Chapter 72: For the first time in my life, I seriously reflect on myself
Chen Yu returned home.
After taking a shower, I returned to my bedroom.
He sat on the bedside, holding his cell phone in his hand, waiting for his 37-year-old self to contact him.
Although he has figured it out, he no longer intends to deceive Qin Lili's feelings to keep his reputation as the top liberal arts scholar in the province and his chance to go to university.
But if the 37-year-old himself can get the test papers and answers for the re-examination this time, he still doesn't mind repeating his old tricks and cheating again.
After all, this is related to his reputation and future.
In his heart, he also wanted to go to college.
Time passed little by little, and the 37-year-old self never contacted him again. He sat on the bedside and looked at the moon outside the window with half-squinted eyes.
The moon outside the window is so full tonight.
He stared blankly. At this moment, his face had lost its usual playful expression, and he seemed to be much more mature.
It was very quiet all around, and I could hear the low chirping of insects coming from the yard.
His heart also became very quiet unconsciously.
He began to think about his future and what his 37-year-old self had said to himself before.
He remembered that the 37-year-old himself, when he contacted him for the first time, said that he would die of lung cancer in the future. He was 37 years old, but he had nothing, including a house, a car, money, a wife, children... nothing at all.
Not right either!
The 37-year-old himself seems to have said that he owned a Tiggo 7 at that time.
But that's all.
At the age of 17, he naturally didn't want that kind of future.
later……
After a time and space change, the 37-year-old self appeared directly on the bed of a beautiful young woman, but the beautiful young woman was someone else's wife. In that time and space, the 37-year-old self's true identity was that of a woman at the bottom of society.
The delivery boy who comes in the wind and goes out in the rain.
Later, after another time and space change, the 37-year-old myself appeared directly in prison. The reason was that in the future, after graduating from college, I took the civil service exam, and then took bribes to keep a lover...
And later?
The 37-year-old self has become a carefree tenant, and his life seems to be very comfortable? In that time and space, the 37-year-old self seems to have a wife named Jiang Xiu, and the 37-year-old self seems to like that woman very much.
.
What now?
What's going on with me at the age of 37?
When he had a video call with his 37-year-old self tonight, he didn't seem to mention this topic.
However, after considering the previous changes in time and space, the 37-year-old himself has experienced several times and spaces, and the situations he has been in, the 17-year-old can still roughly draw a conclusion: It seems that no matter how time and space changes, my future will not be too big.
good.
The best time was when I returned to Huizhou Prefecture after graduating from college, accepted a blind date arranged by my family, married the woman named Jiang Xiu, and became a chartered house like a salted fish.
With these thoughts in his mind, the 17-year-old felt very complicated and had mixed emotions.
Because he suddenly thought of an old saying: Character determines destiny.
Therefore, he couldn't help but think: Is there really something wrong with my character? So after so many time and space changes, most of my future is not good?
Why?
Why?
He asked himself again and again in his mind.
This is the first time in his 17 years of life that he has taken such a serious look at himself and asked himself.
He is not really heartless, of course he hopes for a bright future.
But for so many years, even if he studied hard and got up before dawn to memorize English words, it had no effect, so he gave up studying hard.
Although, the things that the 37-year-old himself said about taking bribes, keeping lovers, etc. are not what he is doing now, they should be just a possibility in the future time and space.
but……
At the age of 17, he knew in his heart that those futures were mostly derived from his current personality.
He sat on the bedside and meditated for a long time. The more he thought about it, the more depressed he became, but he gradually gained some ideas.
——I definitely still need to change my personality, but I can’t continue to change it in the direction of being a scumbag, because the situations that the 37-year-old myself has experienced after the changes in time and space in the past two or three months are very illustrative of the problem.
If I continue to change in the direction of being a scumbag, my future will most likely not be good.
In addition to personality, I also have to consider studying something seriously.
In this life, I cannot cheat like I did in this college entrance examination at every stage of my life.
What if one day I can no longer communicate with my 37-year-old self, then what will I do to establish myself? Do I really want to be a charterer who is just waiting to die?
Based on my academic background, even if I go to a prestigious university and study computers for a few years, I probably won’t be able to become a computer expert.
But, is there anything suitable for me to learn?
…
Time is still passing little by little.
17-year-old Chen Yu thought through one problem after another in his mind, but more new questions popped up in his heart.
He realized that it is easy to indulge yourself, but it is so difficult to really make progress and make yourself truly outstanding.
However, he still wanted to try.
It wasn't until almost 12 o'clock in the night that the cell phone he had been holding finally rang.
It was a video call request from my 37-year-old self.
His thoughts were interrupted, but his expression didn't change much. He glanced at the phone calmly. It seemed that he had matured a lot in just a few hours tonight.
My mentality has also stabilized a lot.
He calmly answered the video call.
In the video, the 37-year-old himself showed a blushing face.
"Have you been drinking?" he asked.
Middle-aged Chen Yu grinned, "Yes! I drank some."
"Did you get the test papers and answers for the re-examination?" he asked again.
Middle-aged Chen Yu chuckled, "It's not easy to get these things for you!"
He looked at his future self's blushing face and nodded slightly, "Thank you for your hard work! Send them all to me! I'll seize the time and try to memorize them all."
Middle-aged Chen Yu raised his eyebrows slightly, "Aren't you curious how I got it?"
He remembered that when he was 17 years old, he was very curious.
However……
Chen Yu, a young man whose mentality has changed, shook his head slightly, "I don't have much time left to prepare, so I'd better save time and give me the test paper and answers quickly! I'll prepare early and try to pass this re-examination smoothly.
"
Middle-aged Chen Yu was a little surprised, "Oh? So you didn't manage Qin Lili?"
The young man Chen Yu laughed at himself, "I guess I haven't finished it yet! Stop talking nonsense and send me the test paper and answers quickly."
After finishing speaking, he hesitated for two seconds, and then said: "By the way, you have experienced more things than me, and your thinking is more mature than mine. Later, you can help me think about what I can learn in the next few years in college.
What? I’m afraid that I won’t be able to learn professional knowledge in college, but I don’t want to remain ignorant. Can you help me think about it?”
In video.
Even though middle-aged Chen Yu was quite drunk, when he heard his 17-year-old self make such a request, the 37-year-old was still stunned.
It was as if I was meeting my 17-year-old self for the first time, looking straight at my 17-year-old self.
"Are you...are you serious?"
He couldn't believe that his 17-year-old self actually wanted to learn something.
For a while, his drunkenness receded a bit.
It was also at this time that he finally noticed that the 17-year-old himself in the video had a much calmer expression, just like the state he was in when he was 22 years old after losing his parents and grandma.
17-year-old Chen Yu nodded, his expression still calm, "I admit that I am not good at reading, but as the old saying goes, 'I am born with talents that will be useful,' so I don't believe that I can't learn anything well."
The middle-aged Chen Yu looked at him intently for a while, then smiled with relief, "Okay, since you are so determined, I will help you refer to it. I will send you the retest papers and answers first! You
Memorize it as soon as possible! This is the top priority! We’ll talk about everything else later.”