"Lou Xi, it's a pity that we can never meet again, but I don't feel sad that I can die here. This is the highest and purest place in the world. This is the place where you first let go of your dreams. My soul cannot
I will be lonely. Thousands of words are not enough to express my heart. In the end, I just want to say that I don’t regret meeting you in this life. If there is another life, I still want to be with you."
"Uncle, I'm sorry. I have to go ahead and accompany my parents. Don't be sad and live a good life. You are not young anymore. Find me an aunt. I must be happy!"
"Rao Rao, I'm so sorry. I can't watch you wear a wedding dress as a bride, but I know this time is different. Lou Yi will definitely make you happy. I wish you both a long life together."
"Sisi, my baby, mommy loves you so much. You must be good, listen to daddy, and grow up healthily and happily! Mommy is leaving now and will go to heaven to accompany your little brother or sister who didn't have time to be born. I hope that in the next life
, you can all be my children again..."
In a daze, she seemed to see a pair of angel wings.
…
Three hours have passed, but the rescue vehicle has not come. The body of the car is almost unable to bear it. The outside of the car is covered with ice and snow, and the inside of the car is sealed. It is a plateau. The feeling of hypoxia is getting stronger and stronger. It is also freezing and snowy, and the temperature is very high.
It was so cold, my whole body was frozen into ice, my eyelids were getting heavier and heavier, and my limbs couldn't control their movements.
The phone gently slipped from the palm of my hand.
Then, she started to dream, dreaming about many people, including her parents, Lou Xi, Sisi, uncle, Rao Rao... the People's Liberation Army, doctors, and many more...
Can't tell the difference between false and false, can't tell true from false.
Finally, I dreamed of a pair of gray-haired husband and wife, one was Yue Lao and the other was Po Meng.
They said that they were once lovers, but later, one fell in love and the other fell out of love.
Whether it is calamity or fate, it only takes a thought.
"Star!" Suddenly, someone called her name.
The deep male voice was like a thunder, waking her up instantly from her wandering dream. She tried to open her eyes, but she couldn't lift her heavy eyelids.
She thought she was still in a dream, but a pair of big warm hands suddenly hugged her. The familiar strength and warmth made her body tremble uncontrollably.
His teeth were trembling with cold, and he couldn't speak. He could only choke out his name in his throat, "Lou Xi..."
"Xingchen, don't be afraid, I'm coming!"
His voice was still so low and cold, but it gave her an endless sense of security. In the chaos of consciousness, her whole heart settled down.
In this world, it seemed that he was the only one who had the power to truly and profoundly shake her whole heart.
Falling into that warm embrace, she seemed to be reborn. The warmth encouraged her, and she used the last strength of her body to gather together. She opened her eyes hard, her eyelashes trembled, and bright light penetrated her pupils bit by bit.
The sudden light made her feel dazzling, but a familiar figure pressed down on her face, and that familiar handsome face came into her eyes.
"It's really you..." She was so surprised that she couldn't even believe it. She wanted to stretch out her hand to find out, but she didn't have any strength in her body. She couldn't lift her arms and her fingertips were numb.
She could only open her eyes hard and blink again and again, but he was really there, always there, tall and straight, like a mountain, warm and graceful, like flowing water, giving her a safe and gentle feeling.
Sanmao once said: Only when we go step by step, go in a down-to-earth manner, and never resist the burden that life gives us, will we be a brave man. At the moment when we suddenly look back, life will definitely give us a fair answer and another chance.
I felt so happy that the mountains and water at that time were mountains and water again, and life had passed. What a beautiful autumn it was.
The years are changing, life is wandering, live modestly, meekly and openly, not trapped in the past, not confused by today, not afraid of the future, the meaning of life lies in the present.
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The rescue vehicle came and pulled out the car that was stuck in the snow pit. Almost all the people in the car were frozen. They were all transferred to ambulances and sent to the nearest hospital.
Ye Xingchen knew that the nearest hospital was in Gyantse County, hundreds of kilometers away. Perhaps, when she got to the hospital, she might be frozen into ice, but she was not afraid at all because he was there.
Being held in his arms, her head was still dizzy and she wanted to sleep, but she couldn't bear to sleep. She lay on his warm chest, feeling his rising and falling breathing, and cried and laughed.
"You still dare to laugh? Ye Xingchen, when you get better, I will give you a beating!" Lou Xi said angrily, but his arms hugged her tightly with pity.
The corners of Ye Xingchen's frozen mouth slowly revealed a deeper smile, yes, this is really him!
Lou Xi is domineering yet gentle!
After arriving at the hospital, Lou Xi carried Ye Xingchen into a ward. He laid her down on the bed, then took off his clothes, covered her, and used his body to keep her warm.
Her body temperature gradually recovered and her body was no longer stiff. He felt the softness, but he still did not dare to let go of her, for fear that if he was not careful, she would disappear again.
Holding her in his arms and feeling her breath warm him again, he truly knew that she was okay.
At this moment, his heart finally calmed down.
The close-fitting military lining was already soaked with sweat. From Beijing, to Yunchuan, to Lhasa, and then to Shigatse, I traveled back and forth for dozens of hours, walked through more than half of China, and walked through thousands of rivers and mountains.
, he could finally be sure that she was still there, in his arms.
He barely remembers how he spent the past dozens of hours. He doesn't remember his shock when he heard about the car accident in the hospital. He doesn't remember how embarrassed he was standing on the train all day and night. He doesn't remember his arrival in Lhasa.
Finally, he almost "robbed" and "threatened" the driver of a van to take him to the hospital she supported. He didn't remember his disappointment when he found her empty when he got there. He only remembered that when he heard that
When I was told about the avalanche, a chill shot up from the soles of my feet, cold sweat oozed from my forehead, and the shirt on my back was instantly soaked, as if I had fallen into an ice cellar.
But now, he is no longer cold, but there is a fire burning in his chest. She was so stupid that she came to Tibet alone and almost killed herself! This fool! The fool who made him feel distressed but also made him angry.
!
"Ye Xingchen!" He raised his hand and gently lifted her chin, kissed her pale and bloodless lips hard, very hard, as if venting the anger in his heart, and...
Fear.
Ye Xingchen almost suffocated from his kiss, but she was still attached to his breath and hugged him tightly, unwilling to let go.
Lou Xi's heart softened, and he wanted to just hold her quietly and be gentle, but there was something he had to tell her clearly.
"Lie down!" He pushed her down domineeringly, put his hands on her shoulders, looked at her with burning eyes, and said seriously, "I am responsible for the car accident, but the person who drove the car that night was not
I."
Ye Xingchen suddenly opened his eyes wide.
"That's..." she asked quietly, but she already had a vague answer in her heart.
Lou Xi's eyes slowly dimmed, and he said seriously, "Ruirui."
There is a kind of pain that has been lingering in my heart for many years. I have deliberately avoided it for a long time, but I still can't forget it.
"Ruirui grew up with Lou Yi and me. Our childhood was very happy. Until that year before Lou Yi and I enlisted in the army, my parents proposed that Lou Yi and Ruirui get engaged. Lou Yi and Ruirui were fingertips.
For marriage, although the Lou family has been raising Ruirui as their daughter over the years, our parents have already agreed, so my parents still mentioned this matter, thinking that if Lou Yi and Ruirui agree, then they can kiss
If they didn't agree, they would maintain the original brother-sister relationship. Since Lou Yi and Ruirui's relationship had always been very good, neither of them objected, so they quickly got engaged. Three days later, I and Ruirui
Lou Yi went to the army separately and each started two years of experience in the new recruit company."
"But in those two years, Ruirui's state of mind began to change. I never knew or thought that she would like me. Maybe even she couldn't think of it. But it happened. That year she
I was shocked when she suddenly came to Tibet to find me, but I thought she was just obsessed with me for a moment. At the age when she was just starting to fall in love, she couldn't tell the difference between family affection and love. I think she was just not used to it because I suddenly left her side.
"
"At that time, I was selected to study at the U.S. Military Academy at West Point. I had a short vacation before leaving, so I went back to Beijing with her. Ruirui's trip to Tibet was hidden from her family. When we got off the train, I
I deliberately asked her to leave first, and I delayed for several hours before entering the house. After returning home, I didn't tell my family that she was looking for me. I didn't know if Lou Yi knew about it, so I avoided him.
I also avoided Ruirui because I really didn’t know how to face them, so I even avoided them when eating."
"On the eve of going to the United States, a group of buddies in the compound practiced it for me. A large group of us booked a bar and partyed all night. I was afraid that Ruirui would say something to me again, so I drank a lot on purpose. At that time, everyone
You are young and energetic, and you can't drink too much. When you get drunk, you will find a private room to sleep in, and I will do the same."
"The next morning, I almost missed the plane. It was Lou Yi who woke me up. I hurried to the airport and flew to the United States to start my one-year study. West Point Military Academy is indeed well-deserved. I spent a minute there.
I don’t dare to slack off, they implement a completely closed management, I haven’t contacted my family for a year, and I haven’t even made a phone call.”
"One year later, I successfully passed the assessment and won the opportunity to study in the second period. The second period lasted for three years. I had a week's holiday. Excluding the round-trip flight time, it was actually only four or five days. I took the time.
Back to Beijing."
"When I got home, what greeted me was a grand scene, because that day everyone was not only celebrating my 100th anniversary, but also celebrating Xinxin's 100th day. I was really frightened when I saw Ruirui holding Xinxin in her arms.
One year later, Ruirui became a mother! But she doesn’t look happy.”
"Halfway through the meal, Ruirui suddenly left the table. I knew she had something to say to me. Although I struggled, I went, but when I went out, Ruirui had already disappeared. I chased her out.
In the compound, I found Ruirui getting into my car parked at the door. I had driven that car before I went to the United States. It had not been driven for a year. After I came back, I drove it for a spin and found that there was something wrong with the brakes, so I stopped.
We were at the door, thinking about repairing it the next day, but Ruirui actually drove away and rushed out of the alley."
"I was worried that something might happen to her, so I quickly chased after her, jumped into the car from behind, then opened the passenger door sideways and got in, trying to ask her to stop. But Ruirui was in a bad mood that day, and she drank too much that night.
She didn't listen to me at all. I wanted to take the steering wheel by force, but she suddenly said to me..."
"A year ago, the night before I went to the United States, she got drunk at the bar like everyone else, and then found a private room to sleep. But as soon as she entered the private room and found me lying there, she walked over and immediately
She hugged me tightly... But after one night, she woke up in the morning and found that the person next to her was not me, but Lou Yi. In other words, she recognized the wrong person when she was drunk, and she later became pregnant. "
"When she was talking about that episode, she was very emotional and cried so hard that she couldn't bear to cry. I was also shocked. I couldn't react for a long time because I found that I had completely underestimated her feelings for me. When she went all the way to Tibet to find her...
When I was away, I just thought she was naive and willful. I thought she was just not used to me leaving her. I felt that if Lou Yi left instead, she would definitely trek a long way to find Lou Yi, so I didn't
I took her confession to heart, and I completely regarded her as an ignorant child, but I didn't expect that that night in the bar, she, who had always been well-behaved, would be so courageous, but she was drunk and recognized the wrong person.
I even had a heart, but her persistence and courage made it even more difficult for me to face the reality. I felt even more sorry for Lou Yi. I dare not think about what he would do if he knew that Ruirui admitted the wrong person that night.
Sample."
"And just when I was distracted, a car accident happened..."
"I didn't even see clearly how the two cars collided. I subconsciously shouted for the brakes, but I suddenly realized that the brakes were broken. I quickly reached out to control the steering wheel, but it was too late. The car rushed off the viaduct."
"After falling, I used my remaining consciousness and physical strength to drag Ruirui out of the car. A few seconds later, the car exploded, and I followed without knowing anything else."
"After I woke up, it was already more than ten hours later. I was lying in the hospital, wrapped up like a mummy. I asked Lou Yi Ruirui how he was, but he didn't speak and just shook his head."
"I'm very sad and blame myself. I feel that everything is my fault. If it hadn't been for me, Ruirui would not have doubted her feelings, would not have used alcohol to drown her sorrows, would not have admitted the wrong person, and would not have given birth.
If Xinxin suffers from postpartum depression, she will not die."
"When I saw her heart, which was only a hundred days old, I felt so uncomfortable that I wanted to die. I saw Lou Yi hugging her with mixed feelings. I felt like a sinner."
"During the six months I was recovering in the hospital, I hardly talked to anyone, especially because I didn't dare to face my family, Lou Yi, or my heart. After I recovered from my injury, I decided to leave Beijing because I really I don’t know how to stay in that home.”
"At that time, I had just recovered from a serious injury and insisted on going to Yunchuan, which aroused strong opposition from my family. My father even wanted to sever the father-son relationship with me because he knew that with my physical condition at the time, joining the special forces was almost risking my life, but I didn't care. Not that much, I felt that if I continued to stay at home and stay in Beijing, I would be worse off than dead, so I left resolutely."
"When I left Beijing, Jing Sa left with me, but she didn't know why I left. Early in the morning when I left home, before dawn, I even heard the sound in the wing room There was a cry from the bottom of my heart. It was the first time since the car accident that I cried, and I left home with wet eyes."
"I was actually very fragile at the time, so when Jing Sa followed me, I didn't refuse. But as soon as the train started, I regretted letting her go with me, because I knew I was using her for myself. It gives me more courage, but I know better that she won’t change her mind easily, so I let her, and I know that Jing Sa is also a persistent person, unless she figures it out herself, it’s useless for anyone to say anything.”
"Since then, no one has the heart to mention the car accident, so that everyone thought I was the one driving the car that night. I didn't expect that there were other people killed in the car accident... let alone that they were your parents... …”
At this point, Lou Xi's words came to an abrupt end. He couldn't go on. He didn't know whether he should be sad or grateful about this fact. Fortunately, he was not the one driving the car that night, but after all, it was two lives and her last life. Beloved parents.
Ye Xingchen finally couldn't help crying and burst into tears. After experiencing painful struggles, experiencing life and death, and then learning the real truth from his mouth, all the emotions came rushing in and gathered in her heart, making her unable to say a word. When I came out, I could only vent through tears.
But there was a bright light shining in those tears, and she felt for the first time that crying could also make people feel happy.