The past between Lou Xi, Lou Yi, and Lou Rui will give you 500 words for a gold medal
"Story?" Shu Rao murmured and repeated, the two simple words lingering on the tip of his tongue. Before he said it, she seemed to have already felt the sad taste, even a little lingering.
Lou Yi nodded lightly. He had a lot to say, but he didn't know where to start. He turned and looked at the emergency room. Grandpa was out of danger. The medical staff were about to push him to the ward. Grandpa hadn't woken up yet.
, the wrinkles between the eyebrows are so deep.
Looking at that old and melancholy face, his heart was once again filled with guilt. He took a deep breath and then managed to suppress the emotion in his heart, holding Shu Rao's hand to the end of the corridor.
I sat down and took out my wallet. There was a photo in the mezzanine, which was a family photo of a happy family of five.
Lou Yicheng and Han Fengyi were sitting, with him and Lou Xi standing behind them. Between the two brothers, stood a girl in a white skirt.
The girl was about the same age as them, in her prime, seventeen or eighteen years old, with long hair draped smoothly on her shoulders, reflecting her delicate and flawless facial features, and her dark eyes, shining with light, comparable to
The most beautiful gem in the world, her pink lips are slightly pursed, but the corners of her mouth are slightly raised, and her smile is so beautiful.
Lou Rui?
Shu Rao guessed the girl's identity without much thought.
Lou Yi looked at the photo, and suddenly had a feeling like a sea of change. Perhaps, everything should start from this photo.
"This was taken when Lou Xi and I were eighteen years old. The girl in the photo is called Lou Rui. She is half a year younger than Lou Xi and I. Her mother and my mother are good friends. She suffered a difficult birth when Rui Rui was born.
Ruirui died, Ruirui's father was in the same army as my father, and unfortunately died later. Ruirui became an orphan and was adopted by the Lou family. She is Lou Xi and I's sister."
"Although we are not biological brothers and sisters, the three of us grew up together and have always had a good relationship. Ruirui is the princess in the compound. Everyone likes her. She is beautiful, has good grades, can draw, play the piano, and
When she dances ballet, boys will chase her wherever she goes. Lou Xi and I are her guardians."
"When we were eighteen years old, Lou Xi and I were going to join the army. After joining the army and entering the military camp, we were no longer boys, but men. So my parents wanted to settle one thing before we joined the army.
That means getting me engaged to Ruirui."
"When my mother was pregnant, Ruirui's mother was also pregnant, so the two of us agreed to get married. At that time, my mother didn't know she was pregnant with twins, so Ruirui and I got married on the fingertips.
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"I think it's sudden to suddenly change from sister to fiancée, but it's not unacceptable. Anyway, our relationship has been very good since we were young. Ruirui also feels it's sudden, but she thinks the same as me, so we are very happy.
We will get engaged soon, and we will finalize our fate before enlisting in the army."
"Three days after the engagement ceremony, Lou Xi and I joined the army. We were new recruits, and my grandfather and father wanted us to exercise well, so we didn't use any connections. It was all based on the random assignment of the army. I was assigned to the J Military Region.
And Lou Xi was assigned to the L military region, and the recruit company is in Tibet."
"Obviously, Lou Xi had bad luck. After the results came out, the whole family was shocked, including Lou Xi himself. However, the military orders were overwhelming, and he could not back down, so he resolutely went to Tibet. And I was assigned as a recruit.
Company, just in the outer suburbs of Beijing."
"Lou Xi and I went to the army respectively. New recruits don't have holidays, but because I am relatively close to home, my mother and Ruirui can often visit the army to see me. During the holidays, they will ask if there is anything delicious at home.
They will send it to me. Sometimes my mother is busy with work and has no time, so Ruirui goes alone."
"And Lou Xi is far away in Tibet. The transportation at that time was not as developed as it is now, and it is a plateau with an altitude of several thousand meters. It is not easy to go there. Even the parcels mailed there take a long time to reach the company.
The weather was bad and it was inconvenient to make phone calls, so he had very little contact with his family."
"Things like that lasted for two years. During those two years, Ruirui often went to the army to see me, but from once a month at first, it slowly became once every two months, and then once every three months, and then once every six months.
Once, she went to see me less and less often, the time she stayed became shorter and shorter, and she spoke less and less. Every time, she seemed in a trance and absent-minded. I didn’t know what was wrong with her at first, but
Then one day, she suddenly told me that she was going to Tibet to see Lou Xi."
"I later discovered that the person Ruirui missed was Lou Xi all the time during those two years. In that era when communications were not very developed, Ruirui tried every means to contact Lou Xi and wrote letters.
Sending emails, chatting on QQ... while she was busy with that, she only had Lou Xi in her heart and completely forgot about my existence."
"Maybe it's because Lou Xi walked far away and the sense of distance gave her an illusion. Maybe the person she likes has always been Lou Xi. It's just because the three of us were together all day long and couldn't tell them apart. But suddenly time and space
They were both pulled apart, and in her heart, which one held more weight was reflected."
"Of course I will not agree to her going to Tibet. Firstly, it is because she has never traveled far alone. Secondly, we have been engaged for two years and I no longer regard her as just a sister. There is no way I will let her go.
I was looking for Lou Xi, but I was in the army, so I couldn’t possibly keep an eye on her. On the second day of her winter vacation, my mother called me and said that Ruirui and her classmates were traveling in a group, but I knew that she
I went to Tibet to see Lou Xi."
"I don't know whether to be angry or sad. Ruirui has been well-behaved since she was a child, but she actually deceived her parents in order to go to Tibet to see Lou Xi. That was the first time she lied and the first time she traveled far alone. I know
, her feelings for Lou Xi are beyond control."
"I didn't tell my family about Ruirui going to Tibet. I don't know what my parents would do if they knew about it. I don't know what Ruirui would say when she went to see Lou Xi, let alone what Lou Xi would say after seeing her.
Reaction."
"I'm very worried. I'm worried about how the engagement will be calculated if the two of them are in love. When Ruirui and I got engaged, although the ceremony was simple, we notified all the relatives and people in the compound.
We all participated, how could the Lou family allow the regret of the marriage to happen? And the brothers were involved? "
"After suffering day by day, I finally waited for the news that Ruirui was back, and Lou Xi was also back with him. I felt that all my worries were coming true. I don't know what the relationship between the three of us is.
How should we face each other? But to my surprise, Ruirui was depressed when she came back."
"I know that Lou Xi rejected her. Although he returned to Beijing with her, it was not for Ruirui, but because he was going to the United States. The recruit company where Lou Xi is located has the most difficult conditions in the country.
The requirements for physical fitness are also the highest. The L Military Region selects young recruits to study at the U.S. Military Academy at West Point. The first phase lasts for one year, and the rest will be determined after an assessment. Lou Xi was selected."
"It was already the end of the New Year, and I had a rare vacation, so I went home. That night, a group of buddies in the compound and I practiced for Lou Xi. Of course Ruirui also went, and we booked it.
A bar where you can have a good drink.”
"During the process, I saw that Ruirui was very disappointed. Lou Xi had been in Tibet for two years, and she had already lost her soul. She had gone to many places to confess her love, but was rejected. Lou Xi was going further away to the United States, and he didn't know how long he would go.
You know, you can imagine her mood, sitting in the corner dejectedly."
"I wanted to comfort her, but I didn't know what I could say. I saw her eyes following Lou Xi. It was impossible for Lou Xi not to know about such a strong gaze, but he pretended not to see it. I knew
He was hiding it in front of me. I don’t know what he was thinking, or whether he rejected Ruirui because he was concerned about my feelings.”
"The feeling of betrayal, suspicion, but no way to vent, filled my chest. I drank with everyone, and everyone was drunk. I was also drunk for the first time in my life."
"Ruirui is also drunk..."
When Lou Yi said this, he suddenly stopped talking. His deep black eyes were like ink, but there was no light at all. It was like after a meteor fell, all the light was dim and no trace could be found.
Shu Rao was slightly dazed, hesitated for a moment, and then slowly walked out of his story. According to common sense, it should be that night that they had a heart.
She had made many guesses about Xinxin's mother, but she never imagined that he and Lou Rui had such a past. It was supposed to be a beautiful marriage, but everything changed unknowingly.
, even the existence of Xinxin has become less joyful.
She had no position to speak about his past, but she felt sorry for this man.
He was his fiancée on one side and his biological brother on the other. He could neither advance nor retreat, so he had no choice but to use alcohol to anesthetize himself, but this happened to be a mistake.
Lou Yi fell silent, his eyes fell on the photo, but there was no focus in his eyes, and he was in a daze. Looking back suddenly, everything was broken.
After a long pause, he continued, "Ruirui soon found out that she was pregnant, but at that time we were not of legal age, so we were not married. The person Ruirui liked was Lou Xi, there is no doubt about it.
, but because of Xinxin’s existence, it is no longer possible for her to be with Lou Xi.”
"When Ruirui was pregnant with her heart, she was not yet twenty years old. She was still a college student. Facing unsatisfactory relationships and academic pressure, she could hardly bear it. Fortunately, we were engaged long ago, so we didn't have to worry about it.
There were some rumors, but she was still depressed. She dropped out of school when she was five months pregnant and stayed at home all day without leaving the door."
"I was still in the army at that time. I had finished my two-year recruitment phase and became even busier. When Xinxin was born, I was not able to catch up. I don't know how I survived those long ten months.
Yes, it is true that I am busy in the army, but I don’t have any chance to go home. But I have never asked for leave, because I don’t know how I will face it when I go back. It was not until the day when my heart was full moon that I went back
At home, my mother told me that Ruirui suffered from postpartum depression."
"I saw Ruirui lying on the bed. She was indifferent to Xinxin's crying. It took her a long time to react. She was busy trying to comfort Xinxin, but she couldn't figure it out. When I saw her like that, I couldn't help but feel so sad. I knew she was
There was no way to take good care of my heart, so after I returned to the army the next day, I submitted an application for transfer. Of course, the leader did not approve it. After I was scolded bloody, I still insisted on giving up the opportunity to join the special forces. The leader gave me
I have arranged another relatively leisurely job so that I can go home often to take care of my heart."
"At the same time, Ruirui also began to receive treatment, but the progress was very slow, while Xinxin grew up day by day. In the blink of an eye, Xinxin was a hundred days old. One weekend, there was a banquet at home, and my father was in the army and could not make it back.
The full moon wine was hosted by Grandpa himself, and the neighbors in the compound also joined in. On the one hand, it was to celebrate Xin Xin's 100th anniversary, and on the other hand, it was also a blessing for Lou Xi, who successfully completed the first phase of West Point Military Academy, and
He passed the second period of further study assessment, and the second period lasts for three years, which means that the next time he comes back, it will be three years later."
"After Lou Xi went to the United States, he had no contact with his family for a year because of the need for closed management. When he came back and saw Xin Xin, he was naturally shocked. Faced with his surprise, Ruirui collapsed. When Lou Xi went to the United States,
, left in a hurry, so I don’t know what he thought about Ruirui, and he couldn’t stay for a few days after he came back before he had to leave again. Ruirui had a lot to say to him, and I didn’t stop him.
Halfway through the meal, they left the table one after another and went outside."
"I think they really need to have a good talk. If everyone can accept it, then I can propose to terminate the engagement. Even if the family will be turned upside down, it is better than the three of us being awkward all our lives. However, I did not expect that the two of them would
After we went out... there was a car accident."
Car accident!
Shu Rao's heart suddenly tightened again. It turned out that Xinxin's mother also died in the car accident.
Lou Yi rubbed his eyebrows, as if he was very tired, swallowed the sourness in his heart, and continued, "When the family received the news, Lou Xi and Ruirui had already been sent to the hospital. Lou Xi
She was seriously injured, but Ruirui died on the way. Xinxin seemed to be telepathic, crying so hard that no one could coax her. She even cried so much that she could no longer breathe, so my mother had to take her.
The closest children's hospital to home was, and I went to the funeral home, and grandpa went to the hospital to see Lou Xi."
"I arrived at the funeral home and saw that the ambulance had already parked at the door. Ruirui was dead in the car. The staff asked me to identify the body, sign the signature, etc. I was completely numb at the time and had no idea what I was doing.
, I would do whatever they asked me to do, but I was like a puppet, my mind was empty and I couldn’t think at all. The only thing I could think of was self-blame. I was thinking, if it weren’t for me, Ruirui wouldn’t have
There will be so much pain, there will be no car accident, there will be no death... everything is caused by me."
"I dealt with some of Ruirui's funeral affairs in a daze, and was about to go to Lou Xi's place for a visit. Suddenly I received a call from the children's hospital. Xinxin had acute laryngitis, which caused laryngeal obstruction and was life-threatening. My mother
I couldn't hold on under the double blow, so I rushed to the children's hospital again, but luckily I felt fine."
"But I didn't know that my grandfather had already handled all the matters related to the car accident at Lou Xi's side. When my mother, my mother, and my father who arrived later arrived at the hospital, my grandfather only told us that Lou Xi was seriously injured, and
When the car that collided with it rushed down the viaduct, the owner jumped out of the car in time, but the car was destroyed and no one was seriously injured."
"At that time, Lou Xi was seriously injured. We were just worried and didn't think much about it. We didn't even think that grandpa would deceive us. We rushed to the door of the emergency room and waited all night before the doctor opened the door and told us
Our Lou Xi’s ribs, thoracic vertebrae, humerus, and tibia were injured to varying degrees, and he will have to stay in the hospital for at least half a year. Although it is lucky for him to survive, he has no way to go to the United States again."
"After Lou Xi woke up, he asked me how Ruirui was doing. I could only shake my head. He suddenly became very depressed and rarely spoke in that six months."
"I don't know how to face him. I feel that I broke up him and Ruirui. If it weren't for me, nothing would have happened, Ruirui would not have died, and Lou Xi would not have lost his chance to continue studying at West Point Military Academy.
Opportunity, I felt very painful and depressed, so I left Beijing for a while and went to Yunchuan. At the Military Medical University, Xingchen and I met once, and it was precisely because of the time I scolded Xingchen that I
I suddenly realized that escaping was not the solution to the problem at all. I couldn't calm down and it would only affect more innocent people, so I immediately packed my bags and returned to Beijing."
"Later, Lou Xi could be discharged from the hospital. My father originally wanted him to stay in Beijing J Military Region, but he went to Yunchuan without hesitation. Our two brothers ran away from home one after another, which completely angered my father. Moreover, Lou Xi was
Although his physical condition meets the standard in all indicators, he is risking his life by joining the special forces, but he insists on going his own way and no one can stop him. So many years have passed in a flash."
Lou Yi's memories ended and he returned to reality. On the side, Shu Rao's eyes were moist, filled with everyone's sadness.
Lou Yi looked at her, his eyes still a little erratic, "Back then, in the face of the heart that was waiting for food, and in the face of Lou Xi who never looked back, no one had the heart to mention the car accident. If it weren't for Grandpa and Xingchen today,
We met, if you hadn't told me that Xingchen's parents also died in a car accident, I'm afraid I would never know the truth about that year."
After a pause, he added self-deprecatingly, "I am really a sinner, and now I have added one more thing. If it weren't for me, none of the things would have happened, there would not have been a car accident, Ruirui would not have died, and Lou Xi would not have gone to Yunnan."
Chuan, he will not know Xingchen, nor will he become like this."
"No! It's not like that!" Shu Rao couldn't help but shake his head, denying his self-pity. This matter was a tragedy from beginning to end. No one thought that he didn't have to feel so guilty and torture himself like this.
After the car accident, he picked himself up again, worked actively in the army, and took care of his heart at home. He seemed to be very strong, but she knew that behind this man's strength, there was too much sadness and pain.
But he had no way to express his sadness and pain. He could only hide all his grief in his heart. Even his parents didn't know about the emotional entanglement between him, Lou Rui and Lou Xi, and everything he had endured.
, no one knows.
"Lou Yi, I don't blame you, I really don't blame you!" Shu Rao held his hand hard, raised his eyes, and suddenly found a familiar figure at the corner of the corridor.