In my memory, there always seems to be such a person.
Her speaking voice is very nice, and there is a kind of gentleness in it. When she smiles, there is a small pear dimple on the right side of her mouth, which matches the curvature of the corner of her mouth and is radiant.
When they met for the first time, he was very nervous and stayed in the nanny's arms until he was pushed to her. The nanny introduced him: "Young master, this is your sister."
Sister? He looked at her. He had lived with his parents in the United States since he was born. When he saw this half-sister for the first time, he would always be a little curious and nervous.
The girl squatted down in front of him, and her slightly scattered hair brushed his face, which was soft and comfortable. She smiled and handed him an exquisite cake box: "This is the first time we meet, my name is Gu Yuxi, and I am yours.
Sister." The pear vortex is looming.
Gu Yuxi, Gu Yuxi, Gu Yuxi...
For the first time, he, who was always cute and talkative and loved by his neighbor's aunt, was suffocated by the sudden nervousness. He was so clumsy that he couldn't answer a word.
The nanny explained awkwardly from behind: "Master, he..."
The girl waved her hand to stop the nanny, then held her hand and asked, "Do you like watching cartoons?"
He held the cake box and nodded silently. In fact, he didn't like looking at it, but because she was accompanying him, he didn't find it annoying at all.
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His parents are always very busy with their business in the United States, so for a few months every year, he has to be sent back to the country to live with his sister.
Those were also the happiest days of his childhood.
My sister is always quiet and doesn't like to talk. She always likes to stay at home when there are no classes. She draws silently by herself, makes snacks, or watches animations with him.
Her hands are very skillful, and the pastries she makes taste delicious, and they always capture his taste buds easily.
At that time, what they watched the most was "Doraemon". During the break, his sister asked him: "Of course, if you have Doraemon, what is your most wanted wish to come true?"
He was silent for a moment, and just about to speak, she laughed. She reached out and plucked off the stray snack crumbs from his mouth, and said: "Of course you are a greedy cat, what you want most is countless delicious food. Unfortunately -."
"
Her expression suddenly darkened: "Sister, I can't do this to you for the rest of your life."
My heart suddenly felt a little painful.
In fact, my sister has been wrong all along. He doesn't like sweets, let alone watching "Doraemon". And the only reason he is willing to do this is to be with her.
Looking at her face, he swallowed back the words he was about to say.
If he had Jingle Cat, his only wish would be to let him be born ten years earlier. In that way, he would have a tall, solid body and a mature and steady mind. In that way, he would have the opportunity to stand as a man.
Be with her, not the boy.
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My sister likes children very much, so she goes to the kindergarten to do volunteer work every week. And he, a little follower, follows her without hesitation.
In the morning, she took the group of children who were only three or four years old to play and play, while he, an eight or nine-year-old boy, sat on the swing on the side and watched her. It was boring, but he didn't think it at all.
In his spare time, his sister would come over and sit on the swing next to him, looking at the group of children playing in the sun, lost in thought.
Then he said coldly: "Of course, in this life, my sister will never have a child."
He turned his face to look at her, confused.
"Sister is guilty." She reached out and rubbed his soft hair. Her faint smile, with a bit of bitterness, made his heart skip a beat.
Guilty? What crime?
At that time, he really wanted to ask, but he never could.
Then the sister closed her eyes and swung on the swing. Her black hair seemed to be rubbed into golden light, fluttering in the wind, and reflected in his eyes, fine and warm.
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On her ninth birthday, he waited for her at home for a whole day. His sister, who had always been very homely, unexpectedly never came back.
The candles were blown out, the food was cold, and no bite was eaten.
With a heavy, suffocating feeling in his chest, he walked back to the room step by step. Then he buried himself in the quilt, but couldn't sleep.
At three o'clock in the middle of the night, the door of the villa opened. He quietly pricked up his ears and listened carefully to her footsteps.
'Dong, dong, dong...' Outside the door of his room, the footsteps suddenly stopped, and then the door creaked open. He closed his eyes tightly, pretending to sleep to cover up his inner tension.
.
A pair of cold hands slid up his face, carefully brushing away his messy black hair. But he was very sensitive, and he smelled a faint aroma, a particularly 'pungent' aroma that did not belong to her.
.
He suddenly opened his eyes and stared at him, a little gloomy.
She was startled and said embarrassedly: "Did I wake you up?"
"It's okay." He said. Through the light in the corridor, he noticed that she was particularly different today. On top of her usually clean face, she wore delicate makeup. She was very beautiful and strange, which made him unconscious.
of panic.
"I'm sorry Ranran." Her voice was full of guilt: "Something happened to me today and I couldn't celebrate your birthday with you."
He still looked at her without saying a word. However, the nine-year-old boy's eyes were already so deep that it was scary.
As if aware of what he had been staring at, she stood up and said, "I'm going to wash my face first."
Then without waiting for his answer, he hurriedly ran away to the bathroom. After washing his face, he took another shower, trying to wash away all the scent of that man from his body.
When he re-entered the room, he had already gotten up, leaning against the wall behind him, with his head lowered, wondering what he was thinking.
Hearing the voice, he smiled at her, and the gloom in his eyes eased slightly: "Sister."
She also smiled and walked over: "Why don't you sleep?"
"Can't sleep."
"Do you want sister to sing to you?"
He thought for a moment, "Okay." This proposal made his heart move. In fact, he had heard her singing countless times in kindergarten. However, those singing voices did not belong to him. Tonight, he greedily wanted to have it.
A gift that only belongs to him.
She moved a chair, sat next to her, and sang: "On the banyan tree by the pond, cicadas are singing summer. On the swing by the grass, only butterflies are sitting on it. The teacher's chalk is still on the blackboard.
I kept chattering away and writing..."
That night, she sang for a long time. It was so long that he closed his eyes and pretended to sleep for several hours. Then she slowly stood up, turned off the light for him, and covered him with the quilt.
But when she left, she leaned over and placed a gentle kiss on his forehead.
At that moment, his heartbeat was so fast that it seemed like it would burst out of his chest.
He heard her say: "Happy birthday, of course."
That was the most profound and unforgettable birthday gift he had received so far.
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On the second day of his birthday, he was taken back to the United States by his parents.
For a long time after that, they didn't mention sending him back to China again. Vaguely, he felt that something had happened. For example, when his father was on the phone, he shouted angrily: "Okay, if you want to give birth to that bastard, just give birth to that bastard."
Don’t enter the gate of our Gu family, and don’t ever tell others your surname is Gu! I, Gu Zhengsheng, don’t have a daughter as embarrassing as you!”
His father threw down the phone and his face turned red with anger. His mother patted his back and comforted him: "Don't be angry, don't be angry. What can you do if you are so angry that you are so angry?"
Silently, he retreated to a corner, thinking of the night before leaving, and suddenly felt severe pain somewhere in his chest.
At the age of 12, at his strong request, his parents finally agreed to let him return to China to attend junior high school. When he saw her again, she had moved and lived in a villa with a large rose field.
That house is very beautiful and exquisite, but it is so quiet. It is so quiet that you can hear your breathing clearly.
No matter where or where he went, there was a terrible feeling of emptiness.
Like a tomb.
However, after only staying for a few hours, he felt like he was sitting on pins and needles. The emptiness and coldness were terrifying. He didn't understand why she could live alone in this tomb for so long.
He pulled her and wanted to take her away.
But she gently broke away from his hand: "Of course, thank you for the years when you accompanied me. It was my happiest time... But now, it is gone forever."
But, that was not his happiest childhood.
Later, he would visit her every now and then and talk to her. During the summer vacation of the first year of junior high school, he had to return to China at the request of his parents.
But when he came back again, she was gone.
The whole villa was deserted. The roses in the garden gradually withered, dulled and withered because no one took care of them. So, as he expected, the place became an empty tomb.
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Returning to the kindergarten where his sister often went, he said that he wanted to replace his sister and take care of the children here for a day. At the age of 13, he had already lost the youthfulness he had when he was eight or nine years old, and he had grown a lot taller. In addition, he had always been
His steady eyes made him look mature like a high school student.
The dean only hesitated for a moment before agreeing.
So like his sister in the past, he took the group of children who were only a few years old to play, play games, and sing to them. He did many things that he had never done before.
He didn't know why he was acting like this, but the heavy feeling of suffocation in his heart told him that if he didn't do something, he would go crazy.
During lunch break, he closed his eyes and slept on the kindergarten teacher's exclusive big bed, but his mind was in chaos and he couldn't fall asleep at all.
As soon as he closed his eyes, it was that empty lonely grave where she was buried, and everything about his childhood was buried with it.
until--.
A pair of soft lips slowly covered him. The owner of the lips just touched her gently and left quickly. He felt the warm breathing lingering on his cheeks, but the surroundings were quiet.
The owner of the lips observed him for a while, and found that he still didn't wake up. He felt a little strange, thinking that he hadn't kissed him enough. So he lowered his head again, and this time not only sucked the corners of his stiff lips, but also greedily kissed him.
He took a few licks and didn't care about the person underneath him who was still frozen all the time.
After waiting for a while, she was finally disappointed, stood up, and left reluctantly.
He opened his eyes, and the moment she turned around, he saw clearly the name tag hanging on her chest - Qiao Raorao.
Unconsciously, my heart, which had been depressed for a day, finally relaxed.
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Many, many years later, on a plane bound for city A from the UK.
After lunch, Qiao Raoruo touched his belly with satisfaction and prepared to take a nice nap. Unexpectedly, he suddenly said: "Actually, the person I kissed for the first time was not you."
Qiao Raoruo was stunned for a moment, and her face immediately burned up: "You...you, you know?"
"Yeah." He nodded and looked at her: "Because as early as the day I was born, I had already been secretly kissed by the doctor who delivered me. I can't help it. Being too good-looking is also very distressing.
It's something." His tone was solemn, but his words were very weak.
"Ah? How could this be possible?!" Qiao Raoruo said angrily: "Why is that doctor so unprofessional! Don't they know that the first kiss is a very sacred and important thing! It's such a pity that someone stole the first kiss casually.
!" Her tone was so angry, as if she had never done anything like secretly kissing someone else.
Gu Haoran closed her eyes and smiled. You idiot, you can't detect such an obvious lie. I really don't know how she survived for more than 20 years?
"Then..." Qiao Raoruo leaned over carefully, gritted her teeth, and asked the question she had always wanted to ask: "Then why don't you like me?" She had been secretly in love with him for so long, and he knew it clearly, but why?
Not even giving her a chance?
He frowned and thought for a moment: "Because you are too young."
"Little?" Qiao Raorao was stunned, and then muttered: "How am I little? I'm only two years younger than Xia Tong. She can do it, why can't I?"
He closed his eyes, said nothing, and seemed to be asleep.
She sighed again and said to herself: "Hey, I really wish I had a Doraemon and let it help me be born ten years earlier. That way, you wouldn't think I'm too young."
With his eyes closed, he froze because of her words.
…
"Of course, if you have Doraemon, what is your most desired wish?"
His only wish is to let him be born ten years earlier. In that way, he will have a tall, solid body and a mature and steady mind. In that way, he will have the opportunity to stand beside her as a man instead of
boy.
…
It turns out that life is always reincarnated.
And he always seems to be looking back.
He opened his eyes and looked at her. There was a faint light in his empty eyes.