyed - as long as she died, all hope would be gone.
Why did it come to this day?
Why did this turn out?
He hugged her, uncontrollable, tears falling like rain, and sobbing silently in the dark night. All of these were blamed, all of them. If he had persisted a little more, or was more powerful, and more domineering... Why did he come to this day?
?
Once upon a time, I went further and further away from her, and my jealousy became stronger and stronger, and finally it was out of control.
His lips were completely pressed against her lips, and tears fell like rain: "Fangfei, wake up. When I wake up, I will listen to you no matter what. In the future, I will never do the right thing with you, okay?
”
She couldn't answer, and she couldn't hear it.
But he felt that the words he had hidden in his heart had been too long, so long that he almost crushed himself: "Fangfei, it's my fault. You wake up, wake up and start everything again, okay?"
The child turned over, as if he was dreaming, and took the quilt outside the little hand.
He held the child in his arms.
The child's hair is so soft that his little face is full of warm breathing.
He hugged his wife with one hand and his son with the other, and his tears finally stopped. These are the two people he wants to protect the most. In his life, besides them, who else has he ever had bed with until dawn?
A cold and cold person.
Today, I feel that the love between husband and wife and father and son are all lacking.
Just like the responsibilities that an emperor should fulfill, he has nothing but that. What ridiculous things have he done over the years? What other sons and the faces of concubines do he remember over the years?
Come and go, I have been letting others down.
But there is always one that I don’t want to let it go.
The child twisted his head slightly, and he was still sleeping very well. He lowered his head and pressed his son's face, and could feel the slight heat breathing in his nostrils blowing warmly on his face.
He was attracted by such heat and excited, hugged his son tighter, and in the dark, he quietly told him: "Hong'er, don't be afraid again. The father will give you the best. Who can do it?
Don't worry if you can't surpass you."
The child had already felt relieved and snuggled up to him very sweetly.
The child doesn’t even know what “ethical shame” is—this time is the real “family” in his mind.
Emperor Hongwen was also tired and his eyes were so tired that he couldn't open it.
After crying, I feel that happiness is a kind of happiness that I have regained and obtained.
That night, he slept surprisingly peacefully.
I woke up very early, and the outside world was hazy and full of unpredictable gray. The autumn wind was blowing and the cold rain drizzled. It has been a long autumn rainy season, and many activities have stopped, and so
During the rainy season, I can't hurry to return to Pingcheng.
Emperor Hongwen did not have been stranded in Beiwudang, so he felt that this continuous autumn rain had come very well.
He stared at the woman in his arms in the glimmer of dawn, and noticed that she had squirmed slightly. He was ecstatic: "Fangfei, Fangfei, are you awake?"
Hong'er was awakened and was overjoyed: "Father, is the Empress Dowager awake?"
"I woke up, I saw the Queen Mother wake up with my own eyes. Hong'er, the Queen Mother's fingers moved, look."
The child hurriedly saw that the queen mother was still lying down and she was not awake at all. However, the breath at the end of her nose was indeed much smoother. He placed his little hands on the end of her nose and could indeed feel the slightly warm heat.
"Oh, the Queen Mother can live... People say that it can live if there is heat. Father, the Queen Mother is going to live."
The child was so excited that he danced with his hands and feet. Emperor Hongwen almost jumped up, his voice trembling slightly: "Hong'er, the Queen Mother can live, really live..."
The child was still a little worried: "But, when will the Empress Dowager wake up?"
"It's almost done. As long as she has breath, she will wake up soon. Hong'er, don't worry, the Empress Dowager will wake up soon." Emperor Hongwen kept comforting his son and himself. On this day,
He was really ecstatic. He even saw his son's little hand touching her heart, touching her dear Fangfei's heart: "Father, the Empress Dowager's heart is beating..."
Emperor Hongwen also imitated his son. Sure enough, his heart was beating, although weak, but very stable, which was a symptom that only living people had.
He felt relieved, smiled very comfortably, and slowly sat up: "Hong'er, don't be afraid, don't be afraid of anything in the future. The Queen Mother is here."
The child was still a little worried: "Father, when the empress dowager wakes up, don't quarrel with the empress dowager anymore, okay?"
Emperor Hongwen stared at his son, remembering him rushing out of the shadow, remembering him seeing his mother fall with his own eyes—
His heart was cut like a knife, stroking the child's head, very firm: "No, Hong'er. When the empress dowager wakes up, no matter what she wants to do, no matter how she beats me and scolds me, I will not argue with her anymore.
Hong'er, don't worry... The father will never quarrel with her again."
He was assured, assured his son.
Hong'er is really not afraid anymore.
Because he saw his father gently hugging the empress dowager - he had never seen it before. The father looked at the empress dowager, so gentle, and tenderness that even children could feel.
He felt that he was the happiest person, the father and the empress dowager were all - he had been looking forward to all of this for too long. Now, he finally got both.
"Father, I'm a little hungry."
"Okay, my father will dress you, get up and have a meal first."
The child was a little surprised. Usually, the empress dowager took care of his daily life. The father never put clothes on his own. He was a little uneasy: "Father, Hong'er can wear them by himself."
Emperor Hongwen said with a kind look: "The Father will wear it for you." He took the clothes and put them on the children: "The Father has never put clothes on anyone before, nor has he ever slept with any children."
His movements were very clumsy, especially when he was putting his son's sleeves, he suddenly felt a childlike heart and slapped his son's armpits. The child giggled and laughed: "Ah... Father, it's so itchy... Father,
You're so bad..."
Emperor Hongwen also laughed and finally helped his son wear it clumsyly. It was a very beautiful casual dress, comfortable and energetic. The child tilted his head slightly and looked very proud: "Father, look at this
The embroidered by the Queen Mother for Hong'er. Is it so good?"
“It looks good, it looks really good.”
Emperor Hongwen looked carefully at the beautiful patterns on the children's clothes, the needles and threads from Fangfei. In her life, she seemed to have never done anything for her, and she only made a sachet for herself. However, every time she changed the season,
She would make a piece of clothing for her children, never interrupting.
He smiled and showed an envious tone: "Hong'er, my father also hopes to have such a dress."
"Okay. When the empress dowager is ready, Honger asks the empress dowager to do it for you."
"Ha, no need. The Queen Mother is very busy and she is not in good health."
"Just make one. Hong'er asked the Empress Dowager to do it, and the Empress Dowager will definitely listen."
Emperor Hongwen did not even dissuade his son. He was a little dazed, just like the girl in the Prince's Mansion who had picked up needles and threads and shirts... but he never again.
The child was very happy: "Father, will you always accompany Hong'er from now on? Uh, I mean, I want to be with you like this every day..."
"That won't work. Hong'er will become a big child, and the older children will not be accompanied by their parents." Emperor Hongwen laughed, "In the future, even if the father wants to accompany you, you will not be happy."
"The Empress Dowager also said that, even if a three-year-old child is older, he can only sleep by himself." He felt very regretful and strange, "How come I don't like it when my father is so well with him?
?No, even if I become a big child, I will like it.”
Emperor Hongwen noticed that he always called the Queen Mother. Emperor Hongwen laughed and quietly said, "But, these days, the father will always be with you."
The child's eyes lit up: "How long?"
"Until the Queen Mother recovers completely."
The child really jumped up and had already gotten out of bed.
"Father, you get up too."
"Hong'er, go out first, and your father will get up immediately."
The child went out sensibly and closed the door.
Finally returned to the world of two. Although the world of three people is warm, sometimes, it only takes the world of two people. Emperor Hongwen only then hugged the woman beside him with confidence and boldness, but saw her sleeping in his arms.
There was a pale, almost transparent on her face. Her lips were slightly chapped. He sighed and kissed her gently: "Fangfei, have you heard Hong'er talk? Hong'er hopes we can always
Is it okay to accompany him to live to be eighty years old?"
The child is always the gentlest concern in her heart.
He seemed to be holding a gentle weapon and inserted it hard into her ear, even a little cruel and gentle: "Fangfei, think about Hong'er. If you are gone, who will feel sorry for him? Just depend on me
No… Men are always negligent with their children. Only when you are there can the children have a real backer. Even for Honger, you have to get better completely, do you know?"
His face was close to hers, and he could hear her slight breathing clearly.
"Fangfei, wake up quickly. When you wake up, everything will start over. I will never look for another woman, no one wants it. Fangfei, can we start over?"
Everything starts over!
He was full of determination and confidence.
Just the person in her arms? Who knows what she thinks?
After the father and son had breakfast, they immediately returned to the house.
The Cining Palace has already produced a furnace, which was later renovated by Li Yi. It is more beautiful than the stove used in the past or the kangs similar to the north. It is walking along the walls, and the high-quality charcoal fire is fully burned and discharged backwards, which is very clean.
Emperor Hongwen shut down all the idle people and waited, but the father and son put on thick carpets and played in front of Queen Mother Feng's bed.
At that time, Emperor Hongwen was teaching his children a game similar to throwing brigades. The father and son were having fun, and Emperor Hongwen suddenly raised his head and looked at the bed.
His eyes were staring at the bed, forgot to throw the bullet in his hand for a moment.
"Father...Father, it's your turn..."
The child kept urging.
Emperor Hongwen did not move at all.
But the marble in his hand fell down and made a sound. He didn't notice it at all, a hint of ecstasy flashed through his eyes, and then he immediately stood up.
The child was very strange. He followed the eyes of his father and jumped up: "Oh my God, the Queen Mother is awake..."
He ran over as if he was flying.
However, it was one step behind.
Emperor Hongwen grabbed Fangfei's hand first, looked at her blank gaze, and was so happy that he was incoherent: "Fangfei, you wake up, Fangfei, you wake up..."
Hong'er was so happy that she didn't know why, she just shouted: "Empress Dowager, Empress Dowager..."
Everything is so illusory and unreal.
Fangfei opened her eyes wide, but felt confused.
The two people in front of me who were happy and looked so unreal.
She only recognized Hong'er - only her own son, so real.
Even his warm hands, he stroked his face and the little hands on his eyebrows, were so warm.
"Empress Dowager, Empress Dowager..."
She wanted to reach out and grab his hand, but her hand had no strength at all. She even wanted to scream "Hong'er", but she had no strength. Her mouth opened and she couldn't make any sound, and she was hoarse.
"Mrs. Queen Mother, what are you going to eat?"
Emperor Hongwen looked at her blankly, almost shocked by the sudden ecstasy - as if at some point, he also escaped from the sky!
Completely, I got a chance to be reborn.
"Father, the Queen Mother wants to drink water...and drink water..."
Emperor Hongwen was half confused, listening to his son's arrangements and went to serve warm milk.
Fangfei's eyes did not fall on him, but kept looking at Hong'er - looking at the poor child, how ecstatic he was in his eyes.
Haven't I considered this child? I really did too little for him, too little.
She suddenly grew endless strength, but her mouth still trembled slightly, unable to make a complete sound, and she was not even moaning enough. She was extremely poisonous, exhausted for so long - she was like a hollowed-out puppet, with almost her hard work
It was completely exhausted and so tired that I could no longer take a breath.
"Fangfei, you take a break...you will get better after recuperating..."
Someone was talking in his ears, full of tenderness and concern. But she didn't pay attention, nor did she shake his hand away, no matter who he was - these didn't matter.
Her eyes only fell on her son's face, and she felt that her son had lost weight.
It is very obvious that children lose weight and their chins are sharp.
Poor child, who will accompany him to hunt? Who will accompany him to Pingcheng?
She suddenly became anxious. For some reason, the first thought she woke up was that she was afraid that her child would return to the lonely palace alone. From then on, she was in the prince's mansion, although she was rich and frugal,
No one cares about it—no one really cares about it.
"Honger...Honger..."
The child was excited: "Empress Dowager, you called me? Oh my god, Father, have you heard it? The empress dowager called me... The empress dowager is calling me..."
She was born like a mosquito, and the father and son could only see the twitching of her lips.
Emperor Hongwen's hand shook, and the bowl of milk almost fell to the ground.
He put it aside and was overjoyed: "Fangfei... Hong'er is here to accompany you, don't be afraid, don't take pictures... I've been there all the time; I'll be with you... Fangfei, I'll be with you..."
Her eyes slowly turned to him. A look of panic suddenly appeared in her eyes.
"Fangfei...Fangfei..."
Her eyes turned dark and she fainted again.
"Empress Dowager, what's wrong with the queen..."
Emperor Hongwen hugged his anxious son and said softly: "The Empress Dowager just woke up and should not talk for a long time. She fell asleep again. It will be fine, and it will be fine."