I think we will never stand together normally again. Xu Beijie makes me chicken soup and gives me Christmas gifts.
I instantly felt that the whole sky was gray
I also understood why the great monk stopped me from finding the answer, because after finding the answer, the matter between me and Xu Beijie was over, or what the great monk was referring to was not just Xu Beijie.
Or, there's someone I can't even imagine
That was the first woman I fell in love with, that was the first woman I fell in love with
My dear, my favorite, the person who has broken my heart many times! The person I love so much!
My teacher is Guo Xiaofei, but I have to have some confidence in the teacher!
However, Xu Jeff's back looks so much like his brother-in-law's back that I still don't understand why he also disguises himself
Until today, when a leaf fell on my head, I kind of understood
What he meant by pasting was to paste a false message to me. Then, in my mind, whatever message he pasted to me, I would have his kind of information in my mind. In that wrong message
Inside, he looks like whatever he wants to be. Even if he pastes a piece of information for me that he is Andy Lau, I really thought I had really met Andy Lau.
So, are everything the teacher said lying to me?
I really want to trust the teacher unswervingly, but there have been many doubts and I really don’t know what to do.
When I didn’t know what to do, I chose to escape
As the eldest sister, Zhang Xinyu shuffled the cards among my other wives.
None of the ladies were very happy, but they were very excited to see me return safely. People say a long break is better than a wedding, but when everyone saw my sad face, they would just try their best to enlighten me.
I didn't dare to search for anything about the teacher. I didn't even dare to go to the teacher and ask her in person. I was even more afraid of the teacher admitting it.
I'm not afraid of anything. I'm still the cowardly person I was before.
Cowardly people who dare not face reality
Is it true that you are so reluctant to let go of someone that you will trust her unconditionally? Even if she has many flaws, you will still find a way to defend her.
Until one day, Mrs. Zhao said to me: "If you don't want to ask her in person, then you can find the answer yourself! It's better than wasting it like this! People's time is limited, and you can't afford it!"
People's time is limited, I can't afford it
Just like, some people love someone for a long time and never open their heart to anyone. In the end, they just suffer themselves.
Maybe the person you miss day and night is snuggling in the arms of her lover. She is very happy, but you give up happiness for her. Is it worth it? You know that she already has someone you like, but you are still escaping from reality, no?
Are you making excuses for stopping?
"Face reality!" I stood up with a smile and said, "Thank you, Xiaoyan! No matter what the outcome is, I will face it with a normal heart!"
I stood up quickly and walked out of the room as quickly as possible. I was going to find the answer.
I have to search for myself. How can I have the courage to ask the teacher?
I took the bus and came to the village in the teacher's memory, the same village I had been to last time. My brother-in-law and she, Guo Shouyin and Li Mengyao were there to catch fish. I tried my best to suck the poisonous blood from the teacher.
Why do you think about the past and the corners of your mouth curl up?
The driver of the bus started playing music. My normally normal heart suddenly fell into rock bottom.
The song is the teacher's favorite song "I Have a Love"
I have a love. Who can I tell you to listen to it? When my close friend went out and he left, there was no news. Could it be that my lover has changed his heart? Why? The news was cut off. I waited until the night was deep and the moon was bright.
I hold the six-stringed harp in my arms and play a song and sing to express my hatred for the teacher. In the memory of the teacher, the entrance to the teacher’s hometown house was the dirt road where the teacher played hopscotch when he was a child. Now it has become cement.
As for the teacher’s big yard, are there her parents in the yard? She didn’t see them the last time she came here. I wonder if she will see them this time? I hope I can see them?
I tried knocking on the door, and after a while, an old lady in her sixties came to open the door.
No, in the teacher’s memory, her mother is not like this!
"Who are you looking for, young man?"
"Excuse me, are you Guo Xiaofei's mother?"
"Hey!" The old lady burst into tears immediately: "What are you doing now when you bring up the sad past?" Then she choked and cried.
After a while, an old man came out
The two people talked to me on and off about their daughter Guo Xiaofei.
At that time, Xiaofei was still young. When she and her boyfriend were catching fish, she was accidentally washed away by the flood. She disappeared into the lake in the village and never appeared again.
How could this happen? In the yard, the flowers that the teacher watered personally have withered, but I know the branches that failed miserably.
"Then who lived in your house last summer?"
"It was rented to a young couple. The girl looked like our deceased Xiao Fei. If we hadn't looked very similar to her, we wouldn't have rented it to them!" said the old woman.
My body felt like it was struck by a bolt from the blue
"Are those teacher's childhood memories also fake?"
What about the teacher’s memories when she was young? What about her first boyfriend, the boyfriend I went to jail with her to see? Could it be fake?
I returned to Xiahai City without believing in evil, and then went to find the first boyfriend in the teacher's memory, her particularly fighting boyfriend who made me and the teacher get together.
When I visited the prison, after I gave my name, the staff told me that this person did not exist here at all.
How could this happen? So, what did the teacher go to see that day, and why was he still crying so sadly?
My heart feels so cold that I don’t even dare to check it out.
Twice the hard facts are before my eyes, I can't help but not believe it
Are the words in the teacher’s space also false? I read the teacher’s messages one by one, and they clearly contain her feelings. Are the feelings she wrote from my first year in junior high to the present all false?
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How could this happen? I threw the phone in my hand angrily. What strength did I have at this moment? All of a sudden, the phone completely fell apart. I still couldn't get over my anger, so I quickly trampled the phone on the ground to pieces.
Maybe, maybe the teacher's previous memories were all false, but later, until the two of us got together, everything we experienced became true, and she really liked me, and she changed her ways!
I'm going to Neverland. There are secrets between me and my teacher there. I remember that my teacher and I wrote our secrets on that old tree. I don't know if I can still see my teacher's wishes now.
ah!
I once promised the teacher never to read what is written on it. Now, I have to go and take a look. I want to see what the teacher is thinking? Why do you always lie to me!
When I went there this time, it was not as pleasant as the last time. Neverland is a place where my teacher and I left too many memories.
It was my first time with the teacher in the big hotel there!
The teacher and I climbed to the top of the mountain together. I was also surprised at the teacher's physical strength at the time. Thinking about it now, maybe these are all trivial to her.
As soon as I arrived at Neverland, I remembered what the old monk said to me.
Is it because of God's will? The old monk had long seen the crisis between me and the teacher. That's why he said that. I still clearly remember the method he taught me to solve it.
I love Ananda's hair, I love Ananda's ears, I love Ananda's eyes, I love Ananda's nose, I love Ananda's mouth
I love the teacher's hair, I love the teacher's ears, I love the teacher's eyes, I love the teacher's nose, I love the teacher's mouth, I love the teacher's smile, I love the teacher's cry, I love the teacher's anger, I love everything the teacher praises me for.
There is flakes in the hair, thick ears, feces in the eyes, runny nose, and chewing in the mouth.
Everything you like actually has flaws, and you may not like it!
I love teachers with dandruff in their hair, I love teachers with thick ears, I love teachers with shit in their eyes, I love teachers with mucus in their noses, I love teachers with chewing in their mouths!
How do you want me to crack it? How do you want me to crack it?
The journey was difficult, but when I arrived at Neverland in the afternoon, I didn’t even stop. I walked straight to the mountain, and then set off to the top of the mountain. It was getting dark, so I kept walking, not stopping for fear of being chased by sentimentality.
It was dark, but fortunately, the climate in Neverland was very good. I walked as usual, relying on my feeling, until I reached the top of the mountain.
I didn't look at the time, I didn't look at anything. I touched the branches of the big tree, and the thick feeling made me remember clearly the episode when I and my teacher took shelter under the tree, like
The same thing happened yesterday, how could I be left here alone stroking this bare tree trunk?
Where are the wishes we made? Teacher, where is the happiness we promised?
Teacher, is your shy smile under the tree fake?
Are the wishes you made also false?
I decided to look for it, but it was really dark, and the thin air on the top of the mountain made me breathless.
After my phone broke, I randomly changed it to another one, but it couldn't illuminate what was written on the tree at all, so I had to sit on the tree alone and look at the stars in the sky.
If I had the sky and all the stars in it, and the world and its infinite wealth, I would ask for more; but as long as she is mine, give me the smallest corner of the earth, and I will be content. Just ah