My name is Jun Feiqing, Jun Tianya's eldest daughter and his only daughter.
I have four younger brothers, so we are five siblings in total. We are severely overweight.
Dad’s friends often laugh at Dad for not responding to national policies and should be fined and confiscated half of the family property. Dad always replies proudly that more fine varieties like ours should be cultivated. This is a good thing that benefits the country and the people.
I despised my father for a long time because of this sentence, because I remember that only things like pigs are classified by breed.
Everyone in Beijun City knows that I, Jun Feiqing, am the eldest daughter of the Jun family. I became famous when I was ten years old. There are rumors that when a man sees me, he will lose his soul and hit the wall when he walks.
On the bridge, he would fall into the river when he crossed the bridge. Whatever others asked, he would keep repeating: The eldest lady of the Jun family is so beautiful, the eldest lady of the Jun family is so beautiful, the eldest lady of the Jun family is so beautiful...
However, even so, I am already seventeen years old and no one dares to pursue me.
It's not that I'm not good enough, it's because in the eyes of my four demon brothers, in this world, no one except the man named Jun is worthy of me.
Unfortunately, all the men named Jun and I are close relatives, so I am seventeen years old and have not been in love yet.
But, I'm not in a hurry.
Everyone in Beijun City knows that the eldest lady of the Jun family is not only beautiful and versatile, but also well-educated, elegant, kind, and beautiful. She is one of the most beautiful women in the world. However, they don't know that I am just a girl with a different appearance.
One beauty.
During the day, I always look like a weak, graceful, dignified, and refined person, but when I fall asleep at night, I will immediately become a completely different me.
I have two lives, one in the day and one in my dreams.
During the day, my name is Jun Feiqing, and I am the eldest lady of the Jun family. In the dream, my name is Ge'er, and I am the young daughter of a great hero.
Ever since I can remember, I have grown up during the day, and the me in dreams and the me during the day have grown together.
When I was a child, I thought that everyone was like me. During the day, I was one person, and when I dreamed at night, I became another person.
Later, as I grew older, I realized that only I, Jun Feiqing, was like this.
I was afraid that if someone knew about it, I would be arrested for human dissection, so I never told anyone about what happened in the dream, including my parents and younger brothers. I didn’t want them to worry about me.
In the dream, my name is Ge'er. I live in the Han Dynasty. I am as beautiful as I am during the day. I like to wear a green shirt. I have a white camel, a silver wolf, and two white eagles.
, as well as my parents and two brothers.
Before I was eight years old, I only dreamed about my parents and brother. I traveled around with them, from the misty rain in the south of the Yangtze River to the yellow sand outside the Great Wall, from the grasslands in the north of the Great Wall to the Gobi Desert, from Mount Everest to the Pamir Plateau, from the stormy sea to
The quiet and peaceful snow cave, although I am traveling, my life is still very luxurious.
After I turned eight, there was an additional boy in my dreams.
When I first saw him, he was lying under a tree and was beaten by a group of beggars. I saved him.
He was lying on the muddy ground and I looked down at him.
The lines of his face are both deep and soft, as perfect as carved from jade. His eyes are as beautiful as black agate stones, clearer and brighter than the sky after the rain. His childish face has a strange vicissitudes of life and evil.
Charming.
Although his clothes were in tatters and he was lying on the muddy ground, his demeanor was noble and arrogant, as evil and proud as the son of the devil.
He and I only met once in a dream. After that, only my father, mother, brother, Diao Erluotuo were left in my dream, but his eyes, those beautiful eyes like black agate stones, remained forever.
in my life.
Not only in dreams, but also during the day.
Yes, even in the daytime, I always feel that a pair of clear and beautiful eyes like agate stones pass through the fog, through the jungle of steel bars, and see through everything and fall into my heart.
Soon, I turned seventeen, and all my best friends around me had their crushes, or were in love, but I, I didn’t want to fall in love, because no one around me had such a pair of eyes.
In my dream when I was seventeen, I actually met him again.
In the dream, I didn't recognize him, or even his unique eyes, and my attitude towards him was very cold.
I'm very anxious during the day.
During the day, I looked in the mirror and said to myself, Qing'er, he is the boy you saved when you were a child. You must like him.
But, it's very sad.
When I fell asleep at night, I still couldn't remember who he was, and I was still very indifferent to him.
During the day, I looked at it sadly.
Watching the me named Ge'er, I walked away from him step by step and fell into the arms of another man. And he, the young man named Jue, gave up his wealth, power, and power for the "me" in the dream.
He gave up everything he owned for the sake of his health, but he didn't get a look back at the "I" in his dream.
During the day, I could only watch helplessly.
See him sad, see him hurt, see him sad and angry, see him bury all the pain in his heart.
During the day, I felt more and more sorry for Jue in my dream. I said to myself in the mirror countless times during the day: Qing'er, you have to like him! Don't fall in love with others, he has sacrificed so much for you! Please, please
!You must fall in love with him!
However, the singing at night cannot hear the call of Qing'er during the day.
She couldn't see everything Jue had done for her. There was only another young man in her eyes and heart.
Later, the young man whom "I" fell in love with in the dream died of a sudden illness. "I" was in pain and wanted to leave that sad place and start over.
Jue abandoned everything and chased after "me", wanting to leave with "me".
"I" told him that "I" just wanted to take the memory of the deceased boy, forget the past, start over, and never want to see him again.
During the day, I saw him standing by the river with a sad face, sending "me" away. I saw him suddenly running towards the river, stumbling after him, shouting: "Ge'er".
The sorrowful cry between heaven and earth was quickly swallowed up by the vast eyes. The "I" in the dream did not hear it, but it suppressed me during the day and I was in a trance and breathless.
No matter what I do, there is always that heartbreaking cry of "Ge'er" in my ears!
I hate it!
Hate the ruthlessness of me in the dream!
There was nothing I could do.
No matter how much I pity and love the boy named "Jue" during the day, in the dream I am still the cruel and heartless "Ge'er". The suffering, humiliation, blood and tears he suffered for Ge'er,
None of the songs in the dream could be seen.
I hate myself.
I hate that I can only dream, but I can't control my dreams.
In the dream, Ge'er left without saying "goodbye", and I will never see him again in this life.
He was disheartened and allowed his enemies to shoot arrows through his chest, and the blood dyed his clothes red, but there was no sadness in his eyes, only three parts tired, three parts bored, and four parts indifferent.
His body was swaying and he could not stand firmly. He fell backwards and his body fell into the water. He disappeared without a splash.
I woke up from my dream with a scream, my face was pale, my chest was throbbing, and I was dripping with cold sweat.
Ge'er in the dream had already left. She didn't know that the young man named Jue lost his life because of her refusal. If she was willing to take him away, even if she just let him follow her from a distance, he would not die!
She doesn't care if he dies, but I do.
My heart ached as if it had been crushed by a hand.
Panting heavily, I was barefoot and wearing pajamas, with my clothes disheveled and my hair disheveled. I ran out, rushed into the car, and sped away. The guard at home was so shocked by me that he couldn't speak and stayed there in a daze.
I rushed towards the Junjiang River in the north of Beijun City. I didn't know why I wanted to go there, in the middle of the night, in the dead of night.
However, when I was approaching Junjiang, I suddenly heard several gunshots. I was so shocked that my heart and mind ached and my soul was gone.
I suddenly understood.
Understand why I ran here desperately like a man possessed by a demon.
By the riverside, I stumbled out of the car and saw a young man in white staggering into the river, his chest a dazzling blood red.
"No!" I yelled in a toneless voice.
I rushed to the riverside and before I jumped down, my eldest brother Jun Feiye hugged me from behind. He was also wearing pajamas and slippers. He must have heard the guard's report and chased after me without even having time to take a breath.
Before the elder brother could tell him, four or five bodyguards behind him had already jumped into the river, and soon they caught a young man.
His eyes were tightly closed, and I couldn't see those agate-like eyes, but his body was still shaking violently, as if struck by lightning.
His face is clearly the Jue in my dream!
My whole body was cold and I rushed over to hug him, and put my trembling hands on his nose.
Fortunately, although his breath was weak, he was still alive.
The eldest brother frowned tightly and ordered his men to carry him up. I hugged him tightly and refused to let him go. The eldest brother coaxed me softly, "Be good, I will save him."
I held on to him as if I had lost my soul and refused to let go.
There was no other way, so my eldest brother could only hold me up and ordered his men to carry him and put us into the car.
Outside the operating room, I shivered into a ball, and my eldest brother had a question mark on his face, but he didn't know where to start.
I know what he wants to ask.
My daily necessities, food, clothing, shelter, transportation, food, drink, and sleep were all under his control. He was wondering how I could be so affectionate towards a young man of similar age, but he didn’t know this young man, and he didn’t even know his name or family.
The origin is unknown.
The operation was finally over. He was shot more than a dozen times in the chest, but he survived. It was an incredible miracle.
However, although he was not dead, he was no different from a disabled person. He had been lying in bed for half a year and was still too weak to get out of bed.
My father, mother, and four younger brothers all agreed that I, the most perfect daughter and the most perfect sister in their minds, was possessed.
I was so perfect, but I fell completely in love with a young man who was so sick that he couldn't even get out of bed.
Even that boy was just a good-for-nothing orphan. Because he sneaked into a wealthy family to steal, and the wealthy family happened to have a gang background, he was chased to the edge of the Junjiang River in the middle of the night and was knocked down into the river.
I don't care what others say, whether he is a thief or a robber, whether he is healthy or disabled, I will follow him for the rest of my life.
Just because his name is "Jue".
Just because he has a pair of eyes as beautiful and pure as black agate.
Just because, when he woke up from a coma and saw me, he called me "Ge'er" in a daze.
The moment I heard him call me Ge'er, I burst into tears.
I said to him, forgive me, forgive me for taking me a thousand years to understand your love, forgive me for making you wait for so long before you can hold my hand.
forgive me……
He just looked at me and smiled, his smile as gentle as the March sunshine.
I know, he understands.
He lay in bed for three years before he could get out of bed. I took care of him with barely any clothes on for three years, and his whole body became weak.
People around me looked at me like I was crazy, but I didn't care.
It doesn't matter, at least my parents, my brothers, they protect me, and they say that as long as I love them, they like them all.
However, the eldest brother always has some regrets. He said that it was all his fault. In the past, all those men were blocked from my door. I have seen too few men before I saw one who could even catch my eye.
, I jumped on it as if lifeless and wouldn't let go.
I pursed my lips and smiled.
You know, how difficult it is to get the sentence "that catches your eye" from the mouth of the eldest brother, at least it is the posture of a heavenly being.
After Jue's body gradually recovered, the people in Beijun City gradually saw the future son-in-law of the Jun family. Many people suddenly realized, as if they finally understood why I, the dignified eldest daughter of the Jun family, fell in love with a thief with a disgraceful identity.
Son.
They all thought that I was deceived by Jue's "beauty". After all, in the eyes of the world, few women can resist Jue's god-like appearance.
Whenever we hear these words, Jue and I just look at each other and smile.
The rumors are getting worse and worse, and most of them are accusing Jue of selling out her looks to gain my favor, and that she is a pretty boy who covets the Jun family's money.
Once, I finally couldn't help but ask him, do you mind?
Jue looked at me, smiled, and said, Ge'er, you know, I have loved you for thousands of years.
A year later, when my eldest brother took a magnifying glass and looked carefully from top to bottom, but could not find anything wrong with Jue, he finally reluctantly agreed to marry me to him.
Another year later, more than a dozen luxury cars belonging to a wealthy businessman in Asia drove to the door of Jun's house. A large number of bodyguards and servants stood on both sides of the door of Jun's house, saying they wanted to welcome their young master back.
The eldest brother waved his hand impatiently, "The young masters here are all named Jun, and there is no one you are looking for."
Jue walked out gracefully, her elegant steps were indescribably graceful and noble, and the brilliance flowed around, making people unable to look directly at her.
The two rows of servants and bodyguards standing outside the gate of Jun's house all bent down and called respectfully, "Master."
The eldest brother opened his mouth in surprise and couldn't close it for a long time.
Later, a legend began to spread in Beijun City.
The adopted son of Asia's richest man was killed by villains who were fighting for his property. He was thrown into a river and was rescued by the eldest daughter of the Jun family. The eldest daughter of the Jun family had a sharp eye for pearls. The two fell in love at first sight and formed an alliance together, which became a good story.
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The eldest brother also blinked and joked, Sister, I just realized that you are so powerful that you can actually see that the half-dead stone lying on the hospital bed is a peerless jade.
I smiled proudly and looked at Jue, who also looked at me with a gentle smile.
I squeezed his hand tightly, our eyes locked tightly.
They don't know that our love has lasted for thousands of years and will never be separated again until this life.
postscript:
Jue is a male protagonist written by a writer whom I admire very much.
He is the most heart-wrenching male protagonist of all the stories I have ever read.
I remember one time, I read a tragic article and cried for several hours. My eyes were swollen the next day, but I forgot about it after crying.
When I read Jue's story, I didn't shed a single tear, but I couldn't let go of it for a long time.
He gave too much and received too little.
His life had too much suffering and too little joy.
His life was a tragedy from beginning to end.
After reading it, I felt depressed and often thought that if I had the opportunity to communicate with Jue's stepmother, I would definitely hold her clothes and cry bitterly, begging her to at least not write Jue to death.
But, I don't have that chance, I don't know how to find that stepmother.
I thought that time would slowly fade away the depression in my heart, but I underestimated the stepmother's ability.
A long, long time has passed, but I still can't let it go, so I wrote this extra chapter.
I hope this will make me feel better. This is the helplessness of helplessness.
After I finished writing the extra chapter, I gave Jue the eldest daughter of the Jun family who is loved by all, so Jue should be happy, right?
Who is Jue?
I am very confused. I don’t know whether I should hope that you will have the opportunity to know Jue. The feeling of feeling sorry for Jue is really uncomfortable, very painful and uncomfortable.
Let me make an agreement with you. Maybe one day, maybe a few days, maybe a few years, maybe more than ten years later, you will get to know Jue. Maybe you will sigh in surprise, oh, it turns out this is Jue!
Until then, maybe this excerpt can give you some comfort.
Like me, you will hide your ears and deceive yourself and others by saying, Alas! Well, at least Jue will be happy after a thousand years!
