"Susu!" I couldn't help shouting, got up and ran to the room, pushing the door open.
But I only found An Xiaowen standing blankly in the room looking at me.
"Xiaowen, are you scared?" I asked in a deep voice, trying my best to suppress the disappointment in my heart.
An Xiaowen shook her head and smiled shyly: "It's okay, Brother Yuchi, do you miss Sister Su too?"
I sighed and didn't answer.
"Brother Yuchi, let me say sorry to you on behalf of Sister Su. I know you like Sister Su very much, but..." An Xiaowen lowered her head and said softly while wagging her lips.
I walked over, held her shoulders, looked into her eyes and said seriously: "Xiaowen, emotional matters cannot be solved by apologizing. I don't blame Susu. If I were Susu, maybe I would be better than her."
It is even more difficult now. Since she is already in such a difficult situation, what reason do I have to blame her? In the past, Luo Qi did far more for her than I did, but neither of us knew it, but Su Su knew in her heart that this was
Enough! If Susu stays with me just because of her guilt for this relationship, I think, in fact, I will not be able to accept such charity, or a gift!"
I don’t want anyone to feel guilty because of the relationship between me and An Zhisu, or need others to take responsibility. In fact, relationships are very complicated, and I hope I can see them more clearly. Since she already has a heart, then,
What I did to her was only because of my love for her. Apart from her, how could anyone else compensate me? However, if she only wanted to compensate me because of guilt, what was the point of such compensation? I
I don’t want to force her, and I don’t want to live a life of self-deception. Telling myself every day that I love that woman actually really loves me, that would be more tiring than letting her go and making her happy now!
An Xiaowen pondered for a while, raised her head, looked at me with bright eyes, and said in a low but firm voice: "Brother Yuchi, let me compensate you for everything Sister Su owes you, okay?"
I shook my head: "Of course it's not good! Xiaowen, I have already said that I don't blame her, and I don't owe anything for this matter. You are a good girl. Even if Susu doesn't marry me, I will still take good care of you.
Because you are her sister, I will find a good family for you after a while, Xiaowen, don’t wrong yourself because of the guilt you think, okay? What Brother Yuchi needs is not charity!"
"But, Brother Yuchi, my feelings for you are not charity. I am willing to be like you to Sister Su. I just need to be here to protect you. I don't want to get married!" An Xiaowen's tone was urgent and resolute.
I was stunned for a moment, she seemed to be confessing to me, just like what I said to An Zhisu back then, as long as everything is fine with you, I will be sunny! I don’t marry just because I want to protect you, I don’t want to because
Other women are distracted. If I marry a woman back, I will feel indebted.
I can't let An Xiaowen delay her youth because of me. In that case, I won't be able to bear it. I don't want to feel guilty for her. I am willing to pay for An Zhisu, but I can't take it for granted that another person treats me like me.
She was silently devoted to An Zhisu, not to mention that she was An Zhisu's biological sister! I felt cruel and said with some determination: "Xiao Wen, it's impossible for us! I don't want to delay you!"
"Then why are you willing to delay yourself for Sister Su?" An Xiaowen suddenly asked boldly, her eyes full of stubbornness, "My feelings for you are just wishful thinking, you don't have to care about me.
Pay and don’t feel indebted because of what I said!”
"Xiao Wen!" I sighed deeply. I didn't know how to persuade her, or in other words, how to stop her!
An Xiaowen suddenly smiled. This smile was clear and leisurely, with a touch of sadness in her eyes. She whispered: "Brother Yuchi, you should go back and rest first. If today brings any burden to you, you don't have to worry about it.
!”
She gently pushed away my hand on her shoulder, turned around and walked outside. At that moment, I saw the sparkle in her eyes. She was not a spoiled woman like Bai Xiaoqing, nor was she a domineering woman.
Her character has always been introverted. I don't know how much courage she mustered to say something like that today. However, I cannot accept any woman who is unexpected by An Zhisu, so I can only be cruel!
Looking at An Xiaowen's frail back, I felt a little distressed, but I had to hold back. I couldn't harm her because of my temporary weakness. Maybe after some time, she would be able to forget all this.
I sat down at the table and looked around at everything in the room. The time I spent with An Zhisu day and night for more than a year came back to my eyes like a phantom, her laughter, her sadness, every move she made in this room.
…
It seems that she is here and has not left. Her figure is trapped in my heart forever. I don't want to let her out, and I don't want others to come in. It's actually good to just watch her back silently.
,Is not it?
I just sat in her room until the sky gradually became brighter.
In the early morning, when I walked out of the room, a white figure passed by and walked to the next room. Could it be that she had been watching me outside all night? I couldn't bear it after all, but I still had to be cruel. I wanted to make this impossible
The feelings are nipped in the bud!
Luo Qi sent someone to convey a message saying that my one-year vacation had long ended and it was time to return to the court.
I smiled. Even though we almost turned against each other, after An Zhisu left, nothing seemed to have changed between us. He had no one close to him, and neither did I.
When I met Luo Qi, I finally understood that even if brothers fight, even if they fall out occasionally, this friendship cannot be erased by time, and the wounds of time have been repaired by time.
We already know what happened to An Zhisu. At this time, I hope she can be with the awakened Luo Qi. Just because of what she said, she pursued him from one world to another. She
Only Luo Qi can afford such happiness!
"Your Majesty!" I leaned over and saluted with my fists clasped.
"Forget it! I'm still used to you calling me Luo Qi! Are you so unfamiliar with me and so polite now, is it because you are still angry with me?" Luo Qi helped me up, punched me on the shoulder, and laughed.
Then he said, "As the saying goes, grudges disappear when we meet. You and I have been brothers for many years, so I won't say anything!"
I punched him back and laughed, "I also think it's more comfortable to call you Luo Qi!"