It’s so easy, it’s so easy to express the tangles in my heart!
Jingxuan hugged her and hurriedly left the imperial city. His steps were a little staggering. Maybe his expression was strange. The servants who saw them on the palace road all looked surprised.
Her body was light and airy. Meili breathed in the cold air of the first month and listened to his heartbeat that was obviously faster than usual. She didn't know whether this was the most confused moment in her life or the most sober one.
"Jingxuan" she called him. This was the first time in her life that she directly called him by his name.
He trembled and even his steps paused.
"For these many years, you owe me and Yunke." She snuggled softly into his arms and finally said this confidently.
"Meili..." He was so sad when he called her in a low voice
"I've been afraid to say it out. You think I'm trying to quibble because Yun Ke deceived you. Now I'm... desperate, Jingxuan, I just want to be willful again."
"Meili!" He interrupted her tremblingly. He couldn't bear the fact that she said such words, making him so frightened and heartbroken.
"Jingxuan, if you feel you owe me, then fulfill my wish!" She looked at him with a sweet and stubborn smile. He stopped. This was the expression of the girl Meili. He thought he would never see it again in this life.
Can't see either
"You said" He looked at her straightly, actually wishing that time would stop and the world would be destroyed, so that... he could keep her.
"I want to be your common wife, and Yunke wants to be your heir apparent!"
Behind the smile, there is despair that both he and she understand
This tone, this mood... she was so familiar with it. It was like a long, long time ago. She hugged his waist tightly, knowing that he was disgusted and unwilling to turn around to look at her, but she still didn't want to let go and stayed close to him.
Behind his back, he asked him to promise: "Brother Jingxuan likes Meili, okay? Is it okay that I will only like Meili for the rest of my life?"
The wish she made for him - never came true
"Jingxuan, can you fulfill my wish for once in this life? My wish?" She looked at him, but her eyes focused on the dark spot deep in his black eyes.
His heart was crushed into powder by her pleading
He wanted to agree, wanted to say yes to her without hesitation! Not because he was her only man, not because Yun Ke was really his son! Maybe these things no longer seemed so important in the years that had passed, but at this moment, he
Only then did she realize that he had never fulfilled any of her wishes, any of them!
But he really couldn't give her a clear answer
His hesitation made her close her eyes
In fact, before every time she made a wish to him, she knew better than anyone else that it would be impossible to come true! Every time she made a wish to him, it only increased her despair.
He carried her all the way to the carriage, and ordered the guards and maids to escort her back home. Before leaving, he also got on the carriage and held her in his arms.
"Meili, no matter what, I'm going to give it a try, and I'm going to work hard for you!"
Her heart suddenly throbbed
As if he didn't want to face her answer, he quickly got out of the carriage and disappeared into the dark palace passage.
She opened the car curtain, looked at the direction where he disappeared, and said that he was willing to give it a try for her.
Lying on the warm quilt in her room, Meili stared at the flames of the copper lamp standing at the foot of the bed. He had been there for a long time.
Yun Ke came back from the palace and came to the room to play coquettishly for a while. After making sure that his mother was fine, he followed his nanny back to the room with peace of mind.
It wasn't until noon the next day that Jingxuan walked straight into her bedroom from the outside with a livid face. When he held her in his arms, her thin underwear could not withstand the chill coming from his court clothes.
His face looked ugly. She leaned in his arms meekly without struggling. In fact, she already knew the result when he left.
No matter how great Prince Qing is, he can't be too great! He is still a minister and a monarch... She understands it more deeply than he does
"Meili, wait a minute!" He tightened his arms, "Believe me, one day, I will fulfill your wish!"
She laughed silently. One day? However, she was already satisfied. He never left her alone or sneered at her wishes.
The emperor issued an imperial edict and sent Jingxuan to Jiangnan on an official mission. He will set off today.
Meili packed his luggage carefully. She understood that he must have been very unhappy with the emperor, so serious that the emperor wanted to send him away, and she did not want to see him in the near future.
Suying's attitude also changed, from ignoring it to deliberately suppressing it. When she learned that Jingxuan had asked the emperor to change the status of a equal wife, she could no longer take it calmly. In order to maintain her status as a concubine, she had given up and tolerated not enough?
Now, Meili actually wants to take away the only thing she relies on. No! It can't be done!
After the first lunar month, the emperor began to select suitable children from his close relatives to serve as companions for the princes. On the day when he went to meet the master of the study, Yun Ke seemed a little excited.
Meili tidied up his appearance, she had confidence in her son
Yun Ke was even happier when he came back from the exam. He told Meili that he answered the question very well, and the master also praised him repeatedly. He would definitely pass the test, and he would definitely be able to study with brother Yinzhen and see each other every day!
His joy is also her joy
She even wanted to write a letter to Jingxuan who was far away in the south of the Yangtze River to let him share this happiness.
When the list of companion readers was announced, Yun Jue was selected, but Yun Ke was not selected.
Yun Ke was very frustrated. She was bored in the room and refused to see Meili. She went to the palace to ask about the situation. The eunuch in charge answered her simply: Only the legitimate son of the clan is qualified!
Meili listened and didn't argue a word
On the way back home, she remained silent. When she got off the sedan chair, she had already made up her mind.
First, I went to Yunke's room to see him. After all, Yunke was a sensible and considerate child. He no longer lost his temper. He even smiled and snuggled into her arms and said to her: "Mom, Yunke is not sad."
If I don't study with brother Yinzhen, I will study hard and learn as well as them!"
Meili smiled and stroked his black braids and nodded.
What's the use of studying equally well... When I was young, I was excluded from the circle of future leaders. When I grow up, no matter how good I am, I am just a Baylor with an empty title. I will never be able to seize the opportunity to realize my ambition.
The authority is just because he is a bastard!
Yue Mo also gave birth to a child, and is now responsible for taking care of Yun Ke. She is already mature, and has been tempered by the years to be more patient and meticulous. She knows how unwilling and painful the mother and son are who are forced to smile, so she also smiles to win over Yun Ke.
, "Let the master rest, she is also tired."
Meili walked out of Yun Ke's room, then stopped and looked back. Yue Mo was pouring water for Yun Ke, "Yue Mo..." she called her
"My slave is here, what other instructions does the master have?"
Meili smiled and said, "Take good care of Yun Ke for me."
She doesn't dodge anymore, why should she feel guilty and short of breath? She just wants to dress up and formally ask to see the emperor.
What else is she worried about? Like her, Yunke has nothing worth losing since the day he was born.
Kangxi watched in silence as Meili handed over the Eight Parts and Eight Formations to the Imperial Case. He and she were the only two people in the whole study. He raised his eyes and looked at Meili standing in front of the case. She did not kneel down or lower her eyes like this.
Meili, he has never seen it
"What's the point of taking this picture out now?" He smiled sarcastically. The formation diagram he had worked so hard to get had been hidden by her for so many years!
"Your Majesty, I'm not here to negotiate terms with you." Meili looked directly into his eyes, which was already a crime of disrespect. Kangxi just looked at her and said nothing.
Negotiate conditions? Of course she is not qualified
After hiding this picture for so long, she shouldn't complain even if he killed her immediately
"Your Majesty, Meili is here to beg you."
"Um?"
"Meili is begging you as a mother on behalf of her child."
Kangxi finally sighed, "Meili, I know that you have wronged Jingxuan for so many years and you have said everything to me, but the emperor has the emperor's difficulties..."
"Your Majesty," she actually interrupted him. Kangxi was stunned. "Before the Lantern Festival banquet, I came to the back hall to present a picture to you. I heard the conversation between you and Zamulang." She smiled.
Kangxi pursed his lips and said, "Since you know everything, why are you still making unnecessary requests? Even if Zamulang loses power one day, I will not break the promise I made to him."
"Your Majesty, Meili has heard clearly that you promised Suying to let Suying enjoy the honor of the royal concubine, and I will never cause you any difficulties."
Kangxi frowned
"I just beg you to allow Yun Ke to become the crown prince and Su Ying to enjoy all the honors, because a dead person cannot compete with her. You only became the legitimate son after your mother and concubine."
"Presumptuous!" Kangxi was angry
"Brother Emperor, don't be angry with Meili. Meili always makes you angry. I won't... anymore." She tilted her head and smiled. "Meili doesn't feel qualified to beg you because she presented the picture, but,
I beg you with the feeling of a mother who is willing to die for her son."
"Meili..." Kangxi dimmed his eyes. He understood what she meant. She wanted to become a royal concubine without breaking his promise to Zamulang. Only... the posthumous name Meili's affection for her children moved him deeply.
, His imperial grandmother, his mother had sacrificed everything for him and the late emperor. "Do you have the heart to leave Yun Ke? Mother is irreplaceable for a child." He, the Holy Emperor of the Qing Dynasty, was also a nobody.
mother person
Meili shook her head and smiled, tears flashing in her eyes but refusing to fall, "There are many people who can fulfill the responsibility of caring for Yun Ke as a mother, but I am the only one who is willing to die for him."