I sat paralyzed on the ground and looked at the ground calmly, as calm as water. I didn't know what was going on in my mind. For a short moment, I had the urge to die.
Tears fell down from time to time, hitting the ground and causing small splashes of water.
I don’t know how long I did it, but I felt the door of the ward was opened again, and the footsteps were getting closer and closer.
Finally, I was picked up and gently put back on the bed. They covered me with a quilt.
I didn't pay attention to it, I just looked at a certain point among them, my eyes were looking straight at that point, without focus, and staring blankly like a lost soul.
I know, I know that person is Ouyang Xu. No one outside of Ouyang Xu knows that I exist.
"Ouyang Xu, do you know my dream?" I knew he was standing next to me. I spoke in a low voice, my voice a little hoarse.
Ouyang Xu did not speak and fell silent.
"When I was little, probably from the age of four, my mother let me learn ballet and a series of dances. I also worked very hard and studied hard. I also learned when others were learning, and I was alone when others were resting at home.
I review what I have learned by myself in the dance studio at home, and then keep turning and practicing, just for one, my dream. To be a successful dancer, to be a world-renowned dancer. There is
Hard work will definitely pay off, and I succeeded. When I was ten years old, I surpassed my teacher and was sent to France to continue my studies. I knew that there was still a long way to go before the day of my dream.
Go, but I am not afraid. I have unwavering confidence. I know that if I work hard, as long as I have the perseverance and determination, I will be able to succeed. But-" I told my story bit by bit, my voice following.
As the plot changed, I became excited later on.
"However, all these efforts have been lost. I am now a disabled person, and my dream will never be realized. I can only stay in bed now, and I rely on you to help me with all my daily life. I want to
I can only go out with the help of a wheelchair. Do you know that I am not willing to accept it? I tell myself time and time again that as long as I work hard, as long as I persist, as long as I don’t lose heart, get discouraged, and don’t believe in destiny, I will definitely be able to stand up.
"But why? Why can't I stand up? Am I wrong?" The tears burst out again. I am very excited now. I am going crazy, yes! I am going crazy. No one can
Know how I feel.
"No, you can get better, believe me." Ouyang Xu grabbed my shoulders, stared into my eyes, and told me firmly.
But can you believe it?
"Can I believe it? What can I believe? I can only live in a wheelchair for the rest of my life. Isn't this a conversation between you and the doctor? Why are you deceiving me with such words?"
I don’t believe it, I don’t believe it. I don’t want to believe anyone. I kept shaking my head to express my disbelief.
"I am a useless person, a person without dreams. Now I am like a bird with broken wings. No one will want me, no one will care about me. They will only pity me and pity me, because I am a useless person. A
No one will care, no one will want to be disabled." I roared and let out all my anger.
No one will want me, my dream is broken, my dream is extinguished. Who will want me if I am a disabled person?
"No one wants you, but I want you; they pity you, but I don't pity you."
No one wants you, I want you...
Ouyang Xu's words deeply touched my heart.
I looked at him in disbelief, was he pitying me?
"Haha, Ouyang Xu, I don't need anyone's pity, including you. You don't need to blame yourself, this is my life." I said with a wry smile.
Ouyang Xu didn't say anything. Did he agree with what I said? It turns out that he really pities me. Why does his heart hurt so much?
"Yan Zihan..." a hoarse voice sounded.
I raised my head and looked at him, and for the next second I stayed there completely.