The tone was soft, but it was like a huge stone hitting his heart. At that moment, he was so painful that he couldn't even hold her tightly...
Her heart throbbed with pain, and her words were like a curse, cursing them that they would never have children in their lives...
Gu Tingchuan could only let himself hold her tightly, hugging her cold body tightly, and whispered, "I don't allow you to say that, don't say that!"
He knew that she was in pain and she was also sad...
But she cursed them with harsh words, and cursed herself with ridicule and a pretended to be relaxed...
Gu Tingchuan held her tightly in his arms. Although he held her so tightly, he could not feel any dependence on her. If she had leaned on his shoulders in the past, her body would have softened little by little in his arms.
Come down...
But today, she was like a piece of ice, sitting there stiffly, silent, expressionless, like a puppet without a soul.
Suddenly, she pushed him away gently and said calmly, "You go, I'm tired."
That tone pushed him thousands of miles away...
Gu Tingchuan watched her huddle under the quilt, closing her eyes and refusing to look at him. Her pale face made people feel distressed.
"I feel more uncomfortable losing this child than you do. It was my fault that caused you to be hurt. Haiyao, I don't ask you to forgive me, but you don't want to resent yourself as well."
She still didn't respond. Gu Tingchuan sighed. He knew she could hear him, but he just didn't want to pay attention.
He stood up and said, "I'll ask Aunt Zhang to come and take care of you."
After finishing speaking, he turned around and walked away.
*****
Haiyao's injury required her to be temporarily hospitalized, and her hands were inconvenient, so Aunt Zhang has been taking care of her these days.
And Gu Tingchuan never appeared...
If Aunt Zhang wanted to mention him, she would stop him immediately, so Aunt Zhang had no choice but to stop mentioning Gu Tingchuan's name.
She didn't see him for several days.
She didn't know where he had gone, and she didn't want to know, but she was still a little disappointed deep in her heart.
The nurse asked, "Where is your husband? When he came to the hospital with you in his arms that day, he looked so nervous. He called for doctor in such a loud voice that the whole hospital could hear it."
Hai Yao smiled bitterly, "He is very busy."
"No matter how busy I am, I should come see you. You just lost your child, and why isn't he with you? I think he was quite nervous about you that day?"
Facing the nurse's words, Haiyao's lips curved into a bitter smile.
She has no weight in his heart at all, she is just a flag to be used by him. Maybe his desire to have a child has something to do with using her...
My body is getting better day by day, but there seems to be an empty space in my heart.
She occasionally thinks of the child in her belly. If he was still there, would she be willing to give birth to it?
Haiyao wanted to see those cute babies. When she came to the baby bathing area, she saw Gu Tingchuan standing at the glass window, watching for a moment the nurse inside bathing the babies and putting them in the water.
Baby swimming.
There was a painful smile on his lips, if his baby was still there...
As if aware of her gaze, he looked towards her, their eyes met, but Hai Yao immediately looked away and turned to leave.
Watching her leave step by step, he did not catch up with her in the end.
Until she disappeared around the corner and his dark eyes were filled with a layer of loss, she still blamed him.
Naturally, she wouldn't know that he would sit downstairs in the hospital every late night, and he would sit there until dawn...
Every time he walked to the door of her ward, he heard her muffled cough, and heard her stopping Aunt Zhang from mentioning him. His footsteps always hesitated at the door, and in the end he did not go in...
On the day Haiyao was discharged from the hospital, Aunt Zhang helped her out of the hospital when she saw Gu Tingchuan's car parked outside.
And he was leaning on the side of the car, holding a cigarette in his hand. When he saw them coming out, he immediately put out the cigarette in his hand, walked up and took the luggage from Aunt Zhang's hand, and then took the things in her hand, "Come, I
Help you get it, you can't carry heavy things at this time."
He reached out to take it, but Hai Yao avoided it and walked around him expressionlessly to leave.
She walked very fast and went out to catch a taxi.
Aunt Zhang hurriedly took the things from Gu Tingchuan's hands and urged, "Hurry up and chase me. Why are you just standing here?"
When Gu Tingchuan heard this, he caught up with her in two or three steps. When he saw her about to get into the taxi, he hurried forward and grabbed the taxi door. Then he bent down and said apologetically to the driver, "Master, I'm not leaving."
After finishing speaking, close the door.
Hai Yao watched helplessly as the taxi she finally stopped stopped just left. She felt angry but refused to pay attention to him. She stepped forward and stretched out her hand to stop the taxi again.
Gu Tingchuan came to her and said, "Okay, let's go home and stop making trouble, okay?"
He took the luggage from her hand and reached out to pull her, but Hai Yao moved his hand away.
Facing her silent neglect and indifference, Gu Tingchuan felt defeated.
"Lu Haiyao, what do you want from me?"
"I have said my apology many times. As long as you go back, I will make it up to you. If you are angry and don't want to see me, okay, I won't bother you. I would rather stay downstairs silently. Tell me, you still want to
What should I do to forgive me and pay attention to me? Can you talk to me? Is it okay to be kept silent like this?"
Seeing that she still ignored him, he sighed helplessly, grabbed her hand, squeezed it tightly, and said helplessly, "Wife, don't do this, okay?"
"You talk to me?"
"You can hit me and scold me, but don't do this and don't say a word to me."
"Haiyao..."
His voice was almost hoarse. How could he feel better these days?
She feels uncomfortable, he knows...
Does she know how uncomfortable he is?
That was their common child. He also felt that a hole had been dug out of his heart. Coupled with her resentment towards him, he couldn't calm down and think about anything these days. He only thought that if she could forgive him...
…
As long as she can ignore him, he is willing to do anything.
Lu Haiyao lowered her eyes and didn't want to look at him any more. She stretched out her hand to pry his hand away, but was suddenly pulled over by him and held tightly by him.
As if afraid that she will disappear...
He hugged her tightly, wishing he could rub her into his body. His low voice was filled with a strong sense of guilt, "You can hit me, you can punish me in any way, but don't ignore me."
"I am as heartbroken as you are about losing this child. Wife, can we go home? Come home with me."
When she heard that he said he was going home, her eyes were red from the wind and hurt, so tears appeared.
He gave her a home...
A home so warm that she wants to rely on it...
But he cruelly let her know that it was not home, it was just a trap, a beautiful trap with the name of 'home'.
She doesn't know when this man is being nice to her out of deliberate intention, and when is he sincere?
He was good to her for a purpose.
Hai Yao endured the pain in her heart and finally said her first words to him in so many days, "Gu Tingchuan, let me go. I want to be alone, don't force me."
That sentence, "Don't force me," made him choke with tears.
She pushed him away gently, never looking at him, turned around and walked away...
Her back gradually fades away...
Until it became blurry before his eyes.
******
Haiyao didn't want to worry about her father when she returned home with a large bag, so she came to the studio and planned to stay here for a few days.
Fortunately, there is a separate bathroom in her office. She is petite, and the sofa is big enough for her to sleep on.
People say that when you are sad, busyness is the best numbing medicine.
Therefore, she worked desperately, only wanting to complete the projects that Ou Junyan assigned to her, so that her studio could gain a certain reputation in the industry. Once a newly established studio like theirs takes over a relatively large project, and
If you do it successfully, your reputation will gradually grow.
After everyone had dispersed and the sky was getting dark, the light bulb in her office suddenly went out.
Suddenly, I couldn't see my fingers...
Darkness came like a dense net, covering her whole body...
Her heart tightened, she fumbled for her phone, and looked around by the light on the phone screen.
Suddenly, I heard the sound of footsteps.
Then the sound of the door opening...
Hai Yao's nerves suddenly became tense, and her voice became weak as she couldn't help but ask, "Who is it!"
The man didn't respond and brought a stool over from the side. He stood on the stool and touched the light tube with his tentacles...
Just when Haiyao's heartbeat was racing and she was about to call the police out of fear, the light came on.
The strong light forced her to squint her eyes, and she saw the familiar figure reaching out to twist the lamp. When the brightness of the lamp stabilized, he got down from the stool and looked at her with doubtful and surprised eyes. Gu Tingchuan sighed.
Explain, "I passed by here and saw that the lights inside you suddenly dimmed, so I came in to take a look."
ps; Good night╭(╯3╰)╮Thank you everyone for the red envelopes and gifts.