"Then tell me what the reason is?" I looked directly at Luo Qi and clenched my hands tightly. I suddenly felt a little nervous.
"Susu is just one of the reasons. You have liked Susu for many years, but you haven't seen your feelings for Susu clearly! You can't let go of your stubborn love for so many years. You can't face this kind of dislike.
The emptiness! You don’t believe that the feelings you have had for Susu for so many years may not go beyond the word “like”! The reason you fight with me is because of your strong desire to protect, not because of true love, do you understand? "
Luo Qi analyzed slowly, "How nervous you are towards Xiaowen, don't you feel it at all?"
I smiled bitterly and looked at Luo Qi and An Zhisu who were cuddling together. I didn't comment on Luo Qi's words and just said lightly: "I don't want to hurt Xiaowen. I don't want her to be with me. Only then did I realize that my
Heart, she can't break in!"
"Yu Chiyue, can you stop being so stubborn!" An Zhisu shouted loudly, "Even if you think your feelings for me are love, and you love me very much and are willing to see me happy, have you ever thought about it?
, I already have my life, and you must also have yours, do you want Luo Qi and I to feel guilty for you for the rest of our lives?"
"I don't want you to feel guilty. I just don't want to let anyone down, especially Xiaowen! She is a kind girl!" I said in a deep voice, "I hope she can have a good home and not be aimless with me.
I can't wait any longer, I don't want her to be unhappy with me..."
An Zhisu looked at me steadily and said coldly: "Yu Chiyue, let me ask you one last time, are you willing to accept Xiao Wen? Maybe you can't love her now, you don't love her enough, but maybe one day, you
You will find that you have fallen in love with her irresistibly, but she has left you. At that time, you must not regret it!"
I nodded and said decisively: "I can't accept Xiaowen. I'm sorry for living up to everyone's expectations. I also hope that Xiaowen can be happy, but I really can't give her happiness!"
"Brother Yuchi, do you really hate me that much? Even if I don't want your love and just want to be with you, aren't you willing to accept me?" A small, hoarse voice sounded from behind, "I just want to be with you.
Following you!"
I was startled slightly and turned around slowly. An Xiaowen was holding on to the door frame and looking at me with tears on her face. Her expression was full of disappointment and endless sadness. I wanted to wipe away her tears, but I told her in my heart.
I have to hold back and not harm her because of impulse. She should have her own life! But I still can't bear it, and my heart is filled with suppressed pain.
"Xiaowen, I'm sorry..." I didn't dare to look at her, sighed, turned around and left the palace.
"Brother Yuchi!" A hysterical call came, and sobs came from behind. I didn't dare to look back, so I kept moving forward until the moment I walked into the palace. My heart felt like a piece was missing. From now on, An
Xiaowen will never return to the palace again!
I walked into Nanyuan, sat in the pavilion, and stared at the dark room, but I couldn't calm down in my heart. I turned my head habitually, but there was no one around to accompany me to gaze at the silence in that corner. I sat alone.
, I didn’t get up until I felt cold all over.
"Xiao Wen, go back and have a rest!" I said without realizing it. When I turned around, I realized that there was nothing around me. She would never appear in this place again. From now on, I could only miss the one who would never come back. Is it tiring to miss someone alone? Now, it seems that there is one more person in my heart that I need to miss. When I miss An Zhisu, my heart is full of memories, and when I miss An Xiaowen, my heart is full of memories. But I felt empty and frustrated. I suddenly wanted her to stay with me like this.
I found that I was used to and liked her silence with me. Only she would sit quietly next to me, saying nothing, and quietly looking into the distance with me. Just like that, the two of us sat together. It was slightly cooler, and then everyone went back to rest.
She is always quiet not far from me, so quiet that I would ignore her existence. So quiet, as if she has merged with me, so that I cannot ignore her quietness. Without her, this quietness seems... Lost its meaning.
Suddenly I realized that it seemed that I had become accustomed to her presence in my life and I couldn't lose her.
I think that after the court tomorrow morning, I should take An Xiaowen back to the palace.
After finally waiting until the end of the morning session, Luo Qi, like me, didn't look very good.
I followed Luo Qi directly towards Qianqing Palace. As I walked, I said, "Luo Qi, I want to take An Xiaowen back to the palace today!"
"No! If I take her back and let you stimulate her every day, how can she recover from her illness! If I ask you to take her away like that, Su Su will kill me!" Luo Qi flatly refused.
"Don't worry! Susu won't kill you! I have to take Xiaowen back!" I said firmly.
"You rejected her so resolutely yesterday, and now you are so resolute in taking her back. Are you having a headache?" Luo Qi looked at me crossly and continued to walk forward.
"Luo Qi, can't you learn from Su Su? You have learned every word she curses! No matter what, I have to take An Xiaowen back to the palace today. You don't need to scold me or comfort me. I've made up my mind and you can't change it!" I caught up with Luo Qi and said, "You're trying to rob Susu from me because she's already married to you. It doesn't make sense for you to rob Xiaowen from me!"
"She is my sister-in-law! She is the queen's biological sister. The queen said she would not let anyone take her sister away, which made her sister sad. How dare I say anything wrong?" Luo Qi gave me a look.
"No matter what happens to you two, I'm going to take Xiaowen away anyway!" I kept repeating this sentence.
Luo Qi finally said impatiently: "Whether Xiaowen wants to go back with you or not is still the same thing! As long as she is willing to go back with you, is it useful for me to stop her? She is willing to go back with you, but if I stop her, I will still make Su Subu angry. So happy!"
"Then do something to make Susu happy and leave Xiaowen to my care!" I seemed to see hope. As long as Susu is happy, everything will be easy for Luo Qi.
"But Susu is very dissatisfied with you now! If you want to take Xiaowen away, it depends on your luck, whether Susu is willing to let you take her away, and whether she will follow you and return to the palace with you. It’s so sad!” Luo Qi sighed and said meaningfully, “A woman’s broken heart is the hardest to repair! Haven’t my painful experiences made you understand this obvious truth?”