"At first, I thought she was just transferring her feelings for you to me, so I refused without hesitation every time... But later... I really couldn't bear it, so I thought, even if it was just a transfer...
So what, I am willing, really..." Cangmu smiled, the smile was a bit far-fetched.
Yi Xiao felt a tight pain in his chest. He knew that Cangmu was definitely not showing off anything to him. However, after so many years... the pain still lingered in his heart when he thought of the flower of love that never came to fruition.
go……
"Is it like this as soon as you arrive abroad?" He suppressed his turbulent emotions and continued to ask calmly.
Cangmu pondered for a long time, then shook his head cautiously, "I have always felt that something was wrong, so I paid special attention to it. In my impression, she seemed to have changed after returning from a psychological consultation four years ago. I originally thought that she
It was done intentionally, so I don’t dare to confirm it.”
"Psychological consultation?" Yi Xiao focused on these words, "What's wrong with her? Why does she need psychological treatment?"
His question made Kuraki obviously startled.
"I don't know whether to talk about the past or not." The tone was particularly heavy, as if a huge stone was pressed in his throat. Cangmu raised his eyes and looked at Yi Xiao, who couldn't hide his worried look across from him, before he seemed to make up his mind to speak.
, "At that time, the girl had to go to psychotherapy every week. It was really because... those days were too painful, no... maybe it is more appropriate to describe it as horrific. Not only was she suffering from torture, but also a...
As an outsider, I almost had an emotional breakdown several times, so without psychological treatment, she would not have survived until the end."
Speaking of this, Kuraki couldn't help but have dark circles in his eyes.
I really can't forget that those thin wrists that were originally as white as gelatin were torn into layers of thick calluses by the cold shackles...
I can't forget, inside that cold high wall, the crumbling and desperate screams and pleas for help... No self-esteem, no pride, only whining begging left...
He was silent, his eyebrows furrowed indicating that he was currently living in an extremely painful memory.
Yi Xiao didn't say anything for a long time, let alone urge him. His deep eyes were half-squinted, unable to see through any emotion, but his breathing unconsciously became depressed and heavy... The fingers resting on the sofa were turning pale...
What happened in the past four years that he didn't know about but that she couldn't bear?
The atmosphere in the locker room... was so stagnant that it was suffocating...
"Brother, have you ever thought about why the girl suddenly planned to go abroad four years ago? And we left in such a hurry." After a long while, Cangmu seemed to recover from the painful memory, and did not continue talking, but just said lightly
Ask the other person.
Yi Xiao shook his head quietly, "I thought it was strange, but at that time, I couldn't care about so much anymore. I just wanted to... let her leave my side..."
Cangmu smiled bitterly, took a deep breath, and then told the heavy truth with difficulty, "She... is addicted to drugs..."
Yi Xiao's whole body was shaken on the spot as if struck by lightning.
Drug addiction? How is that possible?!
His Yi Shu is willful, stubborn, but also proud. How could she be involved with drugs!!
"Actually, if I hadn't seen it with my own eyes, even I wouldn't have believed it. How could the fifteen or sixteen-year-old, the most glorious years, have anything to do with such dark things? But... the reality is so cruel..."
"How could this happen?" His voice was trembling, and his chest was severely clogged. Feeling distressed, ashamed, annoyed, worried...complicated emotions tortured him in turn...
Cangmu shook his head, "Even she herself didn't know how she encountered that terrible thing. Fortunately, she bravely survived it in the end." After saying this, Cangmu's gloomy face showed a slight smile of relief.
Yi Xiao always had a pale face and did not say a word, nor did he feel happy because of his relief. Instead... he felt more boundless self-blame...
"It seems that our topic is a bit far away." Kuraki forced a smile to break the heavy atmosphere at the moment.
Yi Xiao came back to his senses and looked at Cang Mu with complicated eyes, looking a little lonely. "If she really has lost her memory...will Yi Shu still want to go back to that memory?" This answer was his.
…Not sure at all…
Cangmu was stunned for a moment and fell into an obscure silence. He couldn't answer this question for the girl.
Retrieving that memory may also retrieve her unforgettable memory. He is not sure whether his current relationship with the girl can still be maintained...
Yi Xiao stood up and said, "There are some discrepancies in her memory. Let me investigate." There was very little that could be done for her.
"As for whether she wants to find those lost things now, I think we should..."
"We respect her opinion." Cangmu also stood up and took over his words.
Yi Xiao tugged his lips and nodded slightly.
The two people's opinions coincided with each other.
Perhaps the two of them love Yi Shu equally.
………………Dividing line………………
After leaving the banquet, Yi Xiao immediately left for the United States.
Recently……
Yi Shu was always stuck in a trance.
At night, curled up on the big bed, she would always dream.
It's not a nightmare, but it always smells of sadness and heartache.
The dreams may be different, but the same figure always appears.
Slender, tall and straight... a figure that seems to be able to withstand everything for her...
…
"This will be your home from now on."
…
"As long as you are willing, this place will belong to you for the rest of your life..."
…
"Yishu, if you are sure you don't regret it, then...let's try it!"
…
The slight pain in her heart suddenly woke her up.
Her eyelashes trembled and she opened her eyes.
In his mind, a pair of quiet and calm deep eyes remained.
Who is that?
Why does it keep appearing in her dreams?
It's obviously a dream, but why does it seem so real?
Inadvertently, those eyes overlapped with the strong body in the swimming pool that day.
I was startled and my thoughts were confused.
…
"Girl, are you awake?" There was a knock on the door suddenly, and a warm voice sounded outside the door.
The pain lingering in my heart gradually became lighter...
"It's time to get up and have breakfast."
With bare feet, she jumped out of bed and opened the door.
At the door, a charming face with a dazzling smile.
When his eyes met her feet, he glared at her fiercely, "If you don't wear shoes so early in the morning, who will take care of you if you catch a cold?!"
"I'm not afraid, Mumu is here." She threw herself into his arms nonchalantly, acting coquettishly.
He reluctantly picked her up and put her on the bed, "Change clothes and let's go out after dinner."