Finally, Leng Ran suddenly got out of bed and stood quietly by the bed for a few seconds. Seeing that Bai Yawei still didn't respond, he turned around and walked out. When he reached the door, he dropped an awkward sentence: "Take the quilt
, otherwise I won’t have time to accompany you to the doctor tomorrow.”
Seeing that Bai Yawei still didn't move on the bed, he didn't force himself. He stepped out of the bedroom door and gently closed the door from the outside. At the same time, he sighed heavily. This situation made him very distressed. Not only did he
Because of Bai Yawei's sudden change in mood, and even more because he would actually spend time considering a woman's emotional changes, this change made him incredible.
You know, how many men are still willing to spend time on women's complex and changeable moods these days?
After hearing the door closing and waiting for a while to make sure that Leng Ran would never come back, Bai Yawei's vision gradually became focused, but the expression on her face still did not improve.
The moment she buried her face in the pillow, the darkness in her field of vision and the slight pain and warm touch coming from her lower back and lower body made her suddenly think of Leng Mohan. She didn't know why, but she just thought of Leng Mohan.
.
Thinking that she originally agreed to marry Leng Ran in order to preserve the Leng family, but now the situation seems to have changed. I always feel... I always feel that although the current situation is not what I want, my heart seems to enjoy it now.
The atmosphere is ambiguous, shy, and...warm...
But this feeling made her feel extremely guilty and self-blame after she thought of Leng Mohan. How could she enjoy the feeling now? If Mohan knew about it, how sad he would be!
But her heart seemed to no longer belong to her, which put her in an extremely contradictory situation. On the one hand, she was happy, but on the other hand, she felt extremely guilty. This made Bai Yawei feel that she was despicable, and even began to
I doubt my original intention of agreeing to marry Leng Ran. Could it be that... subconsciously, I was also willing to marry Leng Ran, so I deliberately found a high-sounding reason for myself and acted so heroic to paralyze myself.
To satisfy your own selfish desires?
How could this be? Impossible...No...I'm not like this...
This feeling made Bai Yawei extremely painful, and completely washed away the enjoyment and shyness hidden in her heart, and was replaced by slow pain and self-blame. This was her psychological change that Leng Ran could not guess just now.
Leng Ran didn't come back to this room again, which made Bai Yawei grateful and even more guilty. This guilt was for Leng Ran. He was kind-hearted when he helped her apply medicine from the beginning! He didn't mean to bully her. Now
She also left the bedroom that originally belonged to him because she was in a bad mood. She understood this subtle consideration, but she was even more confused.
Didn't Leng Ran want to marry me because he wanted to use me to take revenge on the Leng family? Then why did he treat me so well? Could it be that he... fell in love with me?
Oh my god! I'm crazy again! I'm the wife of someone he hates. How could he fall in love with me?
If not, then could it be that he did this just to make me fall into his tenderness, fall in love with him, and then completely betray the Leng family and Mohan?!
A cold feeling penetrated Bai Yawei's body and mind. Her thoughts were too confused now and she could no longer tell what was right and what was wrong.
Ah! I don’t want to think about it anymore! Such a headache came back to her mind again, just like the feeling she had for a few moments when she guessed who the man in the dark room was. She didn’t expect that the matter in the dark room was buried by her self-deception.
, another thing came up that bothered me, couldn’t I just enjoy every minute of peace?!
Leng Ran walked out of his bedroom and walked into the guest room diagonally opposite. His handsome face was full of sadness. He was troubled by Bai Yawei's changes and even more troubled by his own changes. This kind of thing was really hard work.
…
What Lan Ying said before in the bar rang in his ears again. If I give her a little more tenderness, will she fall in love with me? At that time... what will happen to me then? What will happen to me?
Will he proudly show off in front of Leng Mohan that Bai Yawei has fallen in love with him, or will he quietly enjoy the world between them?
It's very confusing and I can't figure it out. Until that moment, I can't make a decision for my actions in advance. Think about it, even a plan that has been planned for several years can be changed so easily, let alone what happens in the future.
Leng Ranguang was lying naked in the unfamiliar guest room, and suddenly he felt that his whole body seemed to relax a lot. Is it because he began to slowly let go of the hatred that he had suppressed in his heart for these years? Should he be like this? If it is really complete
If you give up, wouldn’t it become extremely hypocritical to avenge your mother that you have been clamoring for in your heart for many years?
Thinking of my mother's death, my calm heart was filled with pain again, no! I can't just let go of revenge on the Leng family. At least the whole family should go to my mother's grave to kneel down and repent, letting them know that they
What mistake did you make!
They don't even understand the suffering that my mother and I have endured over the years. It's merciful that I didn't let them live the same poverty as before. What's more, the biggest pain is actually the psychological trauma.
Do they know the painful feeling of being ridiculed as a "bastard" by their peers?
Do they know the helplessness of a weak woman and child who can only survive in the face of difficulties?
Do they know that confused feeling of not knowing where they will be tomorrow after today?
They don’t know, they don’t know too much. They have a happy family, grandpa, mom and dad, children, and a wealthy family. They will never understand the hard work and despair that my mother and I have gone through over the years. They don’t understand
…
The pain he had suffered for many years once again tortured Leng Ran's slightly relaxed heart. His whole heart seemed to be surrounded by a cage made of thorns, and the sharp thorns pierced into his heart one by one.
Every time he thought of a past event, the pain deepened. This made Leng Ran's original hesitation about taking Bai Yawei to live in Leng's house become firm again. He had already given up the opportunity to let them feel poverty. Then
We can no longer free them from the pain of their souls, bodies and souls. I wonder if that kind of torture will be even more painful for them?
The sadness on his face has been completely replaced by a cold and sardonic smile, and his heart is once again covered by darkness. The sunshine and warmth from the outside world are not enough to completely dispel the haze that has shrouded his heart for many years. From the beginning, he only knows revenge.
He has endured for so many years and made so many efforts for revenge. Hatred has become the driving force of his life, but it has also made him lose his future.
At that time, he didn't know how long he would be lost in hatred, and he didn't want to think about it deeply.
(The plot will become more intense at the beginning of tomorrow's chapter, ahem... the third update is completed today.)