In the dream, bits and pieces of text in Lin Youya's diary seemed to be imprinted in Li Muxin's mind, constructing real pictures one after another, all about Lin Youya's past.
"Since childhood, I have had no friends. I don't like my dad, he is very cold to me. I never like to take the initiative to talk to people, until one time...
At that time, I was only seven or eight years old, and my father took my brother and me back to China to attend a banquet. I was very quiet, sitting alone in a corner, playing with myself. I am used to this kind of loneliness. I am just my father.
The daughter of my ex-wife, a child with no inheritance rights, not many people will pay attention to me. They will only praise my young brother, praising him for being cute and polite, and that he will definitely inherit the Lin family's property in the future. But what about me?
On the contrary, I never smile and don't like to greet my elders, so no one likes a little girl like me.
‘Why are you unhappy?’ Far away, I heard a voice as gentle as the wind coming from behind. I was lonely and suddenly felt a warmth. I turned around and looked at him.
He is about fifteen or sixteen years old and has a pair of beautiful eyes. I guess he is of mixed race. Because he has the deep outlines of a European and the delicacy of an Oriental. The combination of his facial features is impeccable. I am
I have seen many beautiful boys abroad, but I have never seen a boy like this. His appearance seemed like a bright star in the night sky, lighting up my lonely and deserted world.
I said, 'It has nothing to do with you.'
He lowered his body and touched my head. His eyes, which are more beautiful than gems, seemed to show his love for me. At least that's what I felt. He was pitying me. It was an emotion that I felt the same way.
.I will always remember his gentle smile, 'Children, you shouldn't be so sad, you should play with the other children at the party.'
I sneered, 'I'm not a child, I don't want to play with them.' Then, I seemed silent for a while, and asked, 'You don't look big, you are a child too.'
He said, 'I'm not a child, I'm fifteen.'
I said, "Fifteen is not an adult, he is a child like me." At that time, I didn't know why I was so serious. I, who never like to talk, actually said so many words to him.
He patted my head, which hurt! Then he took my hand and said, 'Since we are both children, let me play with you. You are so beautiful and you should smile more, you know?'
Well, smile more... I always told myself to smile more, so later I learned how to fake a smile in front of annoying people.
That night was really the happiest night in my life. He and I made trouble everywhere and broke a lot of things in the banquet. We ran outside to the garden and shouted loudly at the beautiful starry sky. As for what we shouted:
I don’t remember what it was, maybe it was to vent, to let out the depression in my heart. I can feel that he is very similar to me. Our hearts are both lonely and unloved, and his daddy doesn’t seem to be either.
I like him so much, but he has learned to be a gentle gentleman in front of others, polite and lovable.
I asked him, what is your name. He told me, his name is Daniel.
Well, I remember this name, the big brother named Daniel!
After that, my dad and I returned to China. I never saw him again. I thought I would forget him forever, because after all, it was just a memory of my childhood, but... why should I meet him again.
After graduating from college, I wanted to get away from my father, so I returned to China. As soon as I returned to China, I attended a business party. I didn’t know many people. I felt lonely at the party, but it was just a loneliness in my heart, because there were many excellent people around me.
The man seems to be trying to figure me out.
At that party, I heard the name Daniel again, and I thought, could it be him? I was looking forward to it, I hoped it was him, but I was afraid that he had forgotten me.
Those deep brown eyes have become more and more charming. As he has grown up, he has lost his youthfulness and turned into a very mature and charming man. Although he has changed, it should be said that he has become more handsome!
But I can recognize it at a glance - it's him!
I was so excited that I rushed up to say hello to him.
But...he couldn't recognize me.
It's obviously a gentle smile, but it gives people a feeling of being cold to the core, making it difficult to get close. It's strange, he has indeed changed! He is no longer the gentle big brother, it is like a different person. To me when I grow up
, there seemed to be a kind of disgust in his eyes.
I don’t understand why he hates me. I obviously listened to his words and learned to laugh...
At one time, I thought I wasn't good enough because the woman beside him, Shirley, was really perfect. But gradually I discovered that he and Shirley were not as loving as I thought.
I decided to break them up and I would do whatever it took, even asking my dad to help me.
I have never spoken to my father. I cried and begged him to help me, as if he was repaying the debt he owed me and my mother. He must help me for my happiness!
Yes, I admit that I used some means and united with some people he hated to get him.
He finally proposed to me, but I couldn't laugh.
What is in the gentle eyes?
It's hate!
I'm sorry, Daniel, because I love you, so I can only do this.
Although I can't get your love now, I believe that one day, you will fall in love with me..."
Lin Youya, loved Han Shilin so deeply, for more than ten years... ever since she was a little girl, she recognized him from the first time she saw him.
Lin Youya's love, Lin Youya's tears, are so real...
The real pictures before Li Muxin's eyes were too lifelike.
As if it happened to another person, Lin Youya's love for Han Shilin's dance was like a vine wrapped around Li Muxin, and then it was so tight... so tight that she couldn't breathe!
Lin Youya's pain was like using needles on vines to pry open holes in Li Muxin's body. The blood flowed continuously. Her pain and her memories dragged Li Muxin into hell, and they had to bear it together!
It’s so uncomfortable, my heart aches!
Li Muxin suddenly opened his eyes and broke away from his dream.
"Ah..." she exclaimed.
"What's wrong?" A gentle voice, a gentle caress... just like pampering your beloved pet, caressing Li Muxin over and over again without getting tired of waking up from a nightmare.
He was worried about her, fearing that he did not protect her enough, and began to blame himself for not being with her last night.
"I...had a nightmare..." Li Muxin was sweating and removed Han Shilin's big hand.
Han Shilin was a little disappointed. He could only curl his lips helplessly at Li Muxin's indifference.
Li Muxin lowered his head, and through his jet-black hair, he could vaguely feel those injured brown eyes, which seemed to be melancholy about something alone.
But she didn't dare to accept his kindness to her. She was wary of him and couldn't believe his feelings for her for a while.
Coupled with Lin Youya's diaries, a kind of guilt suddenly arose in her heart, a deep, deep guilt... It was deeply entangled in her heart, warning her not to touch other people's things!
Yes... Han Shilin should belong to Lin Youya. They are from the same world and they should be a couple.
Lin Youya did many things for Han Shilin behind the scenes, although at first she used her father's power to suppress Wei Lin, and then teamed up with Han Shijun to force Han Shilin into a desperate situation, putting Wei Lin into an unprecedented predicament.
Lin Youya found out that there were two people Han Shilin hated the most in his life. One was Miranda, his mother; the other was his younger brother, Han Shijun. Lin Youya was engaged to Han Shijun first, so Han Shilin would naturally not let Han Shijun become the son-in-law of the Lin family.
, the benefits gained, so Han Shilin quickly got involved in Lin Youya's situation. Not only did he ruin his engagement with Han Shijun in front of everyone, but he also helped Han Shilin solve the company's crisis when he was in the most difficult time.
After getting married, Lin Youya was behind Wei Lin's listing, including several subsequent crises in the company, and asked Lin Hongde to solve them.
But Han Shilin disdained Lin Youya's help. After their wedding, he seemed very cold towards Lin Youya. Especially when Han Shilin gradually learned that Lin Youya had set a trap for Han Shilin to marry her, he became even more indifferent to her.
A woman who falls in love with a man who doesn't love her is destined to be miserable.
How many people envy this golden couple. Behind the superficial love, there are many nights of speechlessness. The misunderstandings deepen little by little. They are only a husband and wife in law, but they are strangers in life.
…
"What are you thinking about?" Han Shilin's concerned words made Li Muxin suddenly wake up.
Her mind was in confusion, and she became increasingly confused about what kind of person Han Shilin was and how many things had happened between him and Lin Youya.
Last night, Li Muxin didn't read all the diaries. He only knew that Han Shilin was very cold towards Lin Youya at first. But what happened later...did they really fall in love?
Will it be like us now, turning from hate to love?
Was Han Shilin's confession to him a few days ago sincere? Or was it based on his love for Lin Youya?
"It's nothing, I want to get up." Li Muxin said lightly, avoiding Han Shilin's eyes, walked past him and entered the bathroom.
The door closed gently, and Han Shilin sat alone on the edge of the bed, lowering his head sadly.
Sadness had never made him feel as painful as it did now. He tried her best again and again, but all he got was her indifference. Was he not good enough to her?